30/1 stressed outtt!!!! im so DEAD

im blogging again....after yet another oh so stressful project....im so packed mann....crap.....ok i will fill u guys in on yesterday(sorry i didnt complete my posting cos there was no time...) about e speech, i didnt prepare any formal guideline for e speech.....in fact i gave an impromptu speech lol.....i started very well(my teacher told me after e whole thing, she said once she heard my starting, she thot it was a straight A grade.....).....i totally didnt know wad to say......didnt hav time to read all e sources i found from the library all dat cos amidst skool n all dat still gotta start on e one after another projects and assignments....I really talked crap from wad i knew....all my general knowledge about my topic jus began to flow....after awhile, i ran outta things to talkabout...i looked up at my frens in e LT n i jus forgot wad i wanted to say and i gott nervous la....luckily the teacher had to observe time so she asked me to cut short my speech n go straight to e conclusion....wow wad a relief.....i hadta think awhile for e final conclusion cos i had jus planned for my speech to flow lol......

ok now onto my IT entreprenship project dat was due todae.......wah it was killer mann......i finished almost everything necessary for the project........but after i consulted my teacher on wednesday, i found out dat we needed quite abit more things to do our group market research on.......i made some of my group members do their parts of the research......i didnt ask some of them cos i thott i had given them enuf(apparently not).....
anws if there are any group members dat are reading this, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CONTRIBUTING ALL YOU COULD !! ok the project was due today at about 4pm(after e lecture).....well i'm glad the teacher was gracious cos i had classes until 6pm so after i consulted him, i was allowed to to hand in the project latest by 7pm.....

"A BIG THANK YOU TO JASLINE, MY CLASSMATE FOR STAYING BACK TO HELP ME WITH ALL THE PRINTING AND ORGANIZATION OF THE PROJECT!!"

i really appreciated it ALOT......end up after all e rushing, i managed to onli hand in the project at 8pm, im sorry my group members (who did their work) mayb its my fault for being a lousy CEO dat i didnt plan properly n i caused u guys to lose marks for handing in e project late so so sorry......anws a teacher helped us to put it on myy teacher's desk........the lord provides(but seriously if the teacher didnt walk of e staff room jus then, i dunno wad i would hav or could hav done......)

well i jus hope dat e teacher wont deduct so much marks......argh i dun think i can chill anytime soon.....my mind is so packed with lotsa projects n stuff.....not to mention dat its so sooo tired rite now....jus feel like sleeping for a long time..o_O...I pray dat God will bring the comfort and the peace of mind that onli he can bring to me during the weekend...i dunno how but i jus trust in him........thanx for reading my rambling long post......sorry i wrote lotsa crap

29/1

im now blogging after 1 project is done.........haha abit little but oh wells lil is betta than nuttin rite? haha....well i had my communication skills presentation todae.....before dat i was like rushing to pep(e prayer n evangelism thingy in temasek poly).....after pep i think all of them wished me good luck....dat was quite encouraging to me lol......when i was about to freak out i remembered their encouragements......they're all gals btw(but dat was nuttin to do with it)....oh yeah im onli in a group with all gals cos its e onli time when im free during e week for pep for 2 hrs......feels abit wierd being e onli guy but i guess for God, everything is ok la....i jus finish playing a few games of yahoo pool......i think i won most of them.....not i pro, i was lucky for most of em.....im listening to my reigning favorite online radio station now Klove.....jus so relaxxed rite now.....but next week still gott like 3 other projects to pass up on friday la....most started ready but not completed yet!!

rite now i'll havta get onto planning my "short speech" for yw(i'm leading with the crazy mann daryl....).....as well as compile my group stuff to hand in yet another project tml...e weekends seems to rush at me dis week cos of the many commitments dis week haha...o k dats all for now.....(=

28/1

well im blogging about saturday.....my mood was like so bad after friday.....i was still thinking about all my projects......come to think about it now....i think i hav 2 projects due dis week and 3 next week.....luckily i hav started abit of e 2 due dis week.....i've to pass up e interim report of my IT entrepreneurship(which i'm e CEO of)....i oso hav a formal speech n presentation for communication skills!! whoever thot dat we needed dat 2 graduate!?! walao sianz mann...arggh i dun find it funn at all.....lousy i still havta spend time to plan a speech in front of my class in e LT!

oh yeah about saturday......i led worship.....n i totally didnt say much at all.......it was like all a medley of about 7 powerful n meaningful songs(not 2 mention fast paced)......i must say i really did worship God even tho i think i planned e last part of worship abit last minute n impromptu as well...i felt much betta after i liked sang at e best i could(could u guys hear me?? i thot i couldnt project my voice)....it was like a release lol....its like God converted my heavy heart into sumtin dat i could focus on him with......its like he turned my heaviness into praise to HIM!! wow! e comfort he gives is amazing, n i never wouldav expected it dat way! felt much betta and after dat there was e anniversary dinner.....many ppl came n quite a few skipped e msg as well.....i ate outside then i came back to church....they still haven finish yet.....i felt even betta while i walked around 2 e various tables which my frens were sitting.....i dunno y....mayb its jus not so cliqueish n e ppl are like more relaxed jus sitting down, eating and chatting haha

ok on sunday.......there was dis father's day msg done by some doctor from theology skool probably.....i thinked he looked like einstein......somebody elder i noe said it was boring but i found it ok la.....at least i concentrated for e period jus like any typical pastor quek message.....after dat i gott distracted n could focus on e msg......talking to my frens and i also saw sum1 to my far left nodding away, going to sleep(green tea)......i think overall e speaker gave a good msg(or at least e parts which i was listening) but i didnt get e whole msg(expected la...) after dat pastor quek asked e fathers to stand up n he prayed for them....then he asked them 2 sit down.....think he forgot dat we were supposed to give out gifts to e fathers......he asked them 2 stand up again....quite funny....like he's losing his memory(ok la i noe i'm quite bad)....we went out in teams 2 give out e stuff.....i was like saying blessed father's day to everyone....marcus said he even offered e fathers handshakes which they accepted haha o k......

after lunch(heyy my family went to sizzler for father's day lunch lol....unfair la i had to stay to plan for yw....but actualli its ok....i dun mind cos i'm serving e Lord...nuttin else is more impt) daryl n i went back to church to plan for yw next sunday(we're leading together)....we chose some normally sung songs and we'll be learning or relearning a new song which we probably sung before (cos i happen to noe it) but not so familiar cos its hardly sung in yf or yw...ok we planned averything.....i pray dat e Lord will help me to say what he wants me to say.(dats another speech(but more impt) to research n plann for)

okayy i dunno when i can post again....my break time is going to be up soon....gott lessons later.....tired...slept quite early (in e morning).....woke up quite early as well...hope i can concentrate n my mind doesnt float 2 sumwhere else....haha....dat all for now folks!

27/1 arrgghhhh

FINALLY THE WEEKENDS ARE HERE!!!! wah e 1 thing dat keeps sane and "recharges" me for e whole week ahead is here.....stressful ah when u jus wann skool to hurry off but my normal mood for dis week was argh y is e week dragging so much??

assignments jus make e week more draggier and the deadlines coming up jus make the time to do it lesser....!!!!!!! Lord help me get thru day by day trusting dat things will work out ur way(which is so much a larger picture than my "pea-eyed" vision by the way).....jus find dat i've been too stressed about e things of this world.....when actualli i sumtimes forget dat it is well with my soul!!

all these sound kinda wierd jus typing them out but oh wells i jus type wadeva comes to my mind lol.....ok i'm leading yf tml.....jus actualli waked up to e fact dat i haven prepared all the songs yet.....nvm i wont worry....God will provide strength as he sees fit.....

well i jus finished a makeup lecture not too long ago......now i noe y if i dun make notes during lectures, my mind will jus float to some dream place......seriously i was like dreaming or rather imaginating abit during my teachers lecture lol...i imagined i could jus travel soo fast from place 2 place jus by teleporting(haha ironical eh? da sao) as well as imagining dat i could split myself into many "clone-like people"....then if all of "me" go to work at different place s, i would be rich......i could combine with "them" back again.....lol its crap la.......but e problem is i cant make notes cuz e lecturers are going too fast(i normally make notes from e lecture slides)......ok la i shouldnt be blogging for some time....i gott lotsa commitments to keep, projects to do....altogether like 6 projects, 1 per subject....till next time sorry again......but I promise i'll keep my tagboard active k?

26/2 today is made to get betta n betta

ok as promised.....wow i feel dat God is rather close or rather i'm rather close to my heavenly father today....i dunno y....dis morning was raining(and i was wondering how come today so nice to sleep zzZZZzzz haha oops oh wells)....oh yeah i hav a new phone by the way cos my old phone e speaker piece spoil(i can hear ppl but they cant hear me lol)....its e nokia 7270 (i bought it for $398(dis kinda money didnt come easy, i hadta work hard for ittt..) n i renewed my old plan)....i sent quite a lot of things via infrared from my frens phone to mine....wonderful mann e infrared function, i never use before so i didnt noe....too bad i dun hav bluetooth("lan ya"..o_O lame i noe)......and a memory card would do nicely to fitt all e functions in my phone......oh wells i guess i cant hav everything unless i paya bomb for it....ok i wont complain about wad i dun hav well im satisfied with my new phone, it suits my needs....

oh yeah dis morning i left my house quite late (as expected la)....i was listening to my discman(yes im still quite backward, not using an mp3 for songs yet...) anws i was listening 2 Best Of Worship Songs Ever 1....wow e 1st few songs in there jus rock la....super solid great songs back to back....i was boarding e bus when e bus driver said sumtin i couldnt hear....he said Good Morning! i felt quite good n i replied back....felt even betta after dat....lectures n classes were normal for me today.....jus stoned thru some of them....not paying attention n all......i jus realised dat i've been quite slack.....besides printing my own tutorials and practicals, i haven been working much towards doing up my own notes mann die....its like e 4th or 5th(oh no i'm not even sure which weeek it is, mann i'm too slacked outt..) week ready n i haven finished my 1st weeks notes.....everytime i go for lectures im like jus passive listening but somehow i feel it doesnt get in as well as last time.....i guess i figure y: i haven been doing up my own notes in lectures!! crap stuff it took me so long.....i havta start catching up oh no....how i wish hav a fast n not too expensive internet connection rite about now....

OK i will work with a relaxed mind (thanks alot to positive n encouraging klove(their e best!!)) i will complete all my research for tml arrggghhhh!! ok i will complete my note taking as well haiz....ok datss all for now.....

26/1 forwarded by my dad,thot i should share

Thoughts cause feelings, and the wrong kinds of thoughts can causestressful feelings.We can look at the same event different ways. It helps if you can learn tolook at the good things in life rather than the ugly. For example, if yougot into a car accident and totalled your car, you can sit there and feelsorry for yourself, or angry for losing the car.
These are allself-defeating. On the other hand, you can thank god that you were notkilled or, worse yet, maimed in the car accidents. When you look at life'sevents like that you will have something to smile at every event and thatis the power of positive living.Guidelines in looking at problems in the proper perspective:

1. Every Living Human Being Has Problems.
Perhaps you are unhappy with your work. Isn't it good that you have a jobrather than being unemployed? Many people have the mistaken notion thatsuccessful people do not have any problems. It is not true. Success tendsto breed its own set of problems.Everyone has problems. A problem-free life is an illusion - a mirage in thedesert. Accept the fact that everyone has problems. This will help you tomove on with your life rather than sitting and feeling pity for yourself.

2. Every Problem Has A Limited Life Span
Every mountain has a peak and every valley has a low point. Similarly, lifehas its ups and downs. No one is up all the time or down all the time.Problems do get resolved in the long term. They don't last forever. Historyteaches that every problem has a limited life span. Your problems will notlive forever; but you will! Storms are followed by sunshine. Winter isfollowed by spring. Your problems will get resolved given enough time.

3. Every Problem Holds Positive Possibilities
There are two sides to every coin. What may be a problem for one could beinteresting opportunity to someone else. Hospitals are there because peopleget sick; garages are there because cars do break down; lawyers are therebecause people get in trouble with the law occasionally. Every cloud has asilver lining.

4. Every Problem Will Change You
When me meet problems head on in life, they leave their indelible mark onus. The experience could make you better or worse. It is up to you. What iscertain is that problems never leave us the same way they found us. We willchange. For example, let us say that you lost your job. You can sit andfeel sorry for yourself. Or you can be aggressive and decide to dosomething about it. You are better than them. You want to show them what amistake they did in firing you. You have to be fired before you can befired up. That may be wake-up call you needed before embarking on asuccessful mission. Again, for every problem, there is a positive andnegative side. Look for the positive side and work on it.

5. You Can Choose What Your Problem Will Do To You
You may not be able to control the problems, but you certainly can controlyour reaction or response to the problem. You can turn your pain intoprofanity or into poetry. The choice is up to you. You can control thereaction even if you cannot control the problem. You control the effect ofthe problem by controlling the reaction. It can make you tough or tender.It can make you better or bitter. It all depends on you.

6. There Is A Negative And A Positive Reaction To Every Problem
Tough people have learned to choose the most positive reaction in managingproblems. The key is that they manage their problems. Remember, we havelittle control on problems; we have control on how we react and manage theproblem. Positive people chose to react positively to their predicaments.
Do you automatically interpret silence on the part of your spouse to mean anger when it could just as easily mean fatigue?
Do you blame yourself when a sudden downpour drenches your wash on the line?
Do you dwell on the few times your boss criticized your performance and ignore the innumerable times s/he's praised you?
We all fall into the negative thinking rut from time to time. We badger ourselves with "should haves" and lose sight of the fact that "good" and "bad" in life is rarely black and white. All-or-nothing thinking can lead to anxiety, depression, and feelings of inferiority, perfectionism and anger.
We are our worst enemies.
We tend to put a higher standard for us compared to others.
We tend to criticize ourselves for our miscues rather than being happy for the accomplishments.
Allow yourself to fail now and then.
It's all part of being human.

Love yourself. Ask and ye shall receive. Enjoy the moment. For every minute you are angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness. Accentuate the positive, not the negative.It takes both the sun and the rain to make a rainbow.

p.s.sorry about some of e spacings.....i jus copy n paste it....

25/1 life's like dat lol...

heyy hello again...im posting again.....i jus tore myself apart jus now (again).....amidst feeling abit hungry from skipping normal breakfast n lunch times, luckily i gott sum protein drinks 2 fill my stomach if not i'll jus be dieded la.....gym was abit crazy for me la cos i was tired....e bars all were like tearing into my palm....(well not literally but almost).....ok i jus finished printing a massive amount of paper(all my tutorials n practicals actualli).......sorry i'm ending my post here....im scared e lab tech come n close e lab b4 i can finish my post.....which is normalli quite long.....i promise i'll post again tml k?

24/1 Release

mann i'm dying here lol....i gott like at least 1 project for each subject i'm taking lol.....really mann....crap i jus wanna rest like a long long while rite now....there are like 2 things dat can give me temporary release rite now........1 is going 2 e gym, thrashing myself apart..........e other is actualli blogging!! wow.....dats plus replying 2 ppl's tags too.......i jus realised dat today.........thanx for those who hav been reading most if not all of my posts........im sorry im talking to a stone queen (shermaine lou) on msn web messenger n i lost my train of thot........anws oh yeah i find dat blogging is quite a release cos i can jus release all my pent up feelings for all those willing to read...(sorry for those who read dis stuff n find it crappy....)i think i hav alot on my mind rite now......jus aching for rest m im seriously stretching my multi-tasking capabilities rite now......chatting, msging n blogging......im sorry once again.........i think i should or rather would be blogging less in e future....i should spend more time on my pressing projects arrrhhhhhh........dats it for todae sorry............;)

23/1

heyy im posting again.....yeah once again i went thru another grueling week of classes n not enuf sleep....well dis week i've my share of late nites n early waking up times...its killer to me mann.....halfway thru today i was stoning in e lecture ready.....jus waiting for lessons 2 end for e day.....not a good feeling i assure u...but anws e weekends are here!! yeah finally sumtin 2 help me keep sane, youth fellowship!! jus a fresh wave of energy for e next week....well im super hott in my skool lab...they didnt onn e air-con or sumtin....well anws i'll be going soon so it doesnt really matter....well im going for e outreach comm meeting n stay over 2 help at children's camp st serangoon gardens south skool....till next time tadaloo! ;)

22/2 keys 2 my heart??

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

i gott dis off my frens blog.....

22/1 ITS ME ?!?!

life is like a fairy tale.....its as if u sorta noe wads going 2 happen thru e way u choose 2 live ur life.....well all dis time whenever i see sumtin dat reminds me of d n a, i cant help myself but feel sad about it for awhile until sumtin comes n cheers me up, taking away my sorrow until e next time i feel sad again haha....i thot i was being influenced too much by e things around me......how can sum1 be so cruel n torment me every time i see sumtin dat reminds me of her (or related to dat for dat matter).......HOW?? how can dat person jus cut straight deep into e point where u would feel e most hurt? dat person noes me e best (i guess).....n he betrayed my trust for him.....i jus figured dat e 1 n onli evil person doing dis 2 me is ME !! i'm e 1 tearing my own heart apart with my own bare hands!! wad a shocking self revelation!

haha looking back now i guess i would say i was stupid 2 do all dat 2 myself.....i should hav realised it earlier but betta late than never rite? oh wells for all reading dis be witness of my pledge........""from dis day forth, I, Daniel Lee Ern Wen CHOOSE 2 stop thinking about things dat will directly or indirectly make me sad.....I will not tear my heart apart by my own hands jus when i've recovered from e scar again......I will trust God 2 do wad he wills in my life....n i noe dat it will be e best for me.....I will choose to be n remain happy as best of my ability.....sadness from relationships is no longer a word in my dictionary.......""

ok im done.....abit dramatic but e reality of e truth jus hit me like a wave, jus felt i should be held accountable if i go against dis pledge haha.....thanx all

21/1 e life of mine

heyy i feel great.....wah jus now i went 2 e gym n tore myself more apart than usual....i must say dat is really a great feeling.....i guess i'll start 2 feel e effects tml la....for now jus a lil torn up onli....

sorry i wanted to udpate earlier but skoool life has been lousy for me la....jus e start of e 2nd week & i hav many projects deadlines 2 meet....designing wireless LAN service, & some other projects i dun really remember now...i'm taking dis subject, IT Enterpreneurship......woah i heard it hard n i myself think its hard.....lotsa stuff 2 do....my lab mates n i formed a group of 6 ppl in which im e "CEO" (woah) but there's alot of things to be done.....n responsibilities too....without God's help i wont last long.....in fact i wont even survive e stress im putting myself thru thus far (i stress myself (mayb abit too much for sucha short time) so as 2 not let myself slack too much, i dun wanna fail, 2nd yr ready.....)

well its nice 2 meet yfers in skool...they make me feel welcome....at least these are e few of e ppl i noe hahah.....see how la next time if i happen 2 eat alone, n i see sum1 else eating alone, i'll go n approach him/her n make frens.....mayb we might become "eating partners" haha :D

i really hate skool days where my lesson starts at 8am....i cant wake up la....dreamland seems so so welcoming especially on dat days....its funny la....when i wanna hav a good sleep in e holidays, i seldom get it....but on skool days dose are e days i sleep e best......well wad can i do? actualli come 2 tink of it, i might hav been able 2 go into a jc IF i had studied a lil harder in secondary skool...but now i thank God dat im in poly, dun need 2 wake up dat early everyday for 1 haha....but i enjoy their structured system of sports n studies.....altho im not e studying type so i might jus go there cos of sports....sooner or later get kicked out or retained in j1 if i'm not careful.....

poly is much more slack.....there's more freedom but if ur e type dat doesnt take e initiative then it can kill u......dats y e stress is mainly from urself (least of all frens around u dat oso want 2 excel).......i asked 1 of my frens how was his results......he told me "ok la.....didnt get all As for all my subjects"......he looked quite glum as well.....mann i was like o_O i was contented with getting my highest B+ n he was complaining he had all Bs n Cs.....i thot dat was still ok mann (dats almost wad i gott)....wah his standard is high mann....never mind i like e challenge......i'lll challenge myself 2 get even betta, a Z (which is e highest grade u can ever get), top 5% of distinction in e whole course....woah dats high but it can be done....well i guess anywhere u are u still hav stress, jus see wad kinds of stress n how much is there haha

well i hav been wanting a pair of black jeans for so long......after i went 2 e penang trip, my cousin gave me quite Alot of his old pants n long-sleeve shirts.....guess wad was among e "loot"? well a pair of levi's black jeans! i was so happy mann......fact im wearing it now haha oops....its nice n all but there's 1 problem.....i dunno when dis was made but now its probably an antique or mayb it would be extremely hard 2 find a pair of (any) jeans with a BUTTON FLY! can u believe it? there are like 3 or 4 buttons on e fly itself covered by another piece of cloth......mannn so inconvenient when u r urgent.....luckily for me i haven had dat experience yet...when ur done with ur business still havta button it back....not an easy task as well.....haha my brother saw it n he said good luck buttoning mann....i thot it was ok but end up its abit far from it...well im getting used 2 it.....i'm thankful i hav another pair of jeans mann :P

ok sorry i always make my posts so long......for those who jus finished reading, congrats n thank u for ur time...

20/1 back to skool

well....so sorry its beeen a long time since i last posted....well im back to skool todae....lessons were supposed 2 start at 8am today....but i thot 1st week got no lab sessions so i slept in.......i skipped lessons on my 1st day(wonderful eh?).....wanted 2 wake up at 8am but it wass raining, which put me in a betta mood 2 sleep.....i wouldnt hav woken up if not for my dad who called both my phone n e house phone 2 wake me up.....he called home n my phone but he couldnt get a response.....his dear son was still deep in dream land haha...its quite amazing...he prayed about me waking up n minutes after his missed calls, guess who called him back? another of those little wonders in life dats could jus be God's doing n nuttin else haha.....

welll 1st day of skool was not as bad as i thot it would be so yeah im in an ok(n good) kinda mood.....it could all be worst....i ended skool at 1pm so it was quite a short day as well....todae is e 1st day for sad eyes (rachel kee) & silly banana (lois kwan) haha....at least got more frens dat i can talk (n hav lunch together) with in e same poly.....well done eh i check my timetable on e day i hav skool haha.....well now dat e new term has started, i think i will havta print out all e tutorials n lab sheets (lectures i will write my own notes so its fine)....my week seems 2 be quite evenly spaced with MOST of my classes starting later than 9am....

well after lessons ended i'm here at e lab.....jus chilling, playing yahoo pool, listening to e ever so positive n encouraging KLOVE.....sucha nice feeling haha (i'm still in e holiday mood, considering i jus came back from beginners worship retreat at austin hills yesterday =p)....sumtin's wrong with e skin of my stomach, seems quite ichy, i should stop scratching if not my skin will jus tear la...anyways talking about my stomach.......i jus realised (again) i havent had lunch so im going 2 go for lunch (alone again as usual).......

19/1

well i haven been posting.......been wanting 2 but either gott no time or got time but i was caught up with other stuff......okayy so jus a lil update on wads beeen going onn.......

I gotta job from my father's client who is the big boss of e company(sumtin like founders lidat (woah)).......i print banners.....u noe e big big types? dat they hang like everywhere? from renovation to skools banner to restaurants n all......dats it...but e ink dat comes out from the printer is super smelly lol.....

my 1st day step in i choke ready.....seriously....i didnt noe until my 2nd or 3rd day lidat dat i shouldnt stay there breathing in e foul smell too much(i stayed there for quite a few print jobs)..wah after dat my chest hurt lol.....really hadta go out for fresh air.....then e next day then they turned on e big suction fan to suck most of the smell out (now then they do, wanna kill us then do sumtin about it iszit)....luckily i told my dad (cos he's a very long time fren cum remisier to my boss)...whew wad a relief

ok i wont complain about the pay there(i expected it to be low, afterall i went there to learn, without any experience).....$5 an hour quite ok i guess....all e ppl there treat me like e CEO of the company la.......quite fun 2 be treated like dat....never before lol.....mayb its e relations or mayb oso cause they treat me like their own children(who are about the same age group as me...+ or - a few yrs)

1 thing which i really cant stand is e real irritating Indian whom i work with.....ok la i felt damn bad cause i Thot Dat All ppl from India knew about computers...but i was wrong, e Indian guy(or gay....i'll explain later) didnt noe much about computers! (well cause his family was poor n didnt hav e money 2 send him 2 learnt computers) i onli learnt for 2 days or so.....then i hadta teach him as well as apply wad i learnt....but actualli no excuse cause he's been printing for wad a year plus ready.....I felt quite bad cos i was scolding him not cause he didnt noe about computer hardware but e things about e programme!! (about e hardware, i jus very pek cheak with him but i say nuttin)2 make things worst, i found out dat he's working now 2 support his younger brother!! how nice is dat??!! he himself didnt hav e chance 2 study n now he's paying for his brother's studies in Paris!! walao i felt damn bad after dat lol.....i really tried 2 understand him more n scold him less.....

but sometimes i jus cant keep my cool anymore when he tries 2 push his mistakes to me in front of e boss.....i still scold him if its his fault, dun care whoever is around.....i heard from my dad dat e boss is going 2 sack him if he's not careful.....e best thing is dat he doesnt even noe a thing about it la.....i feel sorry for him...he's ok la...except he likes 2 skive abit sometimes.....other than dat, if he had learnt wad i learnt within 3 days in e past year he worked here, he probably be more pro than me....but oh wells....im not saying dat im pro.....if e IT manager (who is not say very pro at hardware n all)is not around, i am practically the most IT savvy around the ppl i work with lol....i'm serious!! i try 2 teach e indian guy as much as i can la....jus a try on my part 2 help him keep his job in future....i oso dunno how he's going to keep his job la but i pray dat God will help e boss hav compassion on him la if not he lose his job its like so sad la...e indian guy is already like 34 lidat la.....

aiyoh i tell u.....i cant stand e indian guy cos when u talk to him rite he cant really understand wad ur trying 2 say....most of his pronounciation is also jus crap stuff la....both parties cannot understand wad e other is talking lol.....end up there was 1 or 2 days dat i was so angry i jus typed everything out on the keyboard n let him read himself.....he didnt say anything after reading my msges.....dunno whether he understand my english or not but oh wells.....he really makes me real pek cheak lol.....cann u imagine?? normally im e 1 who makes ppl real pek cheak (or so rite da sao??) but dis time i'm at e receiving end hahaha........PEK CHEAK!!! eeee! n he touch me quite abit...rubb my back all dat......wadssup with him mann.......i suspect he kinda gay.......a rather weak gay.....cant stand it mann....

seems so fast i actualli hav worked like 3 5 day weeks ready......n tml will be my last day ....today actualli i could hav gone into e office n get a free days worth of pay but i left my wallet at home n i locked myself out so yeah.....end up got no more jobs so i could stay home n sleep haha well done......n i could print out my small group photo n e yf photo as well.....oh wells hope i can manage it on my last day tml.....

for all e ppl dat bother 2 read all e way thru my long post, thank you very much for ur time......

18/3 about losing a GOOD fren--David Heng

luckily i still managed 2 rush down....my dad la tell me i wake up at 630am can make it.....lousy estimation....i woke up at 630am....left e house at 710am lidat....siao rushing jus 2 see david off....by e time i reach it was almost 8 ready....luckily he got caught in e customs if not i would not be able 2 see him 4 e last time 4 9 mths!!! (his baggage was too heavy by 12kg lidat, his uncle cleared it 4 him thru connections) haiz i'm really damn sad...

:'( i cried silently jus now (i turned away so noone could see my tears)...sharon cried too...well half crying n half laughing cos of daryl's joke.....jus b4 david entered e gates......david has really been sucha good fren 2 me whom i can share anything with him.....david, linus, n i share a special bond holding our frenship together....dat is we're like always there 4 each other.....we shared experiences with one another.....good or bad.....now dats davids gone 4 9 mths, i noe dat lie n i will both feel dat there's sumtin missing.....i find dat 9 months is jus too long.....i misss david already......i really cried on e train when he msged me back(presumably he was on e plane already) :'( will lie n i ever find sum1 as close as david whom we can share all our troubles n good times with? feddup im tearing as i type dis.....i keep talking as if he is not coming back lidat but i jus miss him, his presence, his frenship n all.... :'(

after david went thru e departure gates, i went 2 e viewing gallery 2 try 2 see his plane or sumtin but e gate (gate c5 i think) was too far away from e viewing gallery...i had already said goodbye to e group dat wanted 2 hav breakfast......but i had 2 work....i ran into them going 2 e viewing gallery.....after i departed from e viewing gallery, i ran into them taking e skytrain as well....cos the popeyes (or sumtin) wasnt open........now im at my workplace, there's no work 4 me 2 do.....no work 4 me 2 stop thinking about how sad i am after david has left....arhh e feeling sux but oh wells i cant keep feeling dis way....todae e feelings still fresh.....1 or 2 mths from now i'll probably miss david more than i do now....i havta go thru like 1 semester b4 david is back......skoool's nuttin.....but who am i going 2 turn 2 talk about my troubles? who's going 2 tell me theirs as well? i hope dat God will provide sum1 dat i can be inter-reliant on for support n encouragement.....n most of all to be a good fren always there whether in need or not.... :'(

i havta get on with life...with lie....jus hope e both of us can foster new, better n closer frenships.....

18/2 about my results

haha i actualli got my results before e celebration.....quite a timely suprise....well e lowest grade i gottt was a C+ which i gott for computing maths, java, n some database stuff.....i gotta B for some computer hardware subject n communication skills(O.o lame i noe).....yeah i gotta B+ 4 psychology...quite happy.....my parents happier haha...thank God for my results....

18/1 about andrew's birthday celebration....

well im actualli tagging about my irritating brother(who can b nice at times) but many atimes he's a monster when he decides 2 throw his lousy attitude around....hmm more like a monster doll la...so lite i can throw him around e house anytime(like a dolly)...but i practise abit more self constraint if not my brother would hav been 6 ft under long ago....well yeah i noe i shouldnt be so violent but wad 2 do? my dad's like dat wad....n my sec skool oso about like dat so yeah....but God is good, he constrains me from hurting others(most of e time) with my strength.....oh yeah enuf about my violence n all (oh wells think wad u wann la....)

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im actualli tagging about andrew's bdae celebration which was 2 days ago...it was a crazy day la....i didnt go yf 4 mayb one of e few times? e day started at 12pm....we went bowling with a family fren(who simply wouldnt let ur pay 4 anything cos it was at her club n all payments were made thru masters)o.O can u imagine 4 ppl, each one 1 lane leh....how often do u get dat? each of us bowled like 2 rounds each.....john n i bowled super fast la....long time since i bowled(or i jus dunno how la...)anihow play...."wash e drain" a few times.....

after dat we had lunch...nice beef jus love it(seems 2 be my fav meat now..).......then we sumhow or rather all ended up at e playground cuz of andrew...there was this equilibrium thing dat was supposed 2 spin round n round when u got it rite......jon n andrew were hooked there....had 2 shout 4 john 2 go play pool....he wanted 2 play in e 1st place....so slow summore.....
after dat we ended up playing billiards....super long la....wa lao.....but it was fun...initially we didnt even noe how 2 arrange e coloured balls all dat....not bad eh? john n i cleared e table in about an hour leh.....according 2 e game keeper, pros cleared e table in about n hour....amateurs clear it within 3 hrs lke dat.....woah it feels good.....we then played pool....suddenly i felt like so tall,every ball oso can reach....not 2 mention more accurate haha....we played like $2 for 4 games haha...cos we didnt push in e slot all e way or sumtin....actuallli supposed 2 onli be $1 per game...had a great time.....

after pool, we jumped into a real pool....swam 4 awhile.....then onto dinner with our klang gang cousins n family frens dat came all e way from penang jus 2 celebrate....of course there were sum family frens dat had birthdays around e same day as andrew n all..wah i saw e menu they chose.....its like super exxxxxxxx!!!! its like $688 for 10 ppl!! wa lao.....never ate sucha expensive dinner b4......lol....almost every1 drank red wine, even my mom n dad!! didnt noe.....john, andrew n i sipped abit but we didnt like e taste so yeah..dad says its goods oso dat we dun like it(he scared we all bcome "wine ghosts" ah).....aftre dat was e best part.....we all went 4 karaoke....can u believe it?? wah lao 1st time leh....n it was all damn funn.....ppl we didnt noe knew how 2 sing many songs actualli knew n they sang.......1 song was most capturing, YMCA ppl were like jumping on e couch haha(including me).....we finished it at about 12 plus lidat......our family fren was so nice 2 send us back.....by e time i bathe all dat, 1 am plus ready....next morning onli went 2 help juniors so didnt see ppl again.....cos it ended VERY late....

oh yeah today's my brother's actual birthday so......

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY TO U ANDREW!!