im sorry for all those who keep coming to my blog only to find its not been updated..........
i was typing a post but i haven finished it and the weekends when i book out the time is too short for me to finish my post heh.....anyway an update is coming soon, when i next book out or sumtin la.....rite now i havta rush outta the house cause i havta book in at 1930 later.............and now im going for dinner with my parents........
so yeah update next time....sorry guys........see you all at army day most probably haha........
Sunday, August 19
Saturday, August 18
mind full and brain washed
it always seems to be about the mind ah.....ok ok i will change when i do happen to think of some other blog post title........i think its about time i posted abit on my blog or else my blog will be quite dormant for quite a long long while lol.......
so now yes i'm in the service (or slavery) of the nation.........i guess there is a reason y they call it the ns liability lol.......anyway about 2 yrs of my time would be spent in the army lol......1 yr 10 mths to be exact but it jus seems longer when ur inside haha.......
anyway now for the thing i would be posting about......quite a few ppl have asked me the standard question "how is ns?" and actually to be honest, i dun really noe how to reply lol.........i would jus say "oh....ok lol......shagged...." cause i really dunno wad else to say! to be honest i dun really remember (nor do i wish to remember wad i've done in the army) when i book out dat is........
hmm ok mayb i give a brief summary of wad 'we' do i the army or wad i can remember rather.........we all wake up quite early compared to other ppl in the work force i guess (dat was random) but yeah we all wake up at 0530 and normally do 5 bx at 0545 then go for breakfast at 0600 lol......see im brain washed ready and i cant say i really like the feeling lol.......everyday we have different training stuff to do la..........one thing is dat my bunk level is the top floor which is the 5th storey and we all havta climb up and down the stairs dozens of times a day to get stuff, change attire, keep rifles in our cupboards, area cleaning and whatever nonsense reason which requires us to get to our bunks lol.............besides dat we have other physical training and stuff like standard obstacle course (SOC), aggregate group run (AGR), 60-120 runs (where u sprint for 60 secs and then jog for 120 secs), static exercises and alot of other stuff which i cant really remember to train up our physical body condition, not to mention the pumping and punishment we do when someone is late or does something stupid.........
i cant really remember much of wad we do in tekong la cos im tired most of the time, i think 7 hours of sleep a day is not enough for me la.......ok mayb i would say i normally get less than 7 hrs cos i sleep slightly later than normal ppl cos i am somehow doing some things at nite before lights out (as they call it).....then when there is lights out, im probably still bathing and all......ok jus a few minutes at most la, not much difference.......but besides being shagged from the day's training, i'm more tired cos i try to wake up about an hour or so earlier to do my quiet time before i start the day lol.......shagged man.......so cos of the tiredness and mayb the training is jus training -- jus routine and wadever not, i dun really remember much of wad i have done in the island called tekong............
ok onto how i feel about being in ns.........firstly i must say i miss my freedom as a civilian ALOT.........there were so many things dat i did before i enlisted dat i really miss lol......its kinda duh la, wont everyone who has gone into the army think so? unless the person is someone who enjoys the army and its system lol..........for me before coming into the army i thought it would be ok for me cos i thot it was jus training and all...........but i guess it is not wad i expected, i was shocked for abit when i first entered the service of the nation as they so fondly call it, for the first week or so i guess........but after dat i adjusted to the system, and the way things worked.........but i was still very much affected by the lack of morality and the vulgar vocabulary that is so rampant in every platoon lol.....the f word is like so easy to come out.......f this that f ing that.......haiz it really makes me quite sad to see this happening........i wish it would jus end.............and dat ppl can jus talk nicely without using vulgarities like its nothing.....well actually to them i think they dun think much about it but it still reflects some things about their background...........i guess its the norm to say vulgarities if not its like the you are not normal and its definite dat u would stick out like a sore thumb among almost everyone (including some christians i know) scolding vulgarities........dunno how to describe it but it seems wierd to say the least to not use any vulgarities.......sometimes u jus get influenced by them and then the first thing dat pops into mind for u when describing someone bad or when u feel like scolding someone (feel onli, it means onli in ur thoughts u want to scold someone...) is the f word at times............well sometimes onli la, actually i dun really noe wad im typing and y im typing it cos i first started this post one week ago la, so many things have happened during this week and stuff like dat already so dun blame me for my discontinuedness........
every time i book out, i feel as if every thing outside seems different lol, either dat or mayb im the one dat has changed....i dunno how to explain it but..........its like the songs i used to be comfortable listening to has somehow changed, whether it is christian or secular songs i dun seem to enjoy it the way i did before i went into army.........even the way i worship and sing praises seem different starting from the inside out.......my heart feels different and besides the obvious literal reason for my singing being different (my voice sounds different now from all the mindless shouting in camp), songs jus dun impact me the way they did before i enlisted........so many things i dunnno or im unsure of........i think zhi wen is rite, when i put on the helmet i think i lost half of my brains, cant really think or process information dat well, i've been brain-washed to think in the regimentation kinda way......and brains is not the onli thing i lost............i feel so detached from everything in the real world, detached emotionally from everyone else cos its like every time i book out, the only ppl i spend decent amount of time with is my family -- my parents mainly.....everytime i come out there is onli time to give them my dirty clothes to wash and then i would go to sleep most of the time i book, no time for anything else like blogging or even coming online much.........its mostly jus rest and food and mayb at most attending yf and church............besides all that i miss my hair strangely but yes i do and mayb wad i miss most is the freedom and really so much free time i had as a civilian.........
oh wells i guess enough has been said, i cant think much ready, im tired and im going to sleep ready....here is an update for ppl who read my blog..........
so now yes i'm in the service (or slavery) of the nation.........i guess there is a reason y they call it the ns liability lol.......anyway about 2 yrs of my time would be spent in the army lol......1 yr 10 mths to be exact but it jus seems longer when ur inside haha.......
anyway now for the thing i would be posting about......quite a few ppl have asked me the standard question "how is ns?" and actually to be honest, i dun really noe how to reply lol.........i would jus say "oh....ok lol......shagged...." cause i really dunno wad else to say! to be honest i dun really remember (nor do i wish to remember wad i've done in the army) when i book out dat is........
hmm ok mayb i give a brief summary of wad 'we' do i the army or wad i can remember rather.........we all wake up quite early compared to other ppl in the work force i guess (dat was random) but yeah we all wake up at 0530 and normally do 5 bx at 0545 then go for breakfast at 0600 lol......see im brain washed ready and i cant say i really like the feeling lol.......everyday we have different training stuff to do la..........one thing is dat my bunk level is the top floor which is the 5th storey and we all havta climb up and down the stairs dozens of times a day to get stuff, change attire, keep rifles in our cupboards, area cleaning and whatever nonsense reason which requires us to get to our bunks lol.............besides dat we have other physical training and stuff like standard obstacle course (SOC), aggregate group run (AGR), 60-120 runs (where u sprint for 60 secs and then jog for 120 secs), static exercises and alot of other stuff which i cant really remember to train up our physical body condition, not to mention the pumping and punishment we do when someone is late or does something stupid.........
i cant really remember much of wad we do in tekong la cos im tired most of the time, i think 7 hours of sleep a day is not enough for me la.......ok mayb i would say i normally get less than 7 hrs cos i sleep slightly later than normal ppl cos i am somehow doing some things at nite before lights out (as they call it).....then when there is lights out, im probably still bathing and all......ok jus a few minutes at most la, not much difference.......but besides being shagged from the day's training, i'm more tired cos i try to wake up about an hour or so earlier to do my quiet time before i start the day lol.......shagged man.......so cos of the tiredness and mayb the training is jus training -- jus routine and wadever not, i dun really remember much of wad i have done in the island called tekong............
ok onto how i feel about being in ns.........firstly i must say i miss my freedom as a civilian ALOT.........there were so many things dat i did before i enlisted dat i really miss lol......its kinda duh la, wont everyone who has gone into the army think so? unless the person is someone who enjoys the army and its system lol..........for me before coming into the army i thought it would be ok for me cos i thot it was jus training and all...........but i guess it is not wad i expected, i was shocked for abit when i first entered the service of the nation as they so fondly call it, for the first week or so i guess........but after dat i adjusted to the system, and the way things worked.........but i was still very much affected by the lack of morality and the vulgar vocabulary that is so rampant in every platoon lol.....the f word is like so easy to come out.......f this that f ing that.......haiz it really makes me quite sad to see this happening........i wish it would jus end.............and dat ppl can jus talk nicely without using vulgarities like its nothing.....well actually to them i think they dun think much about it but it still reflects some things about their background...........i guess its the norm to say vulgarities if not its like the you are not normal and its definite dat u would stick out like a sore thumb among almost everyone (including some christians i know) scolding vulgarities........dunno how to describe it but it seems wierd to say the least to not use any vulgarities.......sometimes u jus get influenced by them and then the first thing dat pops into mind for u when describing someone bad or when u feel like scolding someone (feel onli, it means onli in ur thoughts u want to scold someone...) is the f word at times............well sometimes onli la, actually i dun really noe wad im typing and y im typing it cos i first started this post one week ago la, so many things have happened during this week and stuff like dat already so dun blame me for my discontinuedness........
every time i book out, i feel as if every thing outside seems different lol, either dat or mayb im the one dat has changed....i dunno how to explain it but..........its like the songs i used to be comfortable listening to has somehow changed, whether it is christian or secular songs i dun seem to enjoy it the way i did before i went into army.........even the way i worship and sing praises seem different starting from the inside out.......my heart feels different and besides the obvious literal reason for my singing being different (my voice sounds different now from all the mindless shouting in camp), songs jus dun impact me the way they did before i enlisted........so many things i dunnno or im unsure of........i think zhi wen is rite, when i put on the helmet i think i lost half of my brains, cant really think or process information dat well, i've been brain-washed to think in the regimentation kinda way......and brains is not the onli thing i lost............i feel so detached from everything in the real world, detached emotionally from everyone else cos its like every time i book out, the only ppl i spend decent amount of time with is my family -- my parents mainly.....everytime i come out there is onli time to give them my dirty clothes to wash and then i would go to sleep most of the time i book, no time for anything else like blogging or even coming online much.........its mostly jus rest and food and mayb at most attending yf and church............besides all that i miss my hair strangely but yes i do and mayb wad i miss most is the freedom and really so much free time i had as a civilian.........
oh wells i guess enough has been said, i cant think much ready, im tired and im going to sleep ready....here is an update for ppl who read my blog..........
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