58/1
well look at e time now its like about 1940pm n im still in skool...i jus finished rushing up my last part of e project haha (whew)...so now im jus blogging to keep ppl updated haha....yet another sigh of relief....woah....today i woke up tired.....i was like wishing today was wednesday n all...but then again i was wishing dis week almost never happened.....well tml is my project submission date...whew everything is over!! then next week i hav term test!! can u believe it?? at e christmas period!! well im quite thankful dat i can still go for carolling(i'm half in-charge of it but im sorry zhi xian, i think im not of much help...anyway my term test finishes on the 22nd!! how much of God's provision is dat?!?).....well help im leading my so-called a.g.(or bible study as some would call it) tml!! i haven prepared much n im not too sure which verses im supposed to cover until (help la)....dat reminds me...i havta call n remind ppl to come for a.g......oh yeah im quite happy i can go for frisbee tml as well....good break before a cramming period...haha
jus some side thots....
i was around them....i joined in their cheap thrills jus now in the lt...throwing papers balls (or trying at least) into baskets......i watched on silently, thotfully, as they went into another person's friendster account to see 'chio bu's comments flew and stung but i kept quiet....next i watched on in the same lt as they watched some happy tree frens show....then they watched some guy talking about 'soft porn'....i felt quite disturbed but luckily i didnt really watch much cos my back was turned while i was walking up the steps of the lt.....i knew i should hav done sumtin to.....(try n preach to them?), (guide them away from their folly?).......i should hav done some "constructive work(my dad's common words)" about my project when we were all waiting for the makeup lecture....then mayb i wont havta rush until so late hah....
THEY were my skool frens, obscene comments flying here n there....
i feel so like an alien here....besides e fact dat im not close to them, i really strongly feel as if i dun belong to their group.......im saddened dat the morals of e guys and even girls hav been degraded to such an extent.....(im not saying my morals are very perfect, in fact they arent....onli God can help me change them....).....how do i go about in spreading THE TRUTH to them?? quite lost...how can i feel a 'love' for them?? help me Lord......
Thursday, December 15
Tuesday, December 13
harder to breathe
57/1
its been a long time since i last posted.....really busy in skool with all e project deadlines and all coming up....(is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe) haiz i really enjoyed all e company and the new frens i made at yf camp....but e problem is my mind is still in the yf mood now......enjoy and slack....jus spend time with frens all dat....like my brother said....i wake up n i wonder y there's no workshop today oh wells.....i wanna go back to free and easy heaven....haha crap.....my term test is coming up next week....help.....anyone wanna talk to me jus give me a call or msg me la k? u should noe my number...i welcome the sanity break haha...
mayboo, alicia and mel is satan, i wanna get photos of u gals before u all scater to unknown places haha...for the one reason dat u all look rather funny....help me there's like not enuf time to take deep breaths hahaha ;)
its been a long time since i last posted.....really busy in skool with all e project deadlines and all coming up....(is there anyone out there cause its getting harder and harder to breathe) haiz i really enjoyed all e company and the new frens i made at yf camp....but e problem is my mind is still in the yf mood now......enjoy and slack....jus spend time with frens all dat....like my brother said....i wake up n i wonder y there's no workshop today oh wells.....i wanna go back to free and easy heaven....haha crap.....my term test is coming up next week....help.....anyone wanna talk to me jus give me a call or msg me la k? u should noe my number...i welcome the sanity break haha...
mayboo, alicia and mel is satan, i wanna get photos of u gals before u all scater to unknown places haha...for the one reason dat u all look rather funny....help me there's like not enuf time to take deep breaths hahaha ;)
Thursday, November 24
56/1 my 5 quirks
Instructions of the tag:Given a topic, you are to write down your answers in your blog, and then send the same topic to 5 other people. Write down the names of these 5 people and link to them on your blog. Go visit their blogs to notify them that they are tagged. The 5 people who are tagged should, in their own blogs, write down the name and link of the person who tagged them, answer the same topic, and send it to another 5 people, etc.
merissa tagged me sucha long time ago....cant even remember when....ok 5 quirks dat i think are there la haha....
1)i like to laugh haha...makes me feel betta quite alot of times(but not as much as praising God haha)..i can be quite crazy many atimes jus dat i probably control myself depending on wad ppl im with....if im with crazy ppl, i'll jus go crazy....if im with ppl dat i think are kinda serious then i'll control myself n quieten down haha....so for those who dunno me when im crazy, either ur too serious or im jus not in e mood to joke haha.....
2)i like to suan ppl until they hav nuttin to say hahaha....is dat a quirk? (i dun think so....i would call it a talent haha) or am i jus brilliant?? haha oh wells...well doing it gives me a sense of achievement lol....feel good feeling.....pity e poor person who get suaned tho.....haiz...wad to do? i enjoy e process, one of another things dat make me happy haha
well i wanted to put dee siao as another 1 but its more or less e same so oh wells
3)well i like to act crazy and dance around with my brother, jonathan AND talk crap at home....cant really describe e 'dance' la but its unique...no dancer has done it before...next time ask my brother and i, we might do it together hahaha...its fun AND entertaining esp when its boring at home...nuttin to do, make my mum pek cheak haha...so fun...my mom's ultimate nitemare when my brother and i are at home together and we hav nuttin to do HAHAHA!
4)i like dreaming of myself either fighting (or so owning) someone in fights......from normal tongue lashing to fistfights, street fights and all....couldnt really describe it......even with frens lol.....its like my anger syndrome...after a while i forget n i dun do anything about it (thankfully) haha.....i oso like dreaming dat im like super zhai in everything, doing stunts n all.....like back flips, ultra high jumps dat sorta thing......mayb dats one of e reasons y i wanna go n learn those gymnastic acrobat moves, nuttin to do jus jump and fly around......oh yeah all dis is not to attract attention but i dunno jus to pursue a passion haha...
final and last 1.....i cant really think of any more.....GIVE ME HONEY......think think(from pooh).....
5)hmm okayy i gott it....im actually quite shy....dun really noe wad to talk about with ppl.....i dun mind if ppl dun talk to me......its like i'm used to it since young ready....like primary skool i was a lone ranger as my parents called it....dun really remember all of dat but memories come in bits n pieces....secondary skool i'm not very close to anyone i my class tho its betta than primary skool la....mayb i should hav tried harder to bond with ppl then i can be one of those ppl dat are close to e ppl in their class n still in contact all dat haha....oh wells wads done is done, cannot help it haha....now in poly abit betta cos nowadays i eat with my frens from e same classs since yr 1....so we're in a sense closer together than with any of the other coursemates....but still no close frens....my close frens are mainly in church, andrew, titus dat batch.....bascially they are my age wad.....n we've been together in e same yd for like a whopping 9 yrs ready....of course close la....then there are a few others in yf......of course if i noe e person well enuf, i'll talk (ALOT) to them la....random stuff n all....
well dats all folks..oh yeah i dunno really noe who reads my blog.....oh wells i lazy to think of who i should tag....y dun those dat read go n post on dis topic n kindly put a tag at my tag board k? haha ;)
merissa tagged me sucha long time ago....cant even remember when....ok 5 quirks dat i think are there la haha....
1)i like to laugh haha...makes me feel betta quite alot of times(but not as much as praising God haha)..i can be quite crazy many atimes jus dat i probably control myself depending on wad ppl im with....if im with crazy ppl, i'll jus go crazy....if im with ppl dat i think are kinda serious then i'll control myself n quieten down haha....so for those who dunno me when im crazy, either ur too serious or im jus not in e mood to joke haha.....
2)i like to suan ppl until they hav nuttin to say hahaha....is dat a quirk? (i dun think so....i would call it a talent haha) or am i jus brilliant?? haha oh wells...well doing it gives me a sense of achievement lol....feel good feeling.....pity e poor person who get suaned tho.....haiz...wad to do? i enjoy e process, one of another things dat make me happy haha
well i wanted to put dee siao as another 1 but its more or less e same so oh wells
3)well i like to act crazy and dance around with my brother, jonathan AND talk crap at home....cant really describe e 'dance' la but its unique...no dancer has done it before...next time ask my brother and i, we might do it together hahaha...its fun AND entertaining esp when its boring at home...nuttin to do, make my mum pek cheak haha...so fun...my mom's ultimate nitemare when my brother and i are at home together and we hav nuttin to do HAHAHA!
4)i like dreaming of myself either fighting (or so owning) someone in fights......from normal tongue lashing to fistfights, street fights and all....couldnt really describe it......even with frens lol.....its like my anger syndrome...after a while i forget n i dun do anything about it (thankfully) haha.....i oso like dreaming dat im like super zhai in everything, doing stunts n all.....like back flips, ultra high jumps dat sorta thing......mayb dats one of e reasons y i wanna go n learn those gymnastic acrobat moves, nuttin to do jus jump and fly around......oh yeah all dis is not to attract attention but i dunno jus to pursue a passion haha...
final and last 1.....i cant really think of any more.....GIVE ME HONEY......think think(from pooh).....
5)hmm okayy i gott it....im actually quite shy....dun really noe wad to talk about with ppl.....i dun mind if ppl dun talk to me......its like i'm used to it since young ready....like primary skool i was a lone ranger as my parents called it....dun really remember all of dat but memories come in bits n pieces....secondary skool i'm not very close to anyone i my class tho its betta than primary skool la....mayb i should hav tried harder to bond with ppl then i can be one of those ppl dat are close to e ppl in their class n still in contact all dat haha....oh wells wads done is done, cannot help it haha....now in poly abit betta cos nowadays i eat with my frens from e same classs since yr 1....so we're in a sense closer together than with any of the other coursemates....but still no close frens....my close frens are mainly in church, andrew, titus dat batch.....bascially they are my age wad.....n we've been together in e same yd for like a whopping 9 yrs ready....of course close la....then there are a few others in yf......of course if i noe e person well enuf, i'll talk (ALOT) to them la....random stuff n all....
well dats all folks..oh yeah i dunno really noe who reads my blog.....oh wells i lazy to think of who i should tag....y dun those dat read go n post on dis topic n kindly put a tag at my tag board k? haha ;)
Monday, November 21
55/1 coming and coming
well.....e things i havta do keeps coming n coming......or rather i think im procrastinating and i push stuff to e next week and e next.....welll i can onli say dat e things dat i havta do are going to gett more and more la...its like every time im like Help! hahaha.....
some where deep inside of me i noe dat God is like so able to take (throw) me thru my troubles but i am jus not trusting God enuf!! i am limiting how much i allow God to work in my life! mann i hate that! its me! i'm sorry for not trusting u as much as i should,Lord.....
well i've been feeling betta about e frens i hav.....at least i can tell for certain dat i still hav my frens here and there, both likely and the unlikely....well God works in wonderous ways, ways dat i would never be able to fathom till i die....well anyways to all those frens dat made me realise in one way or another, thank you all....even if u dun even noe wad u've done or dat im writting dis haha....
my father is willing to consider allowing me to be in e yf comm next year.....but i will havta work out a schedule in which i havta be able to perform studying in every free time i hav i expect? e benefits of this would be dat i MIGHT be able to be in e comm AND be able to play frisbee as well!! yayy YAYY!! i really hope when its done it'll be to his satisfaction n it'll be a double ok for dis wann! haha....i must hav faith! haha....lye told me dat i onli hav 1 week to confirm with him! i think its jus not enuf time! but oh wells i jus leave it up to God la....if he doesnt want me to be in the committee then i will go by His wishes and mayb go on board e OM ships if He wills....i will continue to pray.....
who's reading dis?...?...?...
some where deep inside of me i noe dat God is like so able to take (throw) me thru my troubles but i am jus not trusting God enuf!! i am limiting how much i allow God to work in my life! mann i hate that! its me! i'm sorry for not trusting u as much as i should,Lord.....
well i've been feeling betta about e frens i hav.....at least i can tell for certain dat i still hav my frens here and there, both likely and the unlikely....well God works in wonderous ways, ways dat i would never be able to fathom till i die....well anyways to all those frens dat made me realise in one way or another, thank you all....even if u dun even noe wad u've done or dat im writting dis haha....
my father is willing to consider allowing me to be in e yf comm next year.....but i will havta work out a schedule in which i havta be able to perform studying in every free time i hav i expect? e benefits of this would be dat i MIGHT be able to be in e comm AND be able to play frisbee as well!! yayy YAYY!! i really hope when its done it'll be to his satisfaction n it'll be a double ok for dis wann! haha....i must hav faith! haha....lye told me dat i onli hav 1 week to confirm with him! i think its jus not enuf time! but oh wells i jus leave it up to God la....if he doesnt want me to be in the committee then i will go by His wishes and mayb go on board e OM ships if He wills....i will continue to pray.....
who's reading dis?...?...?...
Thursday, November 17
54/1 feel good?
well i haven been feeling too good.....dunno y leh....alot of stuff in my thots now...
1) how? i feel as if i am losing all the close frens i hav......e close frens i hav in yf is quite little......in a literal sense as well....if u noe me well enuf u should noe la hahaha....if u dunno then try asking me la hah...
2) skool life.....well im adapting rather well.....considering i didnt noe wad i was doing in e 1st week.....my father is like pressing me to revise e 2 weeks worth of lectures n stuff so i dun forget it.....im trying to and i noe he is doing all dis cos he wants me to do well or betta....i really hope i can keep up with my revision n all......jus now i talked to a coursemate lol.....walao his results are rather good la.....quite ashamed in a way to compare my g.p.a. to not onli his, but e top student in my course as well.....walao.....sumtin spurred me to work harder n study to pull my grade point average up...i knew y jus now but now i jus cant put my finger on it la....alot on my mind now....jus wanna go home n take a rest, pack up my room n think about wadeva is bothering me rite now......Really need to TRUST God now with my future, my happiness and all my cares and worries haiz (long big sigh in my heart)
1) how? i feel as if i am losing all the close frens i hav......e close frens i hav in yf is quite little......in a literal sense as well....if u noe me well enuf u should noe la hahaha....if u dunno then try asking me la hah...
2) skool life.....well im adapting rather well.....considering i didnt noe wad i was doing in e 1st week.....my father is like pressing me to revise e 2 weeks worth of lectures n stuff so i dun forget it.....im trying to and i noe he is doing all dis cos he wants me to do well or betta....i really hope i can keep up with my revision n all......jus now i talked to a coursemate lol.....walao his results are rather good la.....quite ashamed in a way to compare my g.p.a. to not onli his, but e top student in my course as well.....walao.....sumtin spurred me to work harder n study to pull my grade point average up...i knew y jus now but now i jus cant put my finger on it la....alot on my mind now....jus wanna go home n take a rest, pack up my room n think about wadeva is bothering me rite now......Really need to TRUST God now with my future, my happiness and all my cares and worries haiz (long big sigh in my heart)
Monday, November 14
53/1 sleeping awake
well here i am back in skool for my 2nd week....i guess i would be posting every monday....hmm....well im quite tired today cos i slept quite late but im tired in a sense dat my mind is tired but my body is not as tired....will probably retire to bed 1st thing after i get home from my 6-7pm compulsory class every monday(bummer)....
hmm i wonder y.....will somebody please like give me some ideas on wad to do online? i find dat coming online seems less n less appealing to me...like nuttin much to do ready....like i'm finally sian of doing e same thing over n over again....OR mayb im getting studious cos its 2nd yr 2nd semm ready, so i rather work hard than jus slack around doing meaningless stuff (like playing games n stuff).....hmm could it be dat i haven been going online for quite awhile dat it appeals to me less now?? dun worry, i guess i'll still blog n talk online...those are e things dat r quite different every time i do them haha....well i guess i will start tagging all my frens blogs la....dats all for now....
hmm i wonder y.....will somebody please like give me some ideas on wad to do online? i find dat coming online seems less n less appealing to me...like nuttin much to do ready....like i'm finally sian of doing e same thing over n over again....OR mayb im getting studious cos its 2nd yr 2nd semm ready, so i rather work hard than jus slack around doing meaningless stuff (like playing games n stuff).....hmm could it be dat i haven been going online for quite awhile dat it appeals to me less now?? dun worry, i guess i'll still blog n talk online...those are e things dat r quite different every time i do them haha....well i guess i will start tagging all my frens blogs la....dats all for now....
Wednesday, November 9
52/1 the day stretches so long
well a short post today cos im rather tired...didnt sleep enuf i guess...anyway e day went rather well(jus as a 1st 2 days hav been).....today i didnt really get much stuff (but still gott abit la) dat e lecturers taught into my head cos i was half blur.....must be im still in e holiday mood la....luckily i can revise it again cos i (actually) printed out e notes (for once)...so happy e day is finally over!! now i can either go home 2 sleep or go church sleep n wait for e meeting with small groups leaders later at 730pm....dunno wad to do leh...see how la....see my mood when i reach near my house there then say....well sorry its a VERY short post...dats all from me todae...*yawn*
Monday, November 7
51/1 started skool
well i started skool todae.....quite sian in e morning cos it was so nice to sleep in cold weather and all.....mmn skool's not really considered over yet actually im waiting for a class im not even sure whether is on fer e 1st week or not....so i'll jus havta check later......
i had a great holiday,did quite abit of job hopping, i did a total of about 4 different jobs! oh wells....experience la...think i probably didnt earn as much as i expected except for one job but oh wells cant complain, betta than nuttin earned at all rite? if not i spend money oso i feel bad la....
last thursday i went east coast with frens from S.Y.F.C.(Singapore Youth For Christ)....can u believe it?? i actually learnt how to roller blade!! woah! my 1st time atually strapping on wheels....i went on e path n i fell while going down a slope(somehow balance jus went off), i landed on my bum n i used my 2 hands (with guards) to stop my fall....my ass hurt after dat la, sit down at e side stunned lol....after dat i realised i hurt my left hand too...scared myself, i thot i broke a finger(when wad i felt(and later realised) was e depression where u pull ur finger then gott a 'cluck' sound haha)....cut e long story short, my hand is still injured now but its betta than on dat day la...feels abit wierd typing with it but im typing a post for those who hav been pressing me to update(i wonder y?)....could hardly catch a ball (n frisbee) with both hands cos it pain....oh wells i wont be going to play frisbee for sum time...until e next time i hav holidasy i guess.......
some random thots:
for those who noe or dunno dat i might be in e yf committee next year, my father said he wont give me his blessings if i am in e committee n he also said dat i should use e whole of next year to really prioritise and focus my time on the things that are important....oh well much as i would liketo serve in the committee, i dunno la, i guess i cant disobey my dad no matter however i try to argue my way thru it all...hope i'm able to serve in e comm, not as an official committee member but in some quiet unknown way i guess.
oh yeah jus wanna share abit, God has been VERY gracious to me today, when i was feeling or wondering what exactly are the things i can still hold on to, i met rrrrrrreeeeeeuuuuubbbben, nicklaus, marvin and rachel ang in my newly opened air-con canteen...haha felt betta
i had a great holiday,did quite abit of job hopping, i did a total of about 4 different jobs! oh wells....experience la...think i probably didnt earn as much as i expected except for one job but oh wells cant complain, betta than nuttin earned at all rite? if not i spend money oso i feel bad la....
last thursday i went east coast with frens from S.Y.F.C.(Singapore Youth For Christ)....can u believe it?? i actually learnt how to roller blade!! woah! my 1st time atually strapping on wheels....i went on e path n i fell while going down a slope(somehow balance jus went off), i landed on my bum n i used my 2 hands (with guards) to stop my fall....my ass hurt after dat la, sit down at e side stunned lol....after dat i realised i hurt my left hand too...scared myself, i thot i broke a finger(when wad i felt(and later realised) was e depression where u pull ur finger then gott a 'cluck' sound haha)....cut e long story short, my hand is still injured now but its betta than on dat day la...feels abit wierd typing with it but im typing a post for those who hav been pressing me to update(i wonder y?)....could hardly catch a ball (n frisbee) with both hands cos it pain....oh wells i wont be going to play frisbee for sum time...until e next time i hav holidasy i guess.......
some random thots:
for those who noe or dunno dat i might be in e yf committee next year, my father said he wont give me his blessings if i am in e committee n he also said dat i should use e whole of next year to really prioritise and focus my time on the things that are important....oh well much as i would liketo serve in the committee, i dunno la, i guess i cant disobey my dad no matter however i try to argue my way thru it all...hope i'm able to serve in e comm, not as an official committee member but in some quiet unknown way i guess.
oh yeah jus wanna share abit, God has been VERY gracious to me today, when i was feeling or wondering what exactly are the things i can still hold on to, i met rrrrrrreeeeeeuuuuubbbben, nicklaus, marvin and rachel ang in my newly opened air-con canteen...haha felt betta
Thursday, October 20
50/1 feeling lousy
well its been a long time since i last posted? haha...i woke up early n came to skool today....i went fer a swim (which im quite satisfied with....)....i swam quite abit (to me dat is)..i swam like 1km n 100m......o k, e rest of wad i'm thinking is quite lousy stuff about myself...not sure how much i should reveal, in case i jus affect ur mood...lets jus say i went to e gym again todayyy......ok la i wont berate myself so much cos im quite tired now.....
i feel so small sized la....not to mention weak all dat.....wonder how come a stack of weights is able to affect me so much....goes to show how much i actually allow it to affect my mood so much....jus feel lousy la...seem like i cant do as many reps for e same weight....or some weights dat i used to do i couldnt quite do it.....n i seemed to forget alot (long time since i stepped into e gym)......after swimming, my nose has been runny.....i think e reason y dis is happening is either im getting FAT(which i think i am) OR im jus tired from e swim n lack of sleep coupled with e lousy feeling of running nose...i SO hope its e latter lol....cant stand myself being fat la....
sorry i complained enuf....lets see i've been working....switching jobs here n there mainly cuz of e pay la....now im stuck with working at some research company, official title would be surveyor i guess...e pay is quite pathetic lol....much more misely(is there such a word? i noe there is but is it spelt correctly?) than e pan pacific banquet waiter job(where i havta work my guts out, but at least since e hours are long, i get more pay at e end of e day)....e onli problem is dat i really cant stand ONE of e managers....for nuttin scold ppl, vulgarities all dat la so i quitt then lol...
oh yeah as i was saying im stuck now cos i havta give e company one week's notice before i can quit la...so i hope 2 quit by e end of dis working week which happens to be tml....well at least i can save up abit for wad i wanna buy (which really isnt much, im quite content)...hmm how about a cheap guitar so (my brother n) i can practice...i will master One Last Breath by Creed soon i hope....mmm n also sumtin i can listen to....im thinking of a Creative product...zen, zen micro, muvo2 fm, zen neon all dat la.......anyone happen to noe e price jus let me noe by phone or word of mouth k?
i feel so small sized la....not to mention weak all dat.....wonder how come a stack of weights is able to affect me so much....goes to show how much i actually allow it to affect my mood so much....jus feel lousy la...seem like i cant do as many reps for e same weight....or some weights dat i used to do i couldnt quite do it.....n i seemed to forget alot (long time since i stepped into e gym)......after swimming, my nose has been runny.....i think e reason y dis is happening is either im getting FAT(which i think i am) OR im jus tired from e swim n lack of sleep coupled with e lousy feeling of running nose...i SO hope its e latter lol....cant stand myself being fat la....
sorry i complained enuf....lets see i've been working....switching jobs here n there mainly cuz of e pay la....now im stuck with working at some research company, official title would be surveyor i guess...e pay is quite pathetic lol....much more misely(is there such a word? i noe there is but is it spelt correctly?) than e pan pacific banquet waiter job(where i havta work my guts out, but at least since e hours are long, i get more pay at e end of e day)....e onli problem is dat i really cant stand ONE of e managers....for nuttin scold ppl, vulgarities all dat la so i quitt then lol...
oh yeah as i was saying im stuck now cos i havta give e company one week's notice before i can quit la...so i hope 2 quit by e end of dis working week which happens to be tml....well at least i can save up abit for wad i wanna buy (which really isnt much, im quite content)...hmm how about a cheap guitar so (my brother n) i can practice...i will master One Last Breath by Creed soon i hope....mmm n also sumtin i can listen to....im thinking of a Creative product...zen, zen micro, muvo2 fm, zen neon all dat la.......anyone happen to noe e price jus let me noe by phone or word of mouth k?
Sunday, October 9
49/2 The One Thing
Paul Colman - The One Thing
From the album Let It Go
Here I am
In a river of questions
Can I pour my heart out to a listening ear?
I see this life
It’s valley’s and mountains
And I think of all the roads that brought me here
Oh that brought me here
I’ve questioned my reasons
The life I’m living
I’ve questioned my ability
To judge wrong from right
I’ve questioned all the things
that I’ve ever called certain
My race, my religion, my country, my mind
Chorus:
But the one thing I don’t question is You
You really love me like you say you do
Yea the one thing I don’t question is You
You really love me like you say you do
Hold me Hold me
So Hold me
Well I’ve questioned my significance
Meaning and relevance
Does the work I’m doing really matter at all?
Well I’ve questioned my friendships
Alliance, dependence
Who will still be here when I fall?
Chorus: (2x’s)
Only one thing doesn’t change
Only one thing stays the same
All I know at the end of the day is your love remains
Chorus: (2x’s)
49/1 working on sunday?
well yess im working on a sunday...rather tired n all.....most importantly oso thinking about wad im doing here all dat and y im working on a sunday all dat....must really question my motives mann....well i'll continue to post longer later.....(dis was meant to be published last last sunday but gott no time then i forgot about it oh wells.....)
Saturday, October 8
48/1 mmm..
well im in e office again...but at dis time onli me and my mum is in 'our' department lol....almost total freedom.....still trying to load klove to listen but oh wells its like not working lol....i give up...mayb i'll try again later or sumtin....
oh hmm im now quite bored n bothered....well abit onli la...cant say it is like last time dat much la....klove finally managed to load!! hopefully it will cheer me up lots....should start working....well think i'll post summore later
oh hmm im now quite bored n bothered....well abit onli la...cant say it is like last time dat much la....klove finally managed to load!! hopefully it will cheer me up lots....should start working....well think i'll post summore later
Friday, October 7
47/1 sumtin short
well sorry to all those who hav been visiting my blog time and again and found dat i haven been updating it...sorry la i dun normally use internet at home n all...n i hav been rather busy slacking, playing comm at home n half heartedly looking for a part time job...
well i guess i looked for too many jobs ready...so many offers lol...well i cant really blog now...supposed to be working, doing data entry but oh wells...for u all i will risk abit haha....altho im working in a company where my aunt is my e onli immediate boss around...they're all like talking together by the way...like after lunch hours is slack talk for awhile b4 working again haha....oh yeah my mum is working part time here too...
well i gott quite a few thots in my head rite now but if i share it i will havta spend more time thinking about it than actually doing my work dat im supposed to do lol....so yeah...hmm i will be working throughout dis weekend as well....well i hope its onli for dis weekend even tho e pay is quite attractive.....so yeah justa let u noe i wont be in church dis weekend lol...i should stop posting rite about here...till next time...thanx for visiting my blog!
well i guess i looked for too many jobs ready...so many offers lol...well i cant really blog now...supposed to be working, doing data entry but oh wells...for u all i will risk abit haha....altho im working in a company where my aunt is my e onli immediate boss around...they're all like talking together by the way...like after lunch hours is slack talk for awhile b4 working again haha....oh yeah my mum is working part time here too...
well i gott quite a few thots in my head rite now but if i share it i will havta spend more time thinking about it than actually doing my work dat im supposed to do lol....so yeah...hmm i will be working throughout dis weekend as well....well i hope its onli for dis weekend even tho e pay is quite attractive.....so yeah justa let u noe i wont be in church dis weekend lol...i should stop posting rite about here...till next time...thanx for visiting my blog!
Thursday, August 25
46/1 everything's over now
well i had my presentation jus now....officially skool started at 3pm(and ended at e normal time, about 5pm..)....cos lessons were either cancelled or there were jus no more lessons to attend ready(normally i start skool at 10am lol)...so slack la....i called e ppl dat sold me e harddisk dis morning....they said dat they sent it to PENANG!! can u imagine? lol....but its taking incredibly long to come back to singapore lol....i so really hope they send e good n repaired harddisk back soon so my new comm can be functional!! i gott a thumbdrive (free!) from my father....so i can store e stuff i wann altho e space isnt very big..256mb...but should be enuf till i start putting huge programs in it.....
ok....about my presentation which was an individual thing....wa madness la....i was VERY jittery and nervous(as with all presentations in front of ppl i dun really noe...).....i was literally nervous until i when i stood straight, my legs were like vibrating la.....i dun think e ppl noticed it cos i stood behind a long lecturer console......can u imagine? i onli prepared my speech like an hour or so before e presentation! obviously i would be nervous cos i didnt prepare enuf rite? well on e whole it went fine, except e lil pauses i made to remember abit of my points, one good thing was i didnt look at my notes at all, i had eye contact with e audience n all but i forgot to smile haha....my teacher praised me for smart dressing(did i say again?? (e last time i had presentation oso lidat) hahaha)....dats all i needed....our teacher is actually quite nice lol....she thinks about stuff for us quite abit, its been quite enjoyable being in her class....
ok after dat i had a interview(a very slack n effortless one)....the teacher was jus asking us if we knew e steps in e labsheets......so easy la....n summore our teacher didnt penalise us if we had any mistakes, he'd give us many chances which we didnt really use haha....it was slack la....now i hav solitaire and spider solitaire on my thumbdrive, i can play whenever i want....instead of yahoo pool which can take quite ALOT of times(trust me, time jus flies la....u think u onli play a few games onlie).....ok dats all for now, lab closing ready haha.....
ok....about my presentation which was an individual thing....wa madness la....i was VERY jittery and nervous(as with all presentations in front of ppl i dun really noe...).....i was literally nervous until i when i stood straight, my legs were like vibrating la.....i dun think e ppl noticed it cos i stood behind a long lecturer console......can u imagine? i onli prepared my speech like an hour or so before e presentation! obviously i would be nervous cos i didnt prepare enuf rite? well on e whole it went fine, except e lil pauses i made to remember abit of my points, one good thing was i didnt look at my notes at all, i had eye contact with e audience n all but i forgot to smile haha....my teacher praised me for smart dressing(did i say again?? (e last time i had presentation oso lidat) hahaha)....dats all i needed....our teacher is actually quite nice lol....she thinks about stuff for us quite abit, its been quite enjoyable being in her class....
ok after dat i had a interview(a very slack n effortless one)....the teacher was jus asking us if we knew e steps in e labsheets......so easy la....n summore our teacher didnt penalise us if we had any mistakes, he'd give us many chances which we didnt really use haha....it was slack la....now i hav solitaire and spider solitaire on my thumbdrive, i can play whenever i want....instead of yahoo pool which can take quite ALOT of times(trust me, time jus flies la....u think u onli play a few games onlie).....ok dats all for now, lab closing ready haha.....
Wednesday, August 24
45/1 crap i have retainers
crap mann i feel so like a baby la....cant really control e flow of saliva in my mouth....always havta suck it back in....its disgusting la....crap...well as some of u might hav known, i put on retainers ready....its a plastic thing with a metal wire in front...its supposed to help keep my teeth in place...n i can onli take it out when i'm having meals or when i'm sleeping haha....quite uncomfortable....well its not pain or wad la....its jus i cant talk normally(pronounciation n all(thanx aunty and joy for disturbing me about my speech o_O) hahaha)... haha after i take it out i feel like i've released lidat hahaha....i feel with my tongue feels abit like wad i see old ppl wear, like dentures.....well my teeth hurt abit after i take out....cos e thing is there is to make my teeth straight lol...abit like e teeth suan.....well im still slacking now.....tml i gott a presentation, its a speech, i havta wear formal again haha....
some random stuff in my head : i'll be leading or facilitating bible study dis week.....i pray dat God will help me to prepare well for it....my fren is coming summore....i'll be leading dis saturday yf with nicole chiang too! haha e planning with her was esp fun cos i ws quite crazy on dat day hahaha im quite sure dis sat's yf will be fun.....im not sure if e songs we chose like runs (or links)well or not...hmm all dis stuff is jus abit of e stuff in my head....its jus random la....i dunno if these mean anything or not so yeah haha....dats all for today....;)
some random stuff in my head : i'll be leading or facilitating bible study dis week.....i pray dat God will help me to prepare well for it....my fren is coming summore....i'll be leading dis saturday yf with nicole chiang too! haha e planning with her was esp fun cos i ws quite crazy on dat day hahaha im quite sure dis sat's yf will be fun.....im not sure if e songs we chose like runs (or links)well or not...hmm all dis stuff is jus abit of e stuff in my head....its jus random la....i dunno if these mean anything or not so yeah haha....dats all for today....;)
Monday, August 22
44/1 slackkk
haha wad a big contrast dis week....last week i was siao cheonging project.....dis week i am s slack...its free and easy revision week.....dats e week dat e lecturers give (MAJOR?) hints during lectures on wad to study and wad is coming out fer exams....abit dumb la....cos not really much point of having exams if e students practically noe wad to study....they'll jus study e necessary la....crap......
okaye today early in e morning, I had e IT entrepreneurship presentation....(in fact im still in my formal suit now....(in skool as usual, slackking now!!) ) .....well i thot i would be late at e rate dat i left e house......i remember i prayed to God to help me be early....it turns up i wasnt dat late after all....there was sum1 later than me(but dat doesnt matter)...we had our presentation for 1 and a 1/2 hours leh.....normal groups with a decent business plan onlie had it for less than an hour or sumtin like dat lol...but yeah i guess i am a lousy CEO la.....i didnt manage to chase everyone to hand in all their stuff on time......dis mistake made me and my fren jasline, the director of finance to sorta help them out with their various plans, thus hindering e doing of our own stuff....but on e whole even tho there were miss takes, i thank God dat everything more or less went well and we finished e presentation without much hitches hahaha.....Praise God For dat!
well after dat i had abit of lessons where e lecturer gave a huge TIP!! lol....nonsense....im sure i can almost predict wad questions will be coming out ready......talking about lecturer spotting questions for us!! well after dat i managed to slackkkkk until about 7 la....about 3 hours of jus slacking....well it was fun while it lasted......i shouldnt do too much of dis.....if not when its time to study, i'll be thinking of playing already....oh wells....
oh yeah its been a long time since i last posted, mayb some of u duno....i took out my braces like last friday......e feeling is so goooood!! finally i can feel my teeth without metal.....oh well thanx to e reminder from mayboo getting her teeth crooked, im rather anxious of getting e retainers done up....hahaha well to everyone who is reading dis(bishanite yfers especially), my brothers birthday is coming up......in fact its dis sunday.....i would like u all to keep it hushed up.....dun let him noe anything about it.....im planning 2 plan a mini party for him like those we hav for e more popular ppl's birthday.....would any of u mind chipping in or sumtin for e cake? like mayb a dollar per person? (of course if u all wanna chip in more, i think it would be welcomed) thinking of holding it in e clubhouse...well do let me noe if u r willing to chip in....serene will probably be sending out e msg or sumtin so yeah......jus tell u all 1st..remember keep it from him! im writing here cos my brother doesnt noe and probably wont ever visit my blog, at least for now haha....dats all for now, should go home to.......SLACKKK summore haha till next long post hehe ;)
okaye today early in e morning, I had e IT entrepreneurship presentation....(in fact im still in my formal suit now....(in skool as usual, slackking now!!) ) .....well i thot i would be late at e rate dat i left e house......i remember i prayed to God to help me be early....it turns up i wasnt dat late after all....there was sum1 later than me(but dat doesnt matter)...we had our presentation for 1 and a 1/2 hours leh.....normal groups with a decent business plan onlie had it for less than an hour or sumtin like dat lol...but yeah i guess i am a lousy CEO la.....i didnt manage to chase everyone to hand in all their stuff on time......dis mistake made me and my fren jasline, the director of finance to sorta help them out with their various plans, thus hindering e doing of our own stuff....but on e whole even tho there were miss takes, i thank God dat everything more or less went well and we finished e presentation without much hitches hahaha.....Praise God For dat!
well after dat i had abit of lessons where e lecturer gave a huge TIP!! lol....nonsense....im sure i can almost predict wad questions will be coming out ready......talking about lecturer spotting questions for us!! well after dat i managed to slackkkkk until about 7 la....about 3 hours of jus slacking....well it was fun while it lasted......i shouldnt do too much of dis.....if not when its time to study, i'll be thinking of playing already....oh wells....
oh yeah its been a long time since i last posted, mayb some of u duno....i took out my braces like last friday......e feeling is so goooood!! finally i can feel my teeth without metal.....oh well thanx to e reminder from mayboo getting her teeth crooked, im rather anxious of getting e retainers done up....hahaha well to everyone who is reading dis(bishanite yfers especially), my brothers birthday is coming up......in fact its dis sunday.....i would like u all to keep it hushed up.....dun let him noe anything about it.....im planning 2 plan a mini party for him like those we hav for e more popular ppl's birthday.....would any of u mind chipping in or sumtin for e cake? like mayb a dollar per person? (of course if u all wanna chip in more, i think it would be welcomed) thinking of holding it in e clubhouse...well do let me noe if u r willing to chip in....serene will probably be sending out e msg or sumtin so yeah......jus tell u all 1st..remember keep it from him! im writing here cos my brother doesnt noe and probably wont ever visit my blog, at least for now haha....dats all for now, should go home to.......SLACKKK summore haha till next long post hehe ;)
Monday, August 15
43/1
well i dunno how many days its been since i lasted posted......im posting now cos i jus felt dat i should post lol.......anyways i've jus finished up ONE of 4 projects due dis week.....its crazy stuff la....so far i've had like 7 projects, one per subject exactly.....n sum subjects still had 2 parts to e project lol....
so far thankfully i've cleared like 4 including today's wann.....I thank God so much dat we are given a study week break to prep for e exams.....if not i'll jus half die for my end of semm exams la....which happened to me for my (mid year) term test lol....almost failed sum papers lol....
well i cant really think of much to post rite now.....my brain is so dead now la.....jus feel like going home to "koon(zZzZzz)".....well till next time till i gott more to lament....o_O
so far thankfully i've cleared like 4 including today's wann.....I thank God so much dat we are given a study week break to prep for e exams.....if not i'll jus half die for my end of semm exams la....which happened to me for my (mid year) term test lol....almost failed sum papers lol....
well i cant really think of much to post rite now.....my brain is so dead now la.....jus feel like going home to "koon(zZzZzz)".....well till next time till i gott more to lament....o_O
Thursday, August 4
42/1 tyr eeee eddd
I really enjoyed pep(the prayer n evangelism thing i hav in poly) today, it was prayer dis week....i saw ppl dat hardly came for pep lol....can u believe it? we had almost full attendance for pep today.......anws there's dis girl, georgina in my pep group....was talking to her before it started....i was really encouraged by her la.....altho she oso was very busy with her projects n all, she still smiled jus as sweet.....its like any1 could tell she was very happy....i asked her whether she was always dis happy, she said she was.....i felt so encouraged jus by seeing sum1 smile happily lol....i had lotsa things on my mind but she really cheered me up alot.....jus sets me thinking, hav i lost my true joy jus struggling to complete projects n stuff?? is dat all life is all about? i guess not, but a cert matters too much in society today dat i cant seem to find joy persuing it lol...its like its mandatory lol.....but our happiness should be in God rite? dats so hard rite now for me.....
im so shacked mann....supper tirred lol.....i woke up fresh dis morning lol.....(effects of wad a whole days worth of stress can do to u....).....mann i hav so much to do.....communication skills report still pending.....my IT entrepreneurship executive report still not done yet(i haven started it la....n e whole business plan is due on monday n my group members haven sent me everything yet!! lol...im stressed...)......i finished doing 1 project, i made it super easy lol....but at least its workable....
argh Lord help me please.....carrry me thru dis trials and assignments smoothly Lord......help me Lord with my executive summary all dat........"I will be still n noe u are God" dat set me thinking again, does it hav to take dis kinda situations for me to know that God is God?? my faith is weak...Lord help me to trust u more.........
im so shacked mann....supper tirred lol.....i woke up fresh dis morning lol.....(effects of wad a whole days worth of stress can do to u....).....mann i hav so much to do.....communication skills report still pending.....my IT entrepreneurship executive report still not done yet(i haven started it la....n e whole business plan is due on monday n my group members haven sent me everything yet!! lol...im stressed...)......i finished doing 1 project, i made it super easy lol....but at least its workable....
argh Lord help me please.....carrry me thru dis trials and assignments smoothly Lord......help me Lord with my executive summary all dat........"I will be still n noe u are God" dat set me thinking again, does it hav to take dis kinda situations for me to know that God is God?? my faith is weak...Lord help me to trust u more.........
Wednesday, August 3
41/1
haha o k......well so far my chatterbox seems to be working rather well rite?? haha even i think so....i think dat e onli person i cant tag as is "dan e man to sher"....i saved dis comment as a draft of post in my blogspot editor lol...so many times i tried but i jus cant tag using dat name......haha...must be becos im tagging about the paedophile (shermaine lou) lol.....aiya jialat she must hav preyed on so many children dat she cannot even be tagged about hahaha......
well i feel like doing my work for e 1st time....klove is like super laggy today.......must be all e ppl sharing e lab.....playing games summore....i feel like jus throwing all of them outta e lab so i can do my work haha (like Jesus in e temple....walao!! dats abit extreme but of course i dun really mean it la.....)
ok going to work now....oh yeah for all dose still blur about dis sat's sentosa yf outing, we will be meeting at habourfront interchange where we take e bus k? (sorry i wasnt thinking when i gave e announcement....)...at 11am.....bring extra clothes in case u wanna change....lotsa water and wadeva things u wanna play there as well as $3 for entry.....bring ur frens if u can too! ;) oh yeah if u should eat 1st if u wann or bring something to eat for ur lunch k? guess dats all...if u all need anything can call either me or brandon......u can find our numbers from e yf directory....if u dun hav a directory, then i presume if u noe me well u would hav my number as well....haha nonsense rite? i noe....
well i feel like doing my work for e 1st time....klove is like super laggy today.......must be all e ppl sharing e lab.....playing games summore....i feel like jus throwing all of them outta e lab so i can do my work haha (like Jesus in e temple....walao!! dats abit extreme but of course i dun really mean it la.....)
ok going to work now....oh yeah for all dose still blur about dis sat's sentosa yf outing, we will be meeting at habourfront interchange where we take e bus k? (sorry i wasnt thinking when i gave e announcement....)...at 11am.....bring extra clothes in case u wanna change....lotsa water and wadeva things u wanna play there as well as $3 for entry.....bring ur frens if u can too! ;) oh yeah if u should eat 1st if u wann or bring something to eat for ur lunch k? guess dats all...if u all need anything can call either me or brandon......u can find our numbers from e yf directory....if u dun hav a directory, then i presume if u noe me well u would hav my number as well....haha nonsense rite? i noe....
Monday, August 1
40/2
dis is abit random....i feel abit lousy todae........lol its like i wanna praise God since e morning but i feel as if there is no song in my head at e moment.....as hard as i try,i jus cant help but feel affected by not being able to actually praise God at e moment......its like im not happy but not in an emotional sense leh.....i oso dunno la....
but e 1 thing i noe is dat after i post i feel much betta.....mayb in a worldly sense but o wells dat will havta do for e moment.....argh todae i start skool at 8am, i will be having makeup lesson until probably 8pm!! 12 hrs in skool jus having lessons.....dat leaves me lesser time to even plan n do my project n lesser time to sleep as well.....
well i hav been thinking for some time on n off about dis ready....iszit dat good to fall for jus sum1 with a pretty face n lacking the rite values?? i dunno la dats e way e world thinks n dats e way we hav been influenced to think.....i think e way i think is abit wrong ready....dats where respect for individuals come from....i think i should starting to look at ppl based on their character instead of wad they look like...then comes e problem, wad if they hav not very good character as well?? o wells i gott enuf things to think about....dis has 2be one of e last things on my mind now la....when i meet sum1 like dat then i will havta pray dat God will help me with dealing with dat kinda ppl....
but e 1 thing i noe is dat after i post i feel much betta.....mayb in a worldly sense but o wells dat will havta do for e moment.....argh todae i start skool at 8am, i will be having makeup lesson until probably 8pm!! 12 hrs in skool jus having lessons.....dat leaves me lesser time to even plan n do my project n lesser time to sleep as well.....
well i hav been thinking for some time on n off about dis ready....iszit dat good to fall for jus sum1 with a pretty face n lacking the rite values?? i dunno la dats e way e world thinks n dats e way we hav been influenced to think.....i think e way i think is abit wrong ready....dats where respect for individuals come from....i think i should starting to look at ppl based on their character instead of wad they look like...then comes e problem, wad if they hav not very good character as well?? o wells i gott enuf things to think about....dis has 2be one of e last things on my mind now la....when i meet sum1 like dat then i will havta pray dat God will help me with dealing with dat kinda ppl....
40/1 psychoticness
haha ok....im starting to feel e reality of the stress of being in dis world.....as of now.......skool's been really hectic la....crazyness the schedule.....other ppl in poly are still having term test now la.....my term test was like over sucha long time ago la.....gott back all my results...i managed to pass all my subjects with God's help......but the project deadlines are crazy la...(im starting to wonder y im always complaining about dat......) crap they all come at one go la....pass up oso alpl at one go lol.....i'm so praying dat God will carry me thru all of em...really tough mann....
well it seems dis yr i started to hav a lot of commitments la....yf (oh yeah 4 those in my small group reading dis(green tea etc...), sorry i haven planned an outing yet k? pls understand, been really busy, im sure sarabelle is too), outreach comm.....(those few not so bad cos its at least more enjoyable to serve e Lord in dat way.....)but skools has so many taxing commitments to my projects, i haven been doing anything over e weekends as i should hav......during e weekends i jus chill with e yfers.....its like a good break, i forget everything until monday comes haiz sianz.....which i think is rather bad......i should not play so much on sundays(saturdays can play as long as i wann haha)....
well is studies so impt? dat i cant focus on anything else including God? i'm sure Satan wants me to feel dat way....but obviously its not true la....but how? how can we like survive if we dun work hard for it? beats me mann.....dats onli a very small part of how e world has changed into.....i guess we havta do our part to justify God actualli helping us....(dunno if u understand but it makes sense to me....
well it seems dis yr i started to hav a lot of commitments la....yf (oh yeah 4 those in my small group reading dis(green tea etc...), sorry i haven planned an outing yet k? pls understand, been really busy, im sure sarabelle is too), outreach comm.....(those few not so bad cos its at least more enjoyable to serve e Lord in dat way.....)but skools has so many taxing commitments to my projects, i haven been doing anything over e weekends as i should hav......during e weekends i jus chill with e yfers.....its like a good break, i forget everything until monday comes haiz sianz.....which i think is rather bad......i should not play so much on sundays(saturdays can play as long as i wann haha)....
well is studies so impt? dat i cant focus on anything else including God? i'm sure Satan wants me to feel dat way....but obviously its not true la....but how? how can we like survive if we dun work hard for it? beats me mann.....dats onli a very small part of how e world has changed into.....i guess we havta do our part to justify God actualli helping us....(dunno if u understand but it makes sense to me....
Thursday, July 28
39/1 brain dead
well im so so tired mann.....i want to jus sleep for a long long while.....jus poof me home pls....i feel so happy dis week.....u noe y?? cos i realised dat grades n all e stuff doesnt really matter.......all dat really matters is dat i'm pleasing God living my life e way he wants me to live it....every morning even tho i wake up tired most of e time, i wake up with a gladsome spirit....i'm inclined to sing praises cos it jus overflows from within me n i feel dat I should worship God!! PRAISE GOD! hahaha....
welll time to go home n catch up with my dearest fren dat i lie n rely on, my bed haha.....still havta eat dinner oh wells....think about wad to do for my projects when im more awake =P thank you for reading my nonsense post...
welll time to go home n catch up with my dearest fren dat i lie n rely on, my bed haha.....still havta eat dinner oh wells....think about wad to do for my projects when im more awake =P thank you for reading my nonsense post...
Tuesday, July 26
38/1
well i'm now tagging after my gym session as usual...i feel super strong today.....mayb its e protein drink dat i bought or mayb i hav been slacking....o_O i dunno, onli time can tell.....i'll probably noe tml if i really did tear my body apart......for 1, i dun feel as tired n my arms all dat dun feel as heavy after today's training.....im like so hoping dat its jus e protein drink lol.....i think im abit fat(i admit there's quite abit of fat hiding around the not so obvious to ppl areas(of course its like super obvious to me)), jus as mrs elias park(shermaine the paedophile!!) said but not entirely fat la.....haha dats 1 of e reasons y i bought a protein drink dat supposedly oso burns fat as well.....haha its easy to mix la, dats all i can say lol....i haven used dis brand b4 so i dunno whether its effective or not......
ok i guess dats all for now......i havta go for some glad serve thing which is at emmanuel house.....it starts at 630pm officially.....its like 635pm n im still in skool now haha i'm not going to be early....haha ok la...enuf read for a day ;)
ok i guess dats all for now......i havta go for some glad serve thing which is at emmanuel house.....it starts at 630pm officially.....its like 635pm n im still in skool now haha i'm not going to be early....haha ok la...enuf read for a day ;)
Friday, July 22
37/1 hav a headache
argh.....finally e weekends are here.....im like wasting thru each week, waiting for e weekends to come......and the deadlines for all e projects (which came all at once) are not getting any further.....im so thankful i gott thru dis week with God's help.....haiz....man its so lousy to be in poly....all dat initiative, i rather be in a structured system like a jc....(haha i noe im saying e same thing again)at least if im in a particular jc rite now, i can see her everyday.....mann i still do misss her sumtimes(when i hav nuttin to think about on my head)......crap, y didnt i study harder for my O levels?? haha e result of more plan n less work haha.....i dun feel too goood about all e projects n all....seems like german to me(well, e concepts of wad to do at least.....)
i gott my last part of my comm ready(well actually its my dad so yeah)......i cant wait to hav a faster running comm.......
i think dis weekend is going to be sooo short im starting to dread monday already........mann i gotta work harder......ok im leaving skool fer bible study......then i gotta meet my frens in e morning tml for project(s) again......sumtimes i dread meeting up with them cos they talk n think like obasan lidat(ok i noe i'm damn bad but im ok even if they noe, its called openess haha oops...too frank..)thanx for reading about my life.......beginning to feel as if the back of my head is getting a throbbing headache......
i gott my last part of my comm ready(well actually its my dad so yeah)......i cant wait to hav a faster running comm.......
i think dis weekend is going to be sooo short im starting to dread monday already........mann i gotta work harder......ok im leaving skool fer bible study......then i gotta meet my frens in e morning tml for project(s) again......sumtimes i dread meeting up with them cos they talk n think like obasan lidat(ok i noe i'm damn bad but im ok even if they noe, its called openess haha oops...too frank..)thanx for reading about my life.......beginning to feel as if the back of my head is getting a throbbing headache......
Wednesday, July 20
36/1
well so much for berating myself yesterday.......felt quite bad n all.....then i prayed to God to help me feel betta about myself n all(sounds classic rite now....)......i felt much betta......i was still biaing my project, i thot it was super hard to do......until i actualli gotten down 2 e other questions which are like so easy....can literally copy n paste information from e website plus abit of crap(never go thru life without it haha)......
today i woke up in a very good mood too n i had enuf sleep as well.......with a heart full of praise n a mind not so full of things i had to do i was happy la.....but as e stuff gott more n more complicated, lecturers, tutorials n labs were ok, it was jus e rising complexity of the projects and the increasing initiative i hav to do.....ok la at least i feel betta than yesterday........one of e consolations is dat im actually aching all over which means either i really worked out or it means dat i'm getting weaker but thankfully i think e 1st is true cos mayb i did do A LIL bit heavier(onli) for sum exercises......well going home to hav dinner *stomach indicates hunger haha* n complete my projects due by tml....
today i woke up in a very good mood too n i had enuf sleep as well.......with a heart full of praise n a mind not so full of things i had to do i was happy la.....but as e stuff gott more n more complicated, lecturers, tutorials n labs were ok, it was jus e rising complexity of the projects and the increasing initiative i hav to do.....ok la at least i feel betta than yesterday........one of e consolations is dat im actually aching all over which means either i really worked out or it means dat i'm getting weaker but thankfully i think e 1st is true cos mayb i did do A LIL bit heavier(onli) for sum exercises......well going home to hav dinner *stomach indicates hunger haha* n complete my projects due by tml....
Tuesday, July 19
35/1 the downside
arrrrrr......im WEAK......im SMALL!!! i jus feeel soooo WEAK!!!! wa lao i jus went to e gym jus now la.......i feel so so weak la......feel as if my motivation jus temporarily(i hope) disappeared la.......im berating myself la....like i cant seem to lift the weights i used to or rather want to...........mayb its partly e stress from skoolwork but i cant pardon myself!! WEAK!! true i mayb fitter and bigger, i may be doing heavier weights than quite a few ppl in e gym but dats not enuf!! there are still ppl much bigger than me!!!!! N obviously they do much heavier weights......totally disgusted by my WEAKNESS!! i can encourage others n give them motivation to train harder but now it seems
well u shouldnt be reading all dis......whoever u are........well sorry......jus feeling so bad cos of all e upcoming project datelines (again!)......mann its e 2nd day after my break la....i havta go home n do up my assignments due in like 2 days or so la.....its really crap la.....n all e stuff of todae really affected my mood towards myself la......jus feel so helpless, overpowered by too many things to do in sucha short time........aftre all its jus e something from dis world......do grades really matter dat much except for a future? obviously God is more impt la....but how do i show it exactly?? haiz....actually i woke up todae feeling quite good......but i dunno y i was jus affected by all dese stuff...mann....o_O i dun like taking e initiative to do so much....
now all i wanna do is go home n sleep, n hope dat it will be betta with God's help after dat.......rite after i find some charitable organization......mumble mumble mumble.......
well u shouldnt be reading all dis......whoever u are........well sorry......jus feeling so bad cos of all e upcoming project datelines (again!)......mann its e 2nd day after my break la....i havta go home n do up my assignments due in like 2 days or so la.....its really crap la.....n all e stuff of todae really affected my mood towards myself la......jus feel so helpless, overpowered by too many things to do in sucha short time........aftre all its jus e something from dis world......do grades really matter dat much except for a future? obviously God is more impt la....but how do i show it exactly?? haiz....actually i woke up todae feeling quite good......but i dunno y i was jus affected by all dese stuff...mann....o_O i dun like taking e initiative to do so much....
now all i wanna do is go home n sleep, n hope dat it will be betta with God's help after dat.......rite after i find some charitable organization......mumble mumble mumble.......
Friday, July 8
34/1 last paper for term test
haiz......crap mann as usual i studied for my last paper until early dis morning...about 1am lol.....im already tired from yesterday studying same pattern as it is....almost couldnt wake up....today's paper was madness again....i think it was quite easy la....but i think the paper was abit too long.....still dunno how some ppl could finish it in time or early even.....mayb they studied harder or probably i do e paper slower than them, probably e latter......how i wish i had extra time rite about now(i could appeal for extra thing cos i gott ADHD--attention deficit hyperactivity disorder......in short i cant concentrate so i need longer time to think n all.....)
i'm quite pek cheak cos e last few questions actually i knoe wann lol....its like 20 marks jus giveaway lol......i'm particularly proficient in dat area but i do e paper until gott no time then i could finish it!!! haiz wasted...like about 10+ marks gone jus like dat....i did manage to do abit of e questions but really wasted la.....to think i know the answers but didnt hav time to actualli do it...sian...oh wells no use crying over spilt milk.....wads done is done.....i jus havta leave the rest up to God.....ok a few things to look forward to:
1] the weekends are here,
2] i can go play frisbee for at least a week(im hoping 2 weeks) haha,
3] one whole week of a long anticipated break YEA
4] i can go n fix up my new comm next wednesday...good stuff i should be able to coax my dad to get broadband soon...i can almost say goodbye to lagginess
5] worshipping God with my whole heart......its quite an enjoyful lol.....jus drowns all ur worries away from u
6] getting back into the shape i wanna be (or more less sumwhere nearer there)...
i'm quite pek cheak cos e last few questions actually i knoe wann lol....its like 20 marks jus giveaway lol......i'm particularly proficient in dat area but i do e paper until gott no time then i could finish it!!! haiz wasted...like about 10+ marks gone jus like dat....i did manage to do abit of e questions but really wasted la.....to think i know the answers but didnt hav time to actualli do it...sian...oh wells no use crying over spilt milk.....wads done is done.....i jus havta leave the rest up to God.....ok a few things to look forward to:
1] the weekends are here,
2] i can go play frisbee for at least a week(im hoping 2 weeks) haha,
3] one whole week of a long anticipated break YEA
4] i can go n fix up my new comm next wednesday...good stuff i should be able to coax my dad to get broadband soon...i can almost say goodbye to lagginess
5] worshipping God with my whole heart......its quite an enjoyful lol.....jus drowns all ur worries away from u
6] getting back into the shape i wanna be (or more less sumwhere nearer there)...
Thursday, July 7
33/1 argh my exams today can kill me
haha i noe i'm quite bo liao but okay im going to post from email to my blog.......i had 2 papers today la......i was like studying for e 1st subject until about 1pm(ok la after bathing all dat).....i slept at about 130am la haha.....i woke up at about 8am lidat la.....i was like quite tired in the term test area.......i so wanted to sleep abit before i finished e paper.....but thankfully i didnt allow myself to even put my head down......i did my planning for the whole paper....scribbling answers everywhere to jog my memory......i thot e paper would hav been quite easy if i had studied like wad i did before(5 times! my dad told me to study dat way)....i spent like 1/2 an hr jus planning n thinking.....the next 1 hr was madness la cos dat was wad i had left to finish the paper......i must have done my paper rather slowly la...until e very last minute i was like still scribbling MADLY!! i managed to finish the paper jus in time....
well i didnt touch much for the 2nd paper until after my 1st paper ended at 11am.....i had an hour and a half to study for my 2nd subject la!! madness.....i tried cramming as much as i could slowly but surely i knew i could absorb abit.....the 2nd paper was even more madness....i spent about 1/2 an hour again on planning e paper......didnt realise dat almost killed me as well.....i hadta do some balance sheet n all.....i remembered i failed principles of accounts when i was in sec skool but i jus managed to scrape thru with the help of my teacher.....mayb i jus wish i had studied and played harder when i was in secondary skool.....i had like 15 mins left to finish the last 3 questions of one section!! i was like scribbling alot but i think its still readible(has to be if not i write for wad rite?).....hope e teacher doesnt deem me a doctor n jus ignore my whole answers hahaha....managed to scribble all my answers on the paper...no time to check my paper of course but im so thankful i had all my main points written on e question paper so i didnt havta think much for the answers to come out on paper haha......
anws i'm feeling very bad about not onli todae's 2 papers but on the papers so far as a whole....i dunno wad to think lol....but anyways wads done for now is done....i cant undo it.....
Lord i trust that u will give me wad u deem best for me.......i really pray that no matter wad results i get u will help me to see beyong Myself and to REJOICE wadever results i get in Jesus name AMEN
Lord i trust that u will give me wad u deem best for me.......i really pray that no matter wad results i get u will help me to see beyong Myself and to REJOICE wadever results i get in Jesus name AMEN
DaNiEl
Wednesday, July 6
32/2 my paper today
well i decided not to be so bo liao as to tag at my own tag-board.......actualli cos todays post will be longer than e conventional tag........hahaha well i had a communication skills test today......i think this subject is just nonsense la.....1st it was e presentation(if u dunno about it, go read my previous posts)....now its sum stupid test on citation and some APA quoting thing la....i thot (like many of my classmates who took e test) dat it would be easy n we would be outta e examination lt after 30-40mins......mayb its jus me la....mayb i did take my time to do e 1st question n all......but can u believe it i actualli spent almost a solid hour doing like 4 super simple questions......i saw my frens going out....i was like "dun worry jus take ur time......soon u will go out too" haha o k now i noe.......nonsense la they all.....dunno how to organise the timetable for the term tests wann la......y they jus put 1 stupid paper which i dun havta study for jus smack in e middle of the week?? y cant they put one of the 2 studying papers (which is tml btw) on today?? at least its more spaced out n we dun hav to worry about 2 papers in 1 day......sianz they wanna kill us la.....no extra study week holiday to actually study....i hav dis term test rite after all my stressful projects la.....wallao o.O ok going fer lunch.....then havta go home revise 4 tml's papers.....hmmm.....till next time..;)
32/1 i want to be the one to hold u high
By The Tree - Hold You High
From the album Hold You High
I drank from this cup
‘Til it watered down my soul
I need you so I’ll thirst no more
I started down this path such a long long time ago
I need to find my way home
Chorus:
I want to be the one that holds You high
I want to be the one that gives You glory – only
I want to be the one that holds You high
I want to be the one that brings you praise
I’m the king of my desires
I’ve tried them all a thousand times
I have got to choose between this world and You
It’s got a grip I must admit
I can’t explain this emptiness
I hurt without You by my side
Chorus:
I’ve cried to you in my darkest hour
And You brought my soul up from the grave
Chorus:
Truly Lord i want to be the 1 to hold u high in my life as long as i am alive
From the album Hold You High
I drank from this cup
‘Til it watered down my soul
I need you so I’ll thirst no more
I started down this path such a long long time ago
I need to find my way home
Chorus:
I want to be the one that holds You high
I want to be the one that gives You glory – only
I want to be the one that holds You high
I want to be the one that brings you praise
I’m the king of my desires
I’ve tried them all a thousand times
I have got to choose between this world and You
It’s got a grip I must admit
I can’t explain this emptiness
I hurt without You by my side
Chorus:
I’ve cried to you in my darkest hour
And You brought my soul up from the grave
Chorus:
Truly Lord i want to be the 1 to hold u high in my life as long as i am alive
Monday, July 4
31/3 my term test....
haha finally some more current news.......i hav a term test paper todae.....on youth day!! (actualli it doesnt bother me much....hahaha) all dat bothers me is dat i think i didnt prepare enough for it la......i should hav done like rachel kee la......i should hav skipped yf to study....o.O?? i dunno if i hav e resolve to do dat kinda thing on my own lol......i find dat i like going to yf no matter wad e occasion cos its like a release......i guess yf is 1 of e things i wouldnt miss for e world unless i absolutely had to......i guess i like e frens i hav there........
mann i jus started to revise for today's paper yesterday......e questions were purposely phrased abit alien lol......i had a few rough ideas for each question(which is not goood, i hadta decide what really e question was asking of me la........)......i hope by God's grace i will score quite well for it......luckily i had some facts in my head to put down on paper haha.....ok im going for lunch then i'll go home n study again for tml's paper.........i gott papers e whole of dis week!!! mann....
mann i jus started to revise for today's paper yesterday......e questions were purposely phrased abit alien lol......i had a few rough ideas for each question(which is not goood, i hadta decide what really e question was asking of me la........)......i hope by God's grace i will score quite well for it......luckily i had some facts in my head to put down on paper haha.....ok im going for lunch then i'll go home n study again for tml's paper.........i gott papers e whole of dis week!!! mann....
31/2 on youth sunday
haha im posting on e past again......cos my home comm is too slow(but.....i jus gott e chasis of my new one yeah......it means dat i would hav it up n running by next week lol....cant wait for exams to be over)
oh yeah youth sunday.....we all wore formal.....e feeling is like so zhai la.....powerful......i paired up with chong mian to do offering n usher for one section of the sanctuary......it was quite fun lol.....i wasnt thinking when i asked aunty serene how are we to take holy communion if we're serving it....lol i forgot dat we're not allowed to serve it haha oops....nuttin outta e ordinary happened.......
pastor eddy gave quite an unusual msg on sex la........but he was rite in a way.....if the church didnt talk about it or was too ashamed, youths can onli learn from other worldly sources......interesting n thot provoking.....
alot of ppl said i looked very smart haha.....oops my tie was abit crooked n i didnt noe cos i didnt hav time 2 look in e mirror.....thanx for telling me,rachel (ng)
after dat for some reason or another, rachel ng n i were talking about makeup (after some other ppl n i wiped e holy communion cups.....)....oh yeah i remember..its cos i looked at her face n asked whether she specially put on makeup or sumtin.....she said no...after dat we were talking about whether gals our age should put on makeup n lotsa other stuff...quite interesting, both for her n for me lol......then we talked about e yf banner made up of pictures of almost all e yfers(courtesy of sam kwan n gang of photographers, ding all dat.....)
spent e nite studying for term test today........slept quite late, jus watching some fine tennis by roger fedderer...lol he is fast n accurate, skillful la.......tennis by the way is also one of the sports i would like to improve on besides table tennis.....for e other sports i guess i'm more or less ok......
oh yeah youth sunday.....we all wore formal.....e feeling is like so zhai la.....powerful......i paired up with chong mian to do offering n usher for one section of the sanctuary......it was quite fun lol.....i wasnt thinking when i asked aunty serene how are we to take holy communion if we're serving it....lol i forgot dat we're not allowed to serve it haha oops....nuttin outta e ordinary happened.......
pastor eddy gave quite an unusual msg on sex la........but he was rite in a way.....if the church didnt talk about it or was too ashamed, youths can onli learn from other worldly sources......interesting n thot provoking.....
alot of ppl said i looked very smart haha.....oops my tie was abit crooked n i didnt noe cos i didnt hav time 2 look in e mirror.....thanx for telling me,rachel (ng)
after dat for some reason or another, rachel ng n i were talking about makeup (after some other ppl n i wiped e holy communion cups.....)....oh yeah i remember..its cos i looked at her face n asked whether she specially put on makeup or sumtin.....she said no...after dat we were talking about whether gals our age should put on makeup n lotsa other stuff...quite interesting, both for her n for me lol......then we talked about e yf banner made up of pictures of almost all e yfers(courtesy of sam kwan n gang of photographers, ding all dat.....)
spent e nite studying for term test today........slept quite late, jus watching some fine tennis by roger fedderer...lol he is fast n accurate, skillful la.......tennis by the way is also one of the sports i would like to improve on besides table tennis.....for e other sports i guess i'm more or less ok......
31/1 on yf anniversary
heyy i jus realised today is my blog's 1 month of posting's birthday!! im going 2 post about the past.....well youth anniversary had its 48th birthday day before yesterday......i must say e worship songs didnt really appeal to me.....onli a few songs did....i guess most of em were quite old skool so i didnt really noe much of e songs....next we had this "message" by theodore, grayhem n amanda's father.......he was quite funny la.....he was 1 of e yf presidents long long long time ago.....he was saying things didnt change.....except now we hav more temptations to conform to the non-christian society.......
he said nowadays ppl go online to read blogs.....said we should be reading "God's blog" which is the b.i.b.l.e. lol....it was so funny la....haha......
then he said we used our handphones such dat our bills go sky high.....we should be spending more time talking to God which he said got free incoming n outgoing calls, unlimited sms, free idd and caller-id hahaha......he said for example, if we were given like 15 cents per minute of prayer we made to God, would dat amount to more than our actuall phone bill? dat was quite thought provoking.......
then daryl shared his testimony about how he came to yf......about all the good, the bad and the funny.......they took his onli fren away! some marksimen...guy haha...super funny la......was quite touched by it....i even came 2 find out alot of things about his personality last time......which is quite like me now, taciturn(which is like silent and not prone to talk(heyy rachel liew u rat....i checked up e meaning....)) except i dunno wad to talk about with ppl.......i was quite touched by his testimony on how he found out dat his gift was to spend those precious moments with different individuals n not to "appeal to every general person".....i found dat quite a thing to think about.....
after dat we had wet games, we were divided into groups randomly......1st we played some super stupid game called nuclear bomb, man & cockroach.......the actions were lame la.....n e game playing was even more lame la.......we had an umbrella on e table and a cuppa watter on the floor and two ppl were supposed to do different actions then the winner had to splash water from the cup before the loser could open the umbrella to win.......quite stupid la.....
then we played a classic game.......water bombs n all.....but they changed e game abit.....we were supposed to carry e opponents jelly with both hands to our side without getting wet.....if we got wet we hadta start again.....quite funn....after dat it was cleanup.....where many more ppl gott wet la.....i chased jerry to wet him n some stone queen said dat (eleanor's) coins dropped outta my pocket at each step lol.....fine i went back but i could onli find like 20 cents outta e wad, $1.70 odd?
i didnt attend e yf cake cutting ceremony cos i went out to the playground with alethia.....her parents scared she get kidnapped or sumtin so i stayed with her until they sorta came(after a long time).....quite funn la....2 big youths were playing the swing n really swinging so high....then looking at e stars n talking abit of nonsense....funny e 2 youths were us hahaha......aftre a while i felt abit queesy lol must be my gastrich la.....i didnt eat anything since my breakfast which was quite early in e morning.....after e psychotic sheep's(baaa) parents came, i went back to church....thankfully there was still food...i ate abit....it was like everyone was sedentary for e day....nobody playing much of anything.........we jus sitt around n talked lol.....talk until quite late still haven ate dinner yet la.....i left church at 10pm! i had my dinner alone at e zhi cha stall near church......gott home about 11pm la.....but i think my dad is getting less strict after family day(tho he didnt go for much of e programme)(can u believe it!?!).....he didnt scold me like e usual lol...in fact he didnt scold me at all....i guess saturday ended with sleep haha (ok i noe abit dots....)
he said nowadays ppl go online to read blogs.....said we should be reading "God's blog" which is the b.i.b.l.e. lol....it was so funny la....haha......
then he said we used our handphones such dat our bills go sky high.....we should be spending more time talking to God which he said got free incoming n outgoing calls, unlimited sms, free idd and caller-id hahaha......he said for example, if we were given like 15 cents per minute of prayer we made to God, would dat amount to more than our actuall phone bill? dat was quite thought provoking.......
then daryl shared his testimony about how he came to yf......about all the good, the bad and the funny.......they took his onli fren away! some marksimen...guy haha...super funny la......was quite touched by it....i even came 2 find out alot of things about his personality last time......which is quite like me now, taciturn(which is like silent and not prone to talk(heyy rachel liew u rat....i checked up e meaning....)) except i dunno wad to talk about with ppl.......i was quite touched by his testimony on how he found out dat his gift was to spend those precious moments with different individuals n not to "appeal to every general person".....i found dat quite a thing to think about.....
after dat we had wet games, we were divided into groups randomly......1st we played some super stupid game called nuclear bomb, man & cockroach.......the actions were lame la.....n e game playing was even more lame la.......we had an umbrella on e table and a cuppa watter on the floor and two ppl were supposed to do different actions then the winner had to splash water from the cup before the loser could open the umbrella to win.......quite stupid la.....
then we played a classic game.......water bombs n all.....but they changed e game abit.....we were supposed to carry e opponents jelly with both hands to our side without getting wet.....if we got wet we hadta start again.....quite funn....after dat it was cleanup.....where many more ppl gott wet la.....i chased jerry to wet him n some stone queen said dat (eleanor's) coins dropped outta my pocket at each step lol.....fine i went back but i could onli find like 20 cents outta e wad, $1.70 odd?
i didnt attend e yf cake cutting ceremony cos i went out to the playground with alethia.....her parents scared she get kidnapped or sumtin so i stayed with her until they sorta came(after a long time).....quite funn la....2 big youths were playing the swing n really swinging so high....then looking at e stars n talking abit of nonsense....funny e 2 youths were us hahaha......aftre a while i felt abit queesy lol must be my gastrich la.....i didnt eat anything since my breakfast which was quite early in e morning.....after e psychotic sheep's(baaa) parents came, i went back to church....thankfully there was still food...i ate abit....it was like everyone was sedentary for e day....nobody playing much of anything.........we jus sitt around n talked lol.....talk until quite late still haven ate dinner yet la.....i left church at 10pm! i had my dinner alone at e zhi cha stall near church......gott home about 11pm la.....but i think my dad is getting less strict after family day(tho he didnt go for much of e programme)(can u believe it!?!).....he didnt scold me like e usual lol...in fact he didnt scold me at all....i guess saturday ended with sleep haha (ok i noe abit dots....)
Friday, June 24
30/1 stressed outtt!!!! im so DEAD
im blogging again....after yet another oh so stressful project....im so packed mann....crap.....ok i will fill u guys in on yesterday(sorry i didnt complete my posting cos there was no time...) about e speech, i didnt prepare any formal guideline for e speech.....in fact i gave an impromptu speech lol.....i started very well(my teacher told me after e whole thing, she said once she heard my starting, she thot it was a straight A grade.....).....i totally didnt know wad to say......didnt hav time to read all e sources i found from the library all dat cos amidst skool n all dat still gotta start on e one after another projects and assignments....I really talked crap from wad i knew....all my general knowledge about my topic jus began to flow....after awhile, i ran outta things to talkabout...i looked up at my frens in e LT n i jus forgot wad i wanted to say and i gott nervous la....luckily the teacher had to observe time so she asked me to cut short my speech n go straight to e conclusion....wow wad a relief.....i hadta think awhile for e final conclusion cos i had jus planned for my speech to flow lol......
ok now onto my IT entreprenship project dat was due todae.......wah it was killer mann......i finished almost everything necessary for the project........but after i consulted my teacher on wednesday, i found out dat we needed quite abit more things to do our group market research on.......i made some of my group members do their parts of the research......i didnt ask some of them cos i thott i had given them enuf(apparently not).....
anws if there are any group members dat are reading this, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CONTRIBUTING ALL YOU COULD !! ok the project was due today at about 4pm(after e lecture).....well i'm glad the teacher was gracious cos i had classes until 6pm so after i consulted him, i was allowed to to hand in the project latest by 7pm.....
"A BIG THANK YOU TO JASLINE, MY CLASSMATE FOR STAYING BACK TO HELP ME WITH ALL THE PRINTING AND ORGANIZATION OF THE PROJECT!!"
i really appreciated it ALOT......end up after all e rushing, i managed to onli hand in the project at 8pm, im sorry my group members (who did their work) mayb its my fault for being a lousy CEO dat i didnt plan properly n i caused u guys to lose marks for handing in e project late so so sorry......anws a teacher helped us to put it on myy teacher's desk........the lord provides(but seriously if the teacher didnt walk of e staff room jus then, i dunno wad i would hav or could hav done......)
well i jus hope dat e teacher wont deduct so much marks......argh i dun think i can chill anytime soon.....my mind is so packed with lotsa projects n stuff.....not to mention dat its so sooo tired rite now....jus feel like sleeping for a long time..o_O...I pray dat God will bring the comfort and the peace of mind that onli he can bring to me during the weekend...i dunno how but i jus trust in him........thanx for reading my rambling long post......sorry i wrote lotsa crap
ok now onto my IT entreprenship project dat was due todae.......wah it was killer mann......i finished almost everything necessary for the project........but after i consulted my teacher on wednesday, i found out dat we needed quite abit more things to do our group market research on.......i made some of my group members do their parts of the research......i didnt ask some of them cos i thott i had given them enuf(apparently not).....
anws if there are any group members dat are reading this, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CONTRIBUTING ALL YOU COULD !! ok the project was due today at about 4pm(after e lecture).....well i'm glad the teacher was gracious cos i had classes until 6pm so after i consulted him, i was allowed to to hand in the project latest by 7pm.....
"A BIG THANK YOU TO JASLINE, MY CLASSMATE FOR STAYING BACK TO HELP ME WITH ALL THE PRINTING AND ORGANIZATION OF THE PROJECT!!"
i really appreciated it ALOT......end up after all e rushing, i managed to onli hand in the project at 8pm, im sorry my group members (who did their work) mayb its my fault for being a lousy CEO dat i didnt plan properly n i caused u guys to lose marks for handing in e project late so so sorry......anws a teacher helped us to put it on myy teacher's desk........the lord provides(but seriously if the teacher didnt walk of e staff room jus then, i dunno wad i would hav or could hav done......)
well i jus hope dat e teacher wont deduct so much marks......argh i dun think i can chill anytime soon.....my mind is so packed with lotsa projects n stuff.....not to mention dat its so sooo tired rite now....jus feel like sleeping for a long time..o_O...I pray dat God will bring the comfort and the peace of mind that onli he can bring to me during the weekend...i dunno how but i jus trust in him........thanx for reading my rambling long post......sorry i wrote lotsa crap
Thursday, June 23
29/1
im now blogging after 1 project is done.........haha abit little but oh wells lil is betta than nuttin rite? haha....well i had my communication skills presentation todae.....before dat i was like rushing to pep(e prayer n evangelism thingy in temasek poly).....after pep i think all of them wished me good luck....dat was quite encouraging to me lol......when i was about to freak out i remembered their encouragements......they're all gals btw(but dat was nuttin to do with it)....oh yeah im onli in a group with all gals cos its e onli time when im free during e week for pep for 2 hrs......feels abit wierd being e onli guy but i guess for God, everything is ok la....i jus finish playing a few games of yahoo pool......i think i won most of them.....not i pro, i was lucky for most of em.....im listening to my reigning favorite online radio station now Klove.....jus so relaxxed rite now.....but next week still gott like 3 other projects to pass up on friday la....most started ready but not completed yet!!
rite now i'll havta get onto planning my "short speech" for yw(i'm leading with the crazy mann daryl....).....as well as compile my group stuff to hand in yet another project tml...e weekends seems to rush at me dis week cos of the many commitments dis week haha...o k dats all for now.....(=
rite now i'll havta get onto planning my "short speech" for yw(i'm leading with the crazy mann daryl....).....as well as compile my group stuff to hand in yet another project tml...e weekends seems to rush at me dis week cos of the many commitments dis week haha...o k dats all for now.....(=
Monday, June 20
28/1
well im blogging about saturday.....my mood was like so bad after friday.....i was still thinking about all my projects......come to think about it now....i think i hav 2 projects due dis week and 3 next week.....luckily i hav started abit of e 2 due dis week.....i've to pass up e interim report of my IT entrepreneurship(which i'm e CEO of)....i oso hav a formal speech n presentation for communication skills!! whoever thot dat we needed dat 2 graduate!?! walao sianz mann...arggh i dun find it funn at all.....lousy i still havta spend time to plan a speech in front of my class in e LT!
oh yeah about saturday......i led worship.....n i totally didnt say much at all.......it was like all a medley of about 7 powerful n meaningful songs(not 2 mention fast paced)......i must say i really did worship God even tho i think i planned e last part of worship abit last minute n impromptu as well...i felt much betta after i liked sang at e best i could(could u guys hear me?? i thot i couldnt project my voice)....it was like a release lol....its like God converted my heavy heart into sumtin dat i could focus on him with......its like he turned my heaviness into praise to HIM!! wow! e comfort he gives is amazing, n i never wouldav expected it dat way! felt much betta and after dat there was e anniversary dinner.....many ppl came n quite a few skipped e msg as well.....i ate outside then i came back to church....they still haven finish yet.....i felt even betta while i walked around 2 e various tables which my frens were sitting.....i dunno y....mayb its jus not so cliqueish n e ppl are like more relaxed jus sitting down, eating and chatting haha
ok on sunday.......there was dis father's day msg done by some doctor from theology skool probably.....i thinked he looked like einstein......somebody elder i noe said it was boring but i found it ok la.....at least i concentrated for e period jus like any typical pastor quek message.....after dat i gott distracted n could focus on e msg......talking to my frens and i also saw sum1 to my far left nodding away, going to sleep(green tea)......i think overall e speaker gave a good msg(or at least e parts which i was listening) but i didnt get e whole msg(expected la...) after dat pastor quek asked e fathers to stand up n he prayed for them....then he asked them 2 sit down.....think he forgot dat we were supposed to give out gifts to e fathers......he asked them 2 stand up again....quite funny....like he's losing his memory(ok la i noe i'm quite bad)....we went out in teams 2 give out e stuff.....i was like saying blessed father's day to everyone....marcus said he even offered e fathers handshakes which they accepted haha o k......
after lunch(heyy my family went to sizzler for father's day lunch lol....unfair la i had to stay to plan for yw....but actualli its ok....i dun mind cos i'm serving e Lord...nuttin else is more impt) daryl n i went back to church to plan for yw next sunday(we're leading together)....we chose some normally sung songs and we'll be learning or relearning a new song which we probably sung before (cos i happen to noe it) but not so familiar cos its hardly sung in yf or yw...ok we planned averything.....i pray dat e Lord will help me to say what he wants me to say.(dats another speech(but more impt) to research n plann for)
okayy i dunno when i can post again....my break time is going to be up soon....gott lessons later.....tired...slept quite early (in e morning).....woke up quite early as well...hope i can concentrate n my mind doesnt float 2 sumwhere else....haha....dat all for now folks!
oh yeah about saturday......i led worship.....n i totally didnt say much at all.......it was like all a medley of about 7 powerful n meaningful songs(not 2 mention fast paced)......i must say i really did worship God even tho i think i planned e last part of worship abit last minute n impromptu as well...i felt much betta after i liked sang at e best i could(could u guys hear me?? i thot i couldnt project my voice)....it was like a release lol....its like God converted my heavy heart into sumtin dat i could focus on him with......its like he turned my heaviness into praise to HIM!! wow! e comfort he gives is amazing, n i never wouldav expected it dat way! felt much betta and after dat there was e anniversary dinner.....many ppl came n quite a few skipped e msg as well.....i ate outside then i came back to church....they still haven finish yet.....i felt even betta while i walked around 2 e various tables which my frens were sitting.....i dunno y....mayb its jus not so cliqueish n e ppl are like more relaxed jus sitting down, eating and chatting haha
ok on sunday.......there was dis father's day msg done by some doctor from theology skool probably.....i thinked he looked like einstein......somebody elder i noe said it was boring but i found it ok la.....at least i concentrated for e period jus like any typical pastor quek message.....after dat i gott distracted n could focus on e msg......talking to my frens and i also saw sum1 to my far left nodding away, going to sleep(green tea)......i think overall e speaker gave a good msg(or at least e parts which i was listening) but i didnt get e whole msg(expected la...) after dat pastor quek asked e fathers to stand up n he prayed for them....then he asked them 2 sit down.....think he forgot dat we were supposed to give out gifts to e fathers......he asked them 2 stand up again....quite funny....like he's losing his memory(ok la i noe i'm quite bad)....we went out in teams 2 give out e stuff.....i was like saying blessed father's day to everyone....marcus said he even offered e fathers handshakes which they accepted haha o k......
after lunch(heyy my family went to sizzler for father's day lunch lol....unfair la i had to stay to plan for yw....but actualli its ok....i dun mind cos i'm serving e Lord...nuttin else is more impt) daryl n i went back to church to plan for yw next sunday(we're leading together)....we chose some normally sung songs and we'll be learning or relearning a new song which we probably sung before (cos i happen to noe it) but not so familiar cos its hardly sung in yf or yw...ok we planned averything.....i pray dat e Lord will help me to say what he wants me to say.(dats another speech(but more impt) to research n plann for)
okayy i dunno when i can post again....my break time is going to be up soon....gott lessons later.....tired...slept quite early (in e morning).....woke up quite early as well...hope i can concentrate n my mind doesnt float 2 sumwhere else....haha....dat all for now folks!
Friday, June 17
27/1 arrgghhhh
FINALLY THE WEEKENDS ARE HERE!!!! wah e 1 thing dat keeps sane and "recharges" me for e whole week ahead is here.....stressful ah when u jus wann skool to hurry off but my normal mood for dis week was argh y is e week dragging so much??
assignments jus make e week more draggier and the deadlines coming up jus make the time to do it lesser....!!!!!!! Lord help me get thru day by day trusting dat things will work out ur way(which is so much a larger picture than my "pea-eyed" vision by the way).....jus find dat i've been too stressed about e things of this world.....when actualli i sumtimes forget dat it is well with my soul!!
all these sound kinda wierd jus typing them out but oh wells i jus type wadeva comes to my mind lol.....ok i'm leading yf tml.....jus actualli waked up to e fact dat i haven prepared all the songs yet.....nvm i wont worry....God will provide strength as he sees fit.....
well i jus finished a makeup lecture not too long ago......now i noe y if i dun make notes during lectures, my mind will jus float to some dream place......seriously i was like dreaming or rather imaginating abit during my teachers lecture lol...i imagined i could jus travel soo fast from place 2 place jus by teleporting(haha ironical eh? da sao) as well as imagining dat i could split myself into many "clone-like people"....then if all of "me" go to work at different place s, i would be rich......i could combine with "them" back again.....lol its crap la.......but e problem is i cant make notes cuz e lecturers are going too fast(i normally make notes from e lecture slides)......ok la i shouldnt be blogging for some time....i gott lotsa commitments to keep, projects to do....altogether like 6 projects, 1 per subject....till next time sorry again......but I promise i'll keep my tagboard active k?
assignments jus make e week more draggier and the deadlines coming up jus make the time to do it lesser....!!!!!!! Lord help me get thru day by day trusting dat things will work out ur way(which is so much a larger picture than my "pea-eyed" vision by the way).....jus find dat i've been too stressed about e things of this world.....when actualli i sumtimes forget dat it is well with my soul!!
all these sound kinda wierd jus typing them out but oh wells i jus type wadeva comes to my mind lol.....ok i'm leading yf tml.....jus actualli waked up to e fact dat i haven prepared all the songs yet.....nvm i wont worry....God will provide strength as he sees fit.....
well i jus finished a makeup lecture not too long ago......now i noe y if i dun make notes during lectures, my mind will jus float to some dream place......seriously i was like dreaming or rather imaginating abit during my teachers lecture lol...i imagined i could jus travel soo fast from place 2 place jus by teleporting(haha ironical eh? da sao) as well as imagining dat i could split myself into many "clone-like people"....then if all of "me" go to work at different place s, i would be rich......i could combine with "them" back again.....lol its crap la.......but e problem is i cant make notes cuz e lecturers are going too fast(i normally make notes from e lecture slides)......ok la i shouldnt be blogging for some time....i gott lotsa commitments to keep, projects to do....altogether like 6 projects, 1 per subject....till next time sorry again......but I promise i'll keep my tagboard active k?
Wednesday, June 15
26/2 today is made to get betta n betta
ok as promised.....wow i feel dat God is rather close or rather i'm rather close to my heavenly father today....i dunno y....dis morning was raining(and i was wondering how come today so nice to sleep zzZZZzzz haha oops oh wells)....oh yeah i hav a new phone by the way cos my old phone e speaker piece spoil(i can hear ppl but they cant hear me lol)....its e nokia 7270 (i bought it for $398(dis kinda money didnt come easy, i hadta work hard for ittt..) n i renewed my old plan)....i sent quite a lot of things via infrared from my frens phone to mine....wonderful mann e infrared function, i never use before so i didnt noe....too bad i dun hav bluetooth("lan ya"..o_O lame i noe)......and a memory card would do nicely to fitt all e functions in my phone......oh wells i guess i cant hav everything unless i paya bomb for it....ok i wont complain about wad i dun hav well im satisfied with my new phone, it suits my needs....
oh yeah dis morning i left my house quite late (as expected la)....i was listening to my discman(yes im still quite backward, not using an mp3 for songs yet...) anws i was listening 2 Best Of Worship Songs Ever 1....wow e 1st few songs in there jus rock la....super solid great songs back to back....i was boarding e bus when e bus driver said sumtin i couldnt hear....he said Good Morning! i felt quite good n i replied back....felt even betta after dat....lectures n classes were normal for me today.....jus stoned thru some of them....not paying attention n all......i jus realised dat i've been quite slack.....besides printing my own tutorials and practicals, i haven been working much towards doing up my own notes mann die....its like e 4th or 5th(oh no i'm not even sure which weeek it is, mann i'm too slacked outt..) week ready n i haven finished my 1st weeks notes.....everytime i go for lectures im like jus passive listening but somehow i feel it doesnt get in as well as last time.....i guess i figure y: i haven been doing up my own notes in lectures!! crap stuff it took me so long.....i havta start catching up oh no....how i wish hav a fast n not too expensive internet connection rite about now....
OK i will work with a relaxed mind (thanks alot to positive n encouraging klove(their e best!!)) i will complete all my research for tml arrggghhhh!! ok i will complete my note taking as well haiz....ok datss all for now.....
oh yeah dis morning i left my house quite late (as expected la)....i was listening to my discman(yes im still quite backward, not using an mp3 for songs yet...) anws i was listening 2 Best Of Worship Songs Ever 1....wow e 1st few songs in there jus rock la....super solid great songs back to back....i was boarding e bus when e bus driver said sumtin i couldnt hear....he said Good Morning! i felt quite good n i replied back....felt even betta after dat....lectures n classes were normal for me today.....jus stoned thru some of them....not paying attention n all......i jus realised dat i've been quite slack.....besides printing my own tutorials and practicals, i haven been working much towards doing up my own notes mann die....its like e 4th or 5th(oh no i'm not even sure which weeek it is, mann i'm too slacked outt..) week ready n i haven finished my 1st weeks notes.....everytime i go for lectures im like jus passive listening but somehow i feel it doesnt get in as well as last time.....i guess i figure y: i haven been doing up my own notes in lectures!! crap stuff it took me so long.....i havta start catching up oh no....how i wish hav a fast n not too expensive internet connection rite about now....
OK i will work with a relaxed mind (thanks alot to positive n encouraging klove(their e best!!)) i will complete all my research for tml arrggghhhh!! ok i will complete my note taking as well haiz....ok datss all for now.....
26/1 forwarded by my dad,thot i should share
Thoughts cause feelings, and the wrong kinds of thoughts can causestressful feelings.We can look at the same event different ways. It helps if you can learn tolook at the good things in life rather than the ugly. For example, if yougot into a car accident and totalled your car, you can sit there and feelsorry for yourself, or angry for losing the car.
These are allself-defeating. On the other hand, you can thank god that you were notkilled or, worse yet, maimed in the car accidents. When you look at life'sevents like that you will have something to smile at every event and thatis the power of positive living.Guidelines in looking at problems in the proper perspective:
1. Every Living Human Being Has Problems.
Perhaps you are unhappy with your work. Isn't it good that you have a jobrather than being unemployed? Many people have the mistaken notion thatsuccessful people do not have any problems. It is not true. Success tendsto breed its own set of problems.Everyone has problems. A problem-free life is an illusion - a mirage in thedesert. Accept the fact that everyone has problems. This will help you tomove on with your life rather than sitting and feeling pity for yourself.
2. Every Problem Has A Limited Life Span
Every mountain has a peak and every valley has a low point. Similarly, lifehas its ups and downs. No one is up all the time or down all the time.Problems do get resolved in the long term. They don't last forever. Historyteaches that every problem has a limited life span. Your problems will notlive forever; but you will! Storms are followed by sunshine. Winter isfollowed by spring. Your problems will get resolved given enough time.
3. Every Problem Holds Positive Possibilities
There are two sides to every coin. What may be a problem for one could beinteresting opportunity to someone else. Hospitals are there because peopleget sick; garages are there because cars do break down; lawyers are therebecause people get in trouble with the law occasionally. Every cloud has asilver lining.
4. Every Problem Will Change You
When me meet problems head on in life, they leave their indelible mark onus. The experience could make you better or worse. It is up to you. What iscertain is that problems never leave us the same way they found us. We willchange. For example, let us say that you lost your job. You can sit andfeel sorry for yourself. Or you can be aggressive and decide to dosomething about it. You are better than them. You want to show them what amistake they did in firing you. You have to be fired before you can befired up. That may be wake-up call you needed before embarking on asuccessful mission. Again, for every problem, there is a positive andnegative side. Look for the positive side and work on it.
5. You Can Choose What Your Problem Will Do To You
You may not be able to control the problems, but you certainly can controlyour reaction or response to the problem. You can turn your pain intoprofanity or into poetry. The choice is up to you. You can control thereaction even if you cannot control the problem. You control the effect ofthe problem by controlling the reaction. It can make you tough or tender.It can make you better or bitter. It all depends on you.
6. There Is A Negative And A Positive Reaction To Every Problem
Tough people have learned to choose the most positive reaction in managingproblems. The key is that they manage their problems. Remember, we havelittle control on problems; we have control on how we react and manage theproblem. Positive people chose to react positively to their predicaments.
Do you automatically interpret silence on the part of your spouse to mean anger when it could just as easily mean fatigue?
Do you blame yourself when a sudden downpour drenches your wash on the line?
Do you dwell on the few times your boss criticized your performance and ignore the innumerable times s/he's praised you?
We all fall into the negative thinking rut from time to time. We badger ourselves with "should haves" and lose sight of the fact that "good" and "bad" in life is rarely black and white. All-or-nothing thinking can lead to anxiety, depression, and feelings of inferiority, perfectionism and anger.
We are our worst enemies.
We tend to put a higher standard for us compared to others.
We tend to criticize ourselves for our miscues rather than being happy for the accomplishments.
Allow yourself to fail now and then.
It's all part of being human.
Love yourself. Ask and ye shall receive. Enjoy the moment. For every minute you are angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness. Accentuate the positive, not the negative.It takes both the sun and the rain to make a rainbow.
p.s.sorry about some of e spacings.....i jus copy n paste it....
These are allself-defeating. On the other hand, you can thank god that you were notkilled or, worse yet, maimed in the car accidents. When you look at life'sevents like that you will have something to smile at every event and thatis the power of positive living.Guidelines in looking at problems in the proper perspective:
1. Every Living Human Being Has Problems.
Perhaps you are unhappy with your work. Isn't it good that you have a jobrather than being unemployed? Many people have the mistaken notion thatsuccessful people do not have any problems. It is not true. Success tendsto breed its own set of problems.Everyone has problems. A problem-free life is an illusion - a mirage in thedesert. Accept the fact that everyone has problems. This will help you tomove on with your life rather than sitting and feeling pity for yourself.
2. Every Problem Has A Limited Life Span
Every mountain has a peak and every valley has a low point. Similarly, lifehas its ups and downs. No one is up all the time or down all the time.Problems do get resolved in the long term. They don't last forever. Historyteaches that every problem has a limited life span. Your problems will notlive forever; but you will! Storms are followed by sunshine. Winter isfollowed by spring. Your problems will get resolved given enough time.
3. Every Problem Holds Positive Possibilities
There are two sides to every coin. What may be a problem for one could beinteresting opportunity to someone else. Hospitals are there because peopleget sick; garages are there because cars do break down; lawyers are therebecause people get in trouble with the law occasionally. Every cloud has asilver lining.
4. Every Problem Will Change You
When me meet problems head on in life, they leave their indelible mark onus. The experience could make you better or worse. It is up to you. What iscertain is that problems never leave us the same way they found us. We willchange. For example, let us say that you lost your job. You can sit andfeel sorry for yourself. Or you can be aggressive and decide to dosomething about it. You are better than them. You want to show them what amistake they did in firing you. You have to be fired before you can befired up. That may be wake-up call you needed before embarking on asuccessful mission. Again, for every problem, there is a positive andnegative side. Look for the positive side and work on it.
5. You Can Choose What Your Problem Will Do To You
You may not be able to control the problems, but you certainly can controlyour reaction or response to the problem. You can turn your pain intoprofanity or into poetry. The choice is up to you. You can control thereaction even if you cannot control the problem. You control the effect ofthe problem by controlling the reaction. It can make you tough or tender.It can make you better or bitter. It all depends on you.
6. There Is A Negative And A Positive Reaction To Every Problem
Tough people have learned to choose the most positive reaction in managingproblems. The key is that they manage their problems. Remember, we havelittle control on problems; we have control on how we react and manage theproblem. Positive people chose to react positively to their predicaments.
Do you automatically interpret silence on the part of your spouse to mean anger when it could just as easily mean fatigue?
Do you blame yourself when a sudden downpour drenches your wash on the line?
Do you dwell on the few times your boss criticized your performance and ignore the innumerable times s/he's praised you?
We all fall into the negative thinking rut from time to time. We badger ourselves with "should haves" and lose sight of the fact that "good" and "bad" in life is rarely black and white. All-or-nothing thinking can lead to anxiety, depression, and feelings of inferiority, perfectionism and anger.
We are our worst enemies.
We tend to put a higher standard for us compared to others.
We tend to criticize ourselves for our miscues rather than being happy for the accomplishments.
Allow yourself to fail now and then.
It's all part of being human.
Love yourself. Ask and ye shall receive. Enjoy the moment. For every minute you are angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness. Accentuate the positive, not the negative.It takes both the sun and the rain to make a rainbow.
p.s.sorry about some of e spacings.....i jus copy n paste it....
Tuesday, June 14
25/1 life's like dat lol...
heyy hello again...im posting again.....i jus tore myself apart jus now (again).....amidst feeling abit hungry from skipping normal breakfast n lunch times, luckily i gott sum protein drinks 2 fill my stomach if not i'll jus be dieded la.....gym was abit crazy for me la cos i was tired....e bars all were like tearing into my palm....(well not literally but almost).....ok i jus finished printing a massive amount of paper(all my tutorials n practicals actualli).......sorry i'm ending my post here....im scared e lab tech come n close e lab b4 i can finish my post.....which is normalli quite long.....i promise i'll post again tml k?
Monday, June 6
24/1 Release
mann i'm dying here lol....i gott like at least 1 project for each subject i'm taking lol.....really mann....crap i jus wanna rest like a long long while rite now....there are like 2 things dat can give me temporary release rite now........1 is going 2 e gym, thrashing myself apart..........e other is actualli blogging!! wow.....dats plus replying 2 ppl's tags too.......i jus realised dat today.........thanx for those who hav been reading most if not all of my posts........im sorry im talking to a stone queen (shermaine lou) on msn web messenger n i lost my train of thot........anws oh yeah i find dat blogging is quite a release cos i can jus release all my pent up feelings for all those willing to read...(sorry for those who read dis stuff n find it crappy....)i think i hav alot on my mind rite now......jus aching for rest m im seriously stretching my multi-tasking capabilities rite now......chatting, msging n blogging......im sorry once again.........i think i should or rather would be blogging less in e future....i should spend more time on my pressing projects arrrhhhhhh........dats it for todae sorry............;)
Friday, June 3
23/1
heyy im posting again.....yeah once again i went thru another grueling week of classes n not enuf sleep....well dis week i've my share of late nites n early waking up times...its killer to me mann.....halfway thru today i was stoning in e lecture ready.....jus waiting for lessons 2 end for e day.....not a good feeling i assure u...but anws e weekends are here!! yeah finally sumtin 2 help me keep sane, youth fellowship!! jus a fresh wave of energy for e next week....well im super hott in my skool lab...they didnt onn e air-con or sumtin....well anws i'll be going soon so it doesnt really matter....well im going for e outreach comm meeting n stay over 2 help at children's camp st serangoon gardens south skool....till next time tadaloo! ;)
Thursday, June 2
22/2 keys 2 my heart??
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
i gott dis off my frens blog.....
22/1 ITS ME ?!?!
life is like a fairy tale.....its as if u sorta noe wads going 2 happen thru e way u choose 2 live ur life.....well all dis time whenever i see sumtin dat reminds me of d n a, i cant help myself but feel sad about it for awhile until sumtin comes n cheers me up, taking away my sorrow until e next time i feel sad again haha....i thot i was being influenced too much by e things around me......how can sum1 be so cruel n torment me every time i see sumtin dat reminds me of her (or related to dat for dat matter).......HOW?? how can dat person jus cut straight deep into e point where u would feel e most hurt? dat person noes me e best (i guess).....n he betrayed my trust for him.....i jus figured dat e 1 n onli evil person doing dis 2 me is ME !! i'm e 1 tearing my own heart apart with my own bare hands!! wad a shocking self revelation!
haha looking back now i guess i would say i was stupid 2 do all dat 2 myself.....i should hav realised it earlier but betta late than never rite? oh wells for all reading dis be witness of my pledge........""from dis day forth, I, Daniel Lee Ern Wen CHOOSE 2 stop thinking about things dat will directly or indirectly make me sad.....I will not tear my heart apart by my own hands jus when i've recovered from e scar again......I will trust God 2 do wad he wills in my life....n i noe dat it will be e best for me.....I will choose to be n remain happy as best of my ability.....sadness from relationships is no longer a word in my dictionary.......""
ok im done.....abit dramatic but e reality of e truth jus hit me like a wave, jus felt i should be held accountable if i go against dis pledge haha.....thanx all
haha looking back now i guess i would say i was stupid 2 do all dat 2 myself.....i should hav realised it earlier but betta late than never rite? oh wells for all reading dis be witness of my pledge........""from dis day forth, I, Daniel Lee Ern Wen CHOOSE 2 stop thinking about things dat will directly or indirectly make me sad.....I will not tear my heart apart by my own hands jus when i've recovered from e scar again......I will trust God 2 do wad he wills in my life....n i noe dat it will be e best for me.....I will choose to be n remain happy as best of my ability.....sadness from relationships is no longer a word in my dictionary.......""
ok im done.....abit dramatic but e reality of e truth jus hit me like a wave, jus felt i should be held accountable if i go against dis pledge haha.....thanx all
Tuesday, May 31
21/1 e life of mine
heyy i feel great.....wah jus now i went 2 e gym n tore myself more apart than usual....i must say dat is really a great feeling.....i guess i'll start 2 feel e effects tml la....for now jus a lil torn up onli....
sorry i wanted to udpate earlier but skoool life has been lousy for me la....jus e start of e 2nd week & i hav many projects deadlines 2 meet....designing wireless LAN service, & some other projects i dun really remember now...i'm taking dis subject, IT Enterpreneurship......woah i heard it hard n i myself think its hard.....lotsa stuff 2 do....my lab mates n i formed a group of 6 ppl in which im e "CEO" (woah) but there's alot of things to be done.....n responsibilities too....without God's help i wont last long.....in fact i wont even survive e stress im putting myself thru thus far (i stress myself (mayb abit too much for sucha short time) so as 2 not let myself slack too much, i dun wanna fail, 2nd yr ready.....)
well its nice 2 meet yfers in skool...they make me feel welcome....at least these are e few of e ppl i noe hahah.....see how la next time if i happen 2 eat alone, n i see sum1 else eating alone, i'll go n approach him/her n make frens.....mayb we might become "eating partners" haha :D
i really hate skool days where my lesson starts at 8am....i cant wake up la....dreamland seems so so welcoming especially on dat days....its funny la....when i wanna hav a good sleep in e holidays, i seldom get it....but on skool days dose are e days i sleep e best......well wad can i do? actualli come 2 tink of it, i might hav been able 2 go into a jc IF i had studied a lil harder in secondary skool...but now i thank God dat im in poly, dun need 2 wake up dat early everyday for 1 haha....but i enjoy their structured system of sports n studies.....altho im not e studying type so i might jus go there cos of sports....sooner or later get kicked out or retained in j1 if i'm not careful.....
poly is much more slack.....there's more freedom but if ur e type dat doesnt take e initiative then it can kill u......dats y e stress is mainly from urself (least of all frens around u dat oso want 2 excel).......i asked 1 of my frens how was his results......he told me "ok la.....didnt get all As for all my subjects"......he looked quite glum as well.....mann i was like o_O i was contented with getting my highest B+ n he was complaining he had all Bs n Cs.....i thot dat was still ok mann (dats almost wad i gott)....wah his standard is high mann....never mind i like e challenge......i'lll challenge myself 2 get even betta, a Z (which is e highest grade u can ever get), top 5% of distinction in e whole course....woah dats high but it can be done....well i guess anywhere u are u still hav stress, jus see wad kinds of stress n how much is there haha
well i hav been wanting a pair of black jeans for so long......after i went 2 e penang trip, my cousin gave me quite Alot of his old pants n long-sleeve shirts.....guess wad was among e "loot"? well a pair of levi's black jeans! i was so happy mann......fact im wearing it now haha oops....its nice n all but there's 1 problem.....i dunno when dis was made but now its probably an antique or mayb it would be extremely hard 2 find a pair of (any) jeans with a BUTTON FLY! can u believe it? there are like 3 or 4 buttons on e fly itself covered by another piece of cloth......mannn so inconvenient when u r urgent.....luckily for me i haven had dat experience yet...when ur done with ur business still havta button it back....not an easy task as well.....haha my brother saw it n he said good luck buttoning mann....i thot it was ok but end up its abit far from it...well im getting used 2 it.....i'm thankful i hav another pair of jeans mann :P
ok sorry i always make my posts so long......for those who jus finished reading, congrats n thank u for ur time...
sorry i wanted to udpate earlier but skoool life has been lousy for me la....jus e start of e 2nd week & i hav many projects deadlines 2 meet....designing wireless LAN service, & some other projects i dun really remember now...i'm taking dis subject, IT Enterpreneurship......woah i heard it hard n i myself think its hard.....lotsa stuff 2 do....my lab mates n i formed a group of 6 ppl in which im e "CEO" (woah) but there's alot of things to be done.....n responsibilities too....without God's help i wont last long.....in fact i wont even survive e stress im putting myself thru thus far (i stress myself (mayb abit too much for sucha short time) so as 2 not let myself slack too much, i dun wanna fail, 2nd yr ready.....)
well its nice 2 meet yfers in skool...they make me feel welcome....at least these are e few of e ppl i noe hahah.....see how la next time if i happen 2 eat alone, n i see sum1 else eating alone, i'll go n approach him/her n make frens.....mayb we might become "eating partners" haha :D
i really hate skool days where my lesson starts at 8am....i cant wake up la....dreamland seems so so welcoming especially on dat days....its funny la....when i wanna hav a good sleep in e holidays, i seldom get it....but on skool days dose are e days i sleep e best......well wad can i do? actualli come 2 tink of it, i might hav been able 2 go into a jc IF i had studied a lil harder in secondary skool...but now i thank God dat im in poly, dun need 2 wake up dat early everyday for 1 haha....but i enjoy their structured system of sports n studies.....altho im not e studying type so i might jus go there cos of sports....sooner or later get kicked out or retained in j1 if i'm not careful.....
poly is much more slack.....there's more freedom but if ur e type dat doesnt take e initiative then it can kill u......dats y e stress is mainly from urself (least of all frens around u dat oso want 2 excel).......i asked 1 of my frens how was his results......he told me "ok la.....didnt get all As for all my subjects"......he looked quite glum as well.....mann i was like o_O i was contented with getting my highest B+ n he was complaining he had all Bs n Cs.....i thot dat was still ok mann (dats almost wad i gott)....wah his standard is high mann....never mind i like e challenge......i'lll challenge myself 2 get even betta, a Z (which is e highest grade u can ever get), top 5% of distinction in e whole course....woah dats high but it can be done....well i guess anywhere u are u still hav stress, jus see wad kinds of stress n how much is there haha
well i hav been wanting a pair of black jeans for so long......after i went 2 e penang trip, my cousin gave me quite Alot of his old pants n long-sleeve shirts.....guess wad was among e "loot"? well a pair of levi's black jeans! i was so happy mann......fact im wearing it now haha oops....its nice n all but there's 1 problem.....i dunno when dis was made but now its probably an antique or mayb it would be extremely hard 2 find a pair of (any) jeans with a BUTTON FLY! can u believe it? there are like 3 or 4 buttons on e fly itself covered by another piece of cloth......mannn so inconvenient when u r urgent.....luckily for me i haven had dat experience yet...when ur done with ur business still havta button it back....not an easy task as well.....haha my brother saw it n he said good luck buttoning mann....i thot it was ok but end up its abit far from it...well im getting used 2 it.....i'm thankful i hav another pair of jeans mann :P
ok sorry i always make my posts so long......for those who jus finished reading, congrats n thank u for ur time...
Tuesday, May 24
20/1 back to skool
well....so sorry its beeen a long time since i last posted....well im back to skool todae....lessons were supposed 2 start at 8am today....but i thot 1st week got no lab sessions so i slept in.......i skipped lessons on my 1st day(wonderful eh?).....wanted 2 wake up at 8am but it wass raining, which put me in a betta mood 2 sleep.....i wouldnt hav woken up if not for my dad who called both my phone n e house phone 2 wake me up.....he called home n my phone but he couldnt get a response.....his dear son was still deep in dream land haha...its quite amazing...he prayed about me waking up n minutes after his missed calls, guess who called him back? another of those little wonders in life dats could jus be God's doing n nuttin else haha.....
welll 1st day of skool was not as bad as i thot it would be so yeah im in an ok(n good) kinda mood.....it could all be worst....i ended skool at 1pm so it was quite a short day as well....todae is e 1st day for sad eyes (rachel kee) & silly banana (lois kwan) haha....at least got more frens dat i can talk (n hav lunch together) with in e same poly.....well done eh i check my timetable on e day i hav skool haha.....well now dat e new term has started, i think i will havta print out all e tutorials n lab sheets (lectures i will write my own notes so its fine)....my week seems 2 be quite evenly spaced with MOST of my classes starting later than 9am....
well after lessons ended i'm here at e lab.....jus chilling, playing yahoo pool, listening to e ever so positive n encouraging KLOVE.....sucha nice feeling haha (i'm still in e holiday mood, considering i jus came back from beginners worship retreat at austin hills yesterday =p)....sumtin's wrong with e skin of my stomach, seems quite ichy, i should stop scratching if not my skin will jus tear la...anyways talking about my stomach.......i jus realised (again) i havent had lunch so im going 2 go for lunch (alone again as usual).......
welll 1st day of skool was not as bad as i thot it would be so yeah im in an ok(n good) kinda mood.....it could all be worst....i ended skool at 1pm so it was quite a short day as well....todae is e 1st day for sad eyes (rachel kee) & silly banana (lois kwan) haha....at least got more frens dat i can talk (n hav lunch together) with in e same poly.....well done eh i check my timetable on e day i hav skool haha.....well now dat e new term has started, i think i will havta print out all e tutorials n lab sheets (lectures i will write my own notes so its fine)....my week seems 2 be quite evenly spaced with MOST of my classes starting later than 9am....
well after lessons ended i'm here at e lab.....jus chilling, playing yahoo pool, listening to e ever so positive n encouraging KLOVE.....sucha nice feeling haha (i'm still in e holiday mood, considering i jus came back from beginners worship retreat at austin hills yesterday =p)....sumtin's wrong with e skin of my stomach, seems quite ichy, i should stop scratching if not my skin will jus tear la...anyways talking about my stomach.......i jus realised (again) i havent had lunch so im going 2 go for lunch (alone again as usual).......
Thursday, April 28
19/1
well i haven been posting.......been wanting 2 but either gott no time or got time but i was caught up with other stuff......okayy so jus a lil update on wads beeen going onn.......
I gotta job from my father's client who is the big boss of e company(sumtin like founders lidat (woah)).......i print banners.....u noe e big big types? dat they hang like everywhere? from renovation to skools banner to restaurants n all......dats it...but e ink dat comes out from the printer is super smelly lol.....
my 1st day step in i choke ready.....seriously....i didnt noe until my 2nd or 3rd day lidat dat i shouldnt stay there breathing in e foul smell too much(i stayed there for quite a few print jobs)..wah after dat my chest hurt lol.....really hadta go out for fresh air.....then e next day then they turned on e big suction fan to suck most of the smell out (now then they do, wanna kill us then do sumtin about it iszit)....luckily i told my dad (cos he's a very long time fren cum remisier to my boss)...whew wad a relief
ok i wont complain about the pay there(i expected it to be low, afterall i went there to learn, without any experience).....$5 an hour quite ok i guess....all e ppl there treat me like e CEO of the company la.......quite fun 2 be treated like dat....never before lol.....mayb its e relations or mayb oso cause they treat me like their own children(who are about the same age group as me...+ or - a few yrs)
1 thing which i really cant stand is e real irritating Indian whom i work with.....ok la i felt damn bad cause i Thot Dat All ppl from India knew about computers...but i was wrong, e Indian guy(or gay....i'll explain later) didnt noe much about computers! (well cause his family was poor n didnt hav e money 2 send him 2 learnt computers) i onli learnt for 2 days or so.....then i hadta teach him as well as apply wad i learnt....but actualli no excuse cause he's been printing for wad a year plus ready.....I felt quite bad cos i was scolding him not cause he didnt noe about computer hardware but e things about e programme!! (about e hardware, i jus very pek cheak with him but i say nuttin)2 make things worst, i found out dat he's working now 2 support his younger brother!! how nice is dat??!! he himself didnt hav e chance 2 study n now he's paying for his brother's studies in Paris!! walao i felt damn bad after dat lol.....i really tried 2 understand him more n scold him less.....
but sometimes i jus cant keep my cool anymore when he tries 2 push his mistakes to me in front of e boss.....i still scold him if its his fault, dun care whoever is around.....i heard from my dad dat e boss is going 2 sack him if he's not careful.....e best thing is dat he doesnt even noe a thing about it la.....i feel sorry for him...he's ok la...except he likes 2 skive abit sometimes.....other than dat, if he had learnt wad i learnt within 3 days in e past year he worked here, he probably be more pro than me....but oh wells....im not saying dat im pro.....if e IT manager (who is not say very pro at hardware n all)is not around, i am practically the most IT savvy around the ppl i work with lol....i'm serious!! i try 2 teach e indian guy as much as i can la....jus a try on my part 2 help him keep his job in future....i oso dunno how he's going to keep his job la but i pray dat God will help e boss hav compassion on him la if not he lose his job its like so sad la...e indian guy is already like 34 lidat la.....
aiyoh i tell u.....i cant stand e indian guy cos when u talk to him rite he cant really understand wad ur trying 2 say....most of his pronounciation is also jus crap stuff la....both parties cannot understand wad e other is talking lol.....end up there was 1 or 2 days dat i was so angry i jus typed everything out on the keyboard n let him read himself.....he didnt say anything after reading my msges.....dunno whether he understand my english or not but oh wells.....he really makes me real pek cheak lol.....cann u imagine?? normally im e 1 who makes ppl real pek cheak (or so rite da sao??) but dis time i'm at e receiving end hahaha........PEK CHEAK!!! eeee! n he touch me quite abit...rubb my back all dat......wadssup with him mann.......i suspect he kinda gay.......a rather weak gay.....cant stand it mann....
seems so fast i actualli hav worked like 3 5 day weeks ready......n tml will be my last day ....today actualli i could hav gone into e office n get a free days worth of pay but i left my wallet at home n i locked myself out so yeah.....end up got no more jobs so i could stay home n sleep haha well done......n i could print out my small group photo n e yf photo as well.....oh wells hope i can manage it on my last day tml.....
for all e ppl dat bother 2 read all e way thru my long post, thank you very much for ur time......
I gotta job from my father's client who is the big boss of e company(sumtin like founders lidat (woah)).......i print banners.....u noe e big big types? dat they hang like everywhere? from renovation to skools banner to restaurants n all......dats it...but e ink dat comes out from the printer is super smelly lol.....
my 1st day step in i choke ready.....seriously....i didnt noe until my 2nd or 3rd day lidat dat i shouldnt stay there breathing in e foul smell too much(i stayed there for quite a few print jobs)..wah after dat my chest hurt lol.....really hadta go out for fresh air.....then e next day then they turned on e big suction fan to suck most of the smell out (now then they do, wanna kill us then do sumtin about it iszit)....luckily i told my dad (cos he's a very long time fren cum remisier to my boss)...whew wad a relief
ok i wont complain about the pay there(i expected it to be low, afterall i went there to learn, without any experience).....$5 an hour quite ok i guess....all e ppl there treat me like e CEO of the company la.......quite fun 2 be treated like dat....never before lol.....mayb its e relations or mayb oso cause they treat me like their own children(who are about the same age group as me...+ or - a few yrs)
1 thing which i really cant stand is e real irritating Indian whom i work with.....ok la i felt damn bad cause i Thot Dat All ppl from India knew about computers...but i was wrong, e Indian guy(or gay....i'll explain later) didnt noe much about computers! (well cause his family was poor n didnt hav e money 2 send him 2 learnt computers) i onli learnt for 2 days or so.....then i hadta teach him as well as apply wad i learnt....but actualli no excuse cause he's been printing for wad a year plus ready.....I felt quite bad cos i was scolding him not cause he didnt noe about computer hardware but e things about e programme!! (about e hardware, i jus very pek cheak with him but i say nuttin)2 make things worst, i found out dat he's working now 2 support his younger brother!! how nice is dat??!! he himself didnt hav e chance 2 study n now he's paying for his brother's studies in Paris!! walao i felt damn bad after dat lol.....i really tried 2 understand him more n scold him less.....
but sometimes i jus cant keep my cool anymore when he tries 2 push his mistakes to me in front of e boss.....i still scold him if its his fault, dun care whoever is around.....i heard from my dad dat e boss is going 2 sack him if he's not careful.....e best thing is dat he doesnt even noe a thing about it la.....i feel sorry for him...he's ok la...except he likes 2 skive abit sometimes.....other than dat, if he had learnt wad i learnt within 3 days in e past year he worked here, he probably be more pro than me....but oh wells....im not saying dat im pro.....if e IT manager (who is not say very pro at hardware n all)is not around, i am practically the most IT savvy around the ppl i work with lol....i'm serious!! i try 2 teach e indian guy as much as i can la....jus a try on my part 2 help him keep his job in future....i oso dunno how he's going to keep his job la but i pray dat God will help e boss hav compassion on him la if not he lose his job its like so sad la...e indian guy is already like 34 lidat la.....
aiyoh i tell u.....i cant stand e indian guy cos when u talk to him rite he cant really understand wad ur trying 2 say....most of his pronounciation is also jus crap stuff la....both parties cannot understand wad e other is talking lol.....end up there was 1 or 2 days dat i was so angry i jus typed everything out on the keyboard n let him read himself.....he didnt say anything after reading my msges.....dunno whether he understand my english or not but oh wells.....he really makes me real pek cheak lol.....cann u imagine?? normally im e 1 who makes ppl real pek cheak (or so rite da sao??) but dis time i'm at e receiving end hahaha........PEK CHEAK!!! eeee! n he touch me quite abit...rubb my back all dat......wadssup with him mann.......i suspect he kinda gay.......a rather weak gay.....cant stand it mann....
seems so fast i actualli hav worked like 3 5 day weeks ready......n tml will be my last day ....today actualli i could hav gone into e office n get a free days worth of pay but i left my wallet at home n i locked myself out so yeah.....end up got no more jobs so i could stay home n sleep haha well done......n i could print out my small group photo n e yf photo as well.....oh wells hope i can manage it on my last day tml.....
for all e ppl dat bother 2 read all e way thru my long post, thank you very much for ur time......
Monday, April 11
18/3 about losing a GOOD fren--David Heng
luckily i still managed 2 rush down....my dad la tell me i wake up at 630am can make it.....lousy estimation....i woke up at 630am....left e house at 710am lidat....siao rushing jus 2 see david off....by e time i reach it was almost 8 ready....luckily he got caught in e customs if not i would not be able 2 see him 4 e last time 4 9 mths!!! (his baggage was too heavy by 12kg lidat, his uncle cleared it 4 him thru connections) haiz i'm really damn sad...
:'( i cried silently jus now (i turned away so noone could see my tears)...sharon cried too...well half crying n half laughing cos of daryl's joke.....jus b4 david entered e gates......david has really been sucha good fren 2 me whom i can share anything with him.....david, linus, n i share a special bond holding our frenship together....dat is we're like always there 4 each other.....we shared experiences with one another.....good or bad.....now dats davids gone 4 9 mths, i noe dat lie n i will both feel dat there's sumtin missing.....i find dat 9 months is jus too long.....i misss david already......i really cried on e train when he msged me back(presumably he was on e plane already) :'( will lie n i ever find sum1 as close as david whom we can share all our troubles n good times with? feddup im tearing as i type dis.....i keep talking as if he is not coming back lidat but i jus miss him, his presence, his frenship n all.... :'(
after david went thru e departure gates, i went 2 e viewing gallery 2 try 2 see his plane or sumtin but e gate (gate c5 i think) was too far away from e viewing gallery...i had already said goodbye to e group dat wanted 2 hav breakfast......but i had 2 work....i ran into them going 2 e viewing gallery.....after i departed from e viewing gallery, i ran into them taking e skytrain as well....cos the popeyes (or sumtin) wasnt open........now im at my workplace, there's no work 4 me 2 do.....no work 4 me 2 stop thinking about how sad i am after david has left....arhh e feeling sux but oh wells i cant keep feeling dis way....todae e feelings still fresh.....1 or 2 mths from now i'll probably miss david more than i do now....i havta go thru like 1 semester b4 david is back......skoool's nuttin.....but who am i going 2 turn 2 talk about my troubles? who's going 2 tell me theirs as well? i hope dat God will provide sum1 dat i can be inter-reliant on for support n encouragement.....n most of all to be a good fren always there whether in need or not.... :'(
i havta get on with life...with lie....jus hope e both of us can foster new, better n closer frenships.....
:'( i cried silently jus now (i turned away so noone could see my tears)...sharon cried too...well half crying n half laughing cos of daryl's joke.....jus b4 david entered e gates......david has really been sucha good fren 2 me whom i can share anything with him.....david, linus, n i share a special bond holding our frenship together....dat is we're like always there 4 each other.....we shared experiences with one another.....good or bad.....now dats davids gone 4 9 mths, i noe dat lie n i will both feel dat there's sumtin missing.....i find dat 9 months is jus too long.....i misss david already......i really cried on e train when he msged me back(presumably he was on e plane already) :'( will lie n i ever find sum1 as close as david whom we can share all our troubles n good times with? feddup im tearing as i type dis.....i keep talking as if he is not coming back lidat but i jus miss him, his presence, his frenship n all.... :'(
after david went thru e departure gates, i went 2 e viewing gallery 2 try 2 see his plane or sumtin but e gate (gate c5 i think) was too far away from e viewing gallery...i had already said goodbye to e group dat wanted 2 hav breakfast......but i had 2 work....i ran into them going 2 e viewing gallery.....after i departed from e viewing gallery, i ran into them taking e skytrain as well....cos the popeyes (or sumtin) wasnt open........now im at my workplace, there's no work 4 me 2 do.....no work 4 me 2 stop thinking about how sad i am after david has left....arhh e feeling sux but oh wells i cant keep feeling dis way....todae e feelings still fresh.....1 or 2 mths from now i'll probably miss david more than i do now....i havta go thru like 1 semester b4 david is back......skoool's nuttin.....but who am i going 2 turn 2 talk about my troubles? who's going 2 tell me theirs as well? i hope dat God will provide sum1 dat i can be inter-reliant on for support n encouragement.....n most of all to be a good fren always there whether in need or not.... :'(
i havta get on with life...with lie....jus hope e both of us can foster new, better n closer frenships.....
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