the off in lieu

well its really been awhile since i last posted.....i feel its really time for me to bare abit of my thots.....


well first and foremost, this post is wad i would call an ex post, which to me means blogging about past events dat i enjoyed but didnt have the time to blog before i booked in the last time........cause somehow or rather the time dat i spend outside of camp not only never seems enough, it also seems to somehow pass by too fast even tho i feel as if im not doing much.........


anyway here is some background for ppl who are oblivious to the ns terms and the way things work.....well the title 'off-in-lieu' means off basically.....they give us (a) day(s) off based on how many times our weekends get burned by activities on saturdays and/or sundays...thank God for the 5-day ns work day policy, at least for trainees at least, which i still am.......one of the very very little perks of being a low-life trainee........


but anyway my off-in-lieu started last wednesday, 190308 stretching all the way until sunday nite when i book in again.......but i must say i really relished the break and not to mention enjoyed myself alot lol....wednesday evening we booked out and i went to a club for the first time....i went to st james with my army coursemates and it was ladies nite lol......i went there to drink abit la the 2 free drinks dat u can get when u pay $20 for entry into the club haha but i didnt drink dat much to get myself drunk la.......but i really enjoyed myself there lol, dunno y leh, i went there and i danced around quite abit and dat in itself made me quite happy i guess.......after going there the first time, my frens alll say i very wild lol i cant believe it, cause i mainly went there to dance and mayb try to enjoy the ultra loud music and nothing much else.......quite curious y they say im very wild lol, mayb its cause they hardly dance around much except one of my frens who is a rather experienced clubber, he went around buah-ing girls, i bet he went to buah every girl he saw lol......oh wells dats his problem, i will probably never have the confidence or shamelessness to do dat, whatever way u want to look at it.......


let me try and remember wad i did on last thurs 200308......oh ya i remember i got home from clubbing the nite before at 7am cause we stayed at the club until the lights came on which was about 430am like dat, by the time we dilly dally around it was about 5 or 530am ready and since there was no bus yet, and we didnt want to take cab, we decided to wait for the first train to be in service before we took it........so we went to the hawker centre at habourfront there, and actually we were quite suprised to find one or 2 indian stalls jus preparing to open for business so early in the morning......we waited awhile for the stall to make their teh tarik which was super good la after a nite or so of drinking and stuff.......my frens dat were still with us mostly drank cold drinks lol so wierd, esp after clubbing the whole nite.......they also ate abit like prata haha, i wanted to eat roti john with cheese but my fren ordered the only one heh too bad la..........


let me see, after dat i slept until 1pm then i got a call from my fren, shalyn to go out and meet.......we had previously planned to meet up the day before......shalyn is this fren i met thru pep, the poly prayer and evangelism thing i used to go for sometime, back when i was in poly.....i stopped going for their gatherings cos i didnt really identify with the ppl there and mayb i felt i went there mayb for the wrong reasons......she also dropped out of the poly pep gathering thing after some time for some reason i dun really noe......but anyway i dunno how come we started talking to each other again cause we haven talked to each other for quite awhile cause we hardly get to meet cos we hav different schedules and we are not say the closest of frens.......i dunno la its abit fuzzy how come the both of us are talking now but guess it started when i noticed her facebook status which 'told' me dat she changed from being attached to being single.....so i dropped her a msg, to see if she was ok......then since last thursday i met her, she has been sharing bits and pieces of wad happened between her ex and her.....and i dunno wad to say to her as advice lol mayb because i dun have much experience and mayb oso cos its jus the "what am i doing here? or the how did i get here?" kinda thing but its alrite for me i guess...i jus pray dat she is feeling betta and dat God is actually leading her to wad He wants her to do in her life.......well yeah i talked to her for quite abit dat day......well she did most of the talking, there was nothing much i could have done except being a fren to listen......


anyway wad did i do on friday ah? oh yeah friday 210308 was good friday.......i went for good friday service which talked about pride and the very small little forms of it dat were taken for granted as not part of our own pride.........then after dat i was supposed to have a lunch date with my wife, titus dear but he had to pang seh me to go visit some relatives or frens la........anyway im quite thankful i managed to have lunch with andrew, my other best fren instead......we ate a very VERY hearty meal at botak jones lol.....we both ordered hotdogs........he ordered the pork sausage and i ordered the chilli dawg haha....monster size la plus the bun, i couldnt finish the bun but i ate up most of my fries and the coleslaw, to think i was still thinking of trying the tiramisu at the start of the meal.....but obviously there was no space after a giant hotdog and 2 drinks to let it flow down....we played a relaxed game of pool after dat.....since we were free, i sorta invited myself to andrew's house (well technically i only went cos he sook permission from his mom first then i went) since he had to take some time to get ready to go out again and i was jus waiting to play frisbee (something i haven done in quite awhile due to me having to book in on sundays).....it started to rain on our way back to his place and we had to run in, obviously we were wet abit........anyway i really enjoyed andrew's company and i relished the talking with him about the things dat were troubling me or weighing me down.......his advice was very timely and jus being able to share some of my difficulties and worries with a good fren really felt good, it was jus wad i needed after not talking to alot of my frens for so long.........after dat i had a blast playing frisbee, even tho i was really full i couldnt play as well, couldnt run as fast as i felt i could heh.....after dat i had a sort dinner with cheng hui and yi tao, i was still full from lunch lol so all i 'ate' more fluids dats all haha.....



saturday 220308......i went to my aunt's place for lunch......i can tell she enjoyed our company as usual i guess......i seriously cant remember much la it was quite long ago.....memories are so far from fuzzy already.....then for some reason i went to church, i really cant remember y la.........but i onli remember dat i left for kuishin-bo to eat a really good food buffet with section mates and my section instructor (and his fren who supposedly seems more than jus his fren, yeah my section instructor is quite happening and quite on wann, he talked to us quite a number of times when we were on course with him to check out how we all felt about the course and all, quite nice la) from Armoured Infantry Section Leader Course, back when i was a corporal on course with them, of cos now im a sergeant already, and now posted to a different unit from most of them......so seperated lol........after dat we went to marina square to watch a movie, something i haven done in a long time........we went to catch step up 2 lol......really nice la their dance moves......how i wish i could dance like them in clubs or sumtin like dat.........seems really nice and liberating to be dancing ur heart out like there's nobody watching...........i think wad i need is some place or form of activity to vent out pent up thoughts and a messed up head man......


sunday 230308 i went to help out aunty mabel with the kids, nothing much out of the ordinary i guess......probably had abit of gabriel in my day but nothing i cant handle, even on my own with out andrew, who hardly comes to help with me alot of the time........and then after dat the normal floorball, after yet another time at the toa payoh botak jones, i went there with titus, daniel fu and timothy sng.......it was quite wierd i must say cos it was jus supposed to be jus titus and i cos i really wanted to talk about my problems but somehow timothy sng and daniel fu tagged along as they thought it was open for all but i cant blame them as well la they dunno and they probably never will unless some smart alec directs them here.......so i didnt get to have the personal time with titus to talk out my problems and reservations.........well mayb some other time man........man its so hard to find time to talk to both my good frens lol.........in the meantime all i can do is try and get by with God's help.....and honestly jus try to get by la.........it can get quite low in camp alot of the times........then the normal sunday nite book in sighs.........i really dread leaving the house at times like these...........

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p.s. notice the date of this post.....when i POP-ed from the skool of armour camp at sungei gedong, i felt so happy lol, i was at an ultimate low when i there, partly because of some of the frends there.........quite a few are f-ed up la (im sorry i dunnno wad other way to describe them), some are backstabbers, some jus cant be bothered to do anything, some are jus i dunno how to describe except f-ed up.........it pretty much covers and most adequately describes them la.........i must say it was very hard for me to find ppl i could talk to in AISL.......i really couldnt stand my bed buddy la, normally in the saf ur bed buddy is supposed to be the one person u are able to talk to even if u cant talk to any other ppl.......he is supposed to be your best fren.......but my bed buddy and i, i can never forget him..........to say he is f-ed up is quite an understatement.........i really hated him......really i dun hate ppl easily but he is a totally different issue........he jus cant keep his mouth shut........he always comments on the things dat i do and i mean always.........drives me crazy, cos some of the things i do are not even very serious compared to wad he does, his attitude is like if he can siam he will siam and try his best not to do ANYTHING at all.......and he has the cheek to talk about my actions!!! cant stand it, he is part of the reason y i was so happy to POP.........oh ya and i can hardly talk to the rest of my section as in the honest kind of way cos the way they all think is quite different and they think of way more perverted and wad not stuff......

anyway now things are slightly different now......having POP-ed and all, the problems inside are still there......its the co-existing with some of the f-ed up ppl now dat i still face.......at least now as a sgt i get more freedom to go to the canteen, mess and stuff like dat.........luckily im not in direct contact with the f-ed up personnel, as in im in a seperate bunk with one of old AISL my section mates dat is quite a good fren.........but of course they expect a higher standard of discipline from all of us and all........well i'll update more on dat next time la..........