free from prejudice (if but just once)

(backdated post started on monday, 23rd february at 01:26 hrs)


well so the background to this post is like this......its tragic and actually i rather not mention the details again esp since im still bitter at dat gay clerk now haiz.......well so pretend the date is feb 17th.......i went off in the morning for my dental appointment, to check my teeth from braces, then after dat shun bian go make appointment to pluck my wisdom teeth all dat so had to go for xray everything so i had to end up staying longer than i was originally allocatted so i called my pc to tell him dat i would be going back later abit.......ok rewind to before dat......i had planned to go out straight for nite's out straight after my dental appointment......ok i know its wrong or mayb not permissible, i dun think my pc would have the balls to approve of me doing sucha thing so i didnt tell him or anyone else except jeremy and qin en.......i asked qin en to sign in for me when he booked out at 12pm.....he did so at about 11am then he went to eat.......but i dunno how come or y the gay clerk, timothy went to check the book-in book and he called me at about 11am......when i received the call i told him i was still outside cos my off pass was at least until 1230pm, when looking at the time....i didnt noe dat qin en had signed in for me at 11am.........so i told him to help me cover dat i was in camp at about 3pm cos i finished everything by 1330hrs.....i then went for lunch with my dad and i went to funan to settle errands/ look for & at stuff......halfway thru those errands i received quite a few calls from my pc, ps, and various other ppl but i didnt pick up their calls on purpose cos i didnt noe wad was the situation so the onli ppl i was msging was jeremy and timothy the gay, qin en was out on medical appointment ma.....btw jeremy and qin en and i were the onli ati ppl dat were left behind, as in we chose not to go new zealand with the rest........then i decided to make my way back to camp jus in case sumtin big happened.......well something big did happen but oh wells.......my pc thot i was in camp somewhere and not picking up my calls (my phone was on low batt as well), so he got the whole company's worth of men to look around all the facilities in plc camp........all this cos timothy told him i had supposedly booked in, in the book when i was still outside.......all this happened and i didnt noe anything about it until like jeremy msged me on my way back........in a series of unfortunate events, i took longer than i wanted to get back near to camp, like the train broke down, i missed the bus and i walked to another 2 or 3 bus stops and waited at the first one jus to find the buses i had to take didnt stop there, so i had to run/walk/sprint when the bus was approaching to the next and then the next, its quite a distance.....super sian experience......then sweating and all, i cant think straight, by the time i reach near camp it was around the normal time dat the specs on course would come back from gedong so i hesitated to jus walk into camp, if i was seen it would be crap to me la (yeayeayea as if i wasnt in much crap already but i didnt noe la, my phone had died already by now so i dunno anything, i cant think straight, dunno the situation, dunno wad to do next)........so i waited and hung around the bridge.......then i walked abit to the perimeter of the camp, i even thot of climbing over the fence, yes i was dat desperate to get out form this sticky situation and jus pretend to be in camp all the while, having been talking to a fren or sumtin all the while etc.....


to cut the long story short, i finally decided to walk into camp after like an hour plus of pacing, thinking, delibrating, considering my options, weighing them while feeling all sticky and desperate and crazy.......its not a nice feeling to be in.......oh well as i was going into camp, i met jeremy as he was walking out for nite's out........thank God i met him too if not my punishment would have been worst if i had cooked up a different story from the truth........because he told me dat timothy had already surrendered and typed out the messages dat i had sent him the moment he felt that he was going to get implicated......i mean its fine if he sorta betrayed me by typing out all the messages i sent him and all but i felt dat he should at least be man enough, have the guts to tell me about it to my face, i jus imagine wad would have happened if i didnt meet jeremy on the way, i'll seriously get screwed over in too many other ways than one.....and wads more he told jeremy not to tell me he was the one who sabo-ed me......jus thinking of dat makes me boiling mad and bitter la......i mean no matter how gay he is, how can he do such an un-man thing?! where did his guts go man......argh pissed........


then after dat i spinned some story to my pc, with bits of the truth interleaved, not so much to save my ass but really to not implicate qin en cos he helped me sign in everything.......but i jus could think on the spot fast enough to fabricate a good story where all the timings match and stuff.......i tried to do so but there was like 1 hr plus unaccounted for or rather i didnt noe wad to say i did during dat time........so i jus broke..........i asked my ps to get out of the room (he was not helping at all la, he was jus giving stinging comments which made me wannna jus go for his throat, like who he think he is, say things even my pc didnt say), i asked my pc to stop the recording of the 'interview/interrogation' and then i related to him the truth on a personal level (cos i knew him since bmt, we were the same platoon, jus dat now he is an officer and now im only a 3rd sgt somewhat under him).......after dat he jus made me write down a statement of everything i told him then he confiscated my camp pass and 11b so i couldnt book out for day day.......well i was allowed to book out on 24th feb first then my oc would talk to me on monday about this incident........so thus the below account from my phone.......


this is the date where i testify and really thank God for providing me with such great frens who support me and care about me.......jus earlier this book in i went into the bunk with all the my batch specialists from the same ati course to ask jeremy sumtin.........they were all seated in a circle and jeremy had already told them the story of wad had happened last tuesday (for ur benefit it was 17th feb)........yu to sorta dragged me to sit inside the circle as they were all anxious to know my scenario and ask how i felt. discuss whether i might get 28 days sol (stoppage of leave, meaning i stay in camp for 28 days then i havta report at least 4 times everyday, weekends is 7 times a day) or 3 days db (military prison)........any normal person would choose 28 days sol cos even tho the time period is much longer, there's no black record, while going into db means ur whole future is basically ruined......u can't get into uni, its harder to get a job with a black record outside of army etc......the list goes on la.......they were saying (well ellwangen suggested it, i'd give him credit and much thanks for dat) they would want to petition my oc if i really get the db sentence to ask him to show leniency and mayb change it to the sol sentence instead which is far betta compared to the former.......they also wanted to petition my oc to reduce the sentence of the sol if it was like too many days.........which i knew would probably not amount to much of anything even if they did anything but i was very touched by the thought, the gesture etc.......


i was very deeply touched to have this community and i can't be thankful enough dat God is so sovereign dat He provides (and uses) non-christians! to encourage me in thus a way......for one of the few times i remember, there was no prejudice, no judging, jus a common compassion for my case, which really watmed my heart to its deepest core ever........how nice it would be if zion (or any other community)was such a community of love like this and more!! i will yet hope in the Lord dat this will be the case in zion in my generation!! i can already imagine the sweetness of communion and fellowship in the gates of zion..........HOPE.....there is yet hope for God's ppl in zion........


anyway after dat i stayed on as they related stories, both good and bad from their time in new zealand........had a great time laughing at random jokes and events..........now the sentence later in the day still weighs on and i havta sleep now to wake up early tml at 7 plus am to standby in the office for my oc to talk to me anytime from then..........i can't sleep in but oh wells i can always catch up on sleep later on in the day.......time to pray and thank God and then go to bed.........nite.........


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