Caroling with AG16 was on the 23rd of December 2008this post was actually typed out on the 2nd of January 2009haha yet another nite of caroling, this time i was playing the guitar together with kin yip......good thing i bought/brought the guitar strap for my ovation.....its really useful when caroling from place to place, then u wont havta worry about ur guitar slipping down off ur body, esp mine cos the back of my ovation guitar is actually rounded, (if u didnt noe already) for betta sound projection outwards/frontwards onli.....pastor eddy brought me to buy it for $500.....i like it quite alot heh.....its jus special to me, and not even the most expensive or rare guitar can replace it cos this one's mine.....well mabel asked me to play guitar when i was having our dinner/supper with ivan and the jamir sisters, dats like super last minute la.....but its ok la jus dat the onli thing is i'm not dat confident about playing christmas carols cos i noe from some experience dat christmas carols are quite hard to play cos come the chord change is jus uber fast, some the chords are quite unfamiliar and havta switch between them all dat......but i agreed to play despite my lack of confidence in my playing skills, i've been rusty as well, haven had time to touch my guitar baby for awhile somemore, well at least i was playing with kin yip, which made it slightly betta cos i guess he can play christmas carols betta........hmm i was very late to meet them in church cos i took too long on the comm, jus checking facebook and my mail and stuff, how time flies argh.......so sorry i was late guys, if u actually read this......well the first place dat we went was some old folks home, (All Saints Home, i remember now) uncle michael drove us (ying quan, alethia, rachel, sarah, ruth, kin yip, chris wu, tim sng and i) in the church van.....we actually got there earlier than mabel who was driving a car and she left first......haha she got lost again heh, oh so typical of her......we sang to onli about 4 or 5 residents......we didnt play much difficult songs so i managed to play jus normally lol....after dat we went to....(i cant remember where at first, but i realised i still have the email they sent out in my hotmail inbox so here goes......) Tan Yew Seng and Angie Tan's house heh....this is the home of the ever so generous Tan family, with clare (one of the singers in the "Its A Christmas Thing"), the other sarah tan (not the sarah tan bee hui the runner in my ag) who is also an 87-er who jus got back from overseas, and brian.......they are the heirs to the Tan home la haha.....well we went there last year too and we had a feast as well, which was like the bulk of our dinner and stuff......hmm i really thank God for their generosity and kindness for them to invite us to their place to carol with/for them and their hospitality as well......hmm pastor david played on my ovation on his favorite carol at their house too! (wait i went to find the pic dat ruth took with her cam & posted on facebook).....oh ya sarah (bee hui), ruth and rachel ng performed "we are the reason" in sign, while the rest sang and kin yip and i played for it......can tell we quite died playing it la, those unfamiliar and normally untouched chords.......the onli part we played the best for dat song was the chorus cos it was easier........
well after the very good meal at the Tan's, we proceeded on a very long journey to NUH to visit a Patricia Chou, who had leukaemia and had been warded for quite some time i think.....anyway cos i was late so i was kinda sitting in the front of the van, kinda alone, with chris behind me, and the rest sitting facing each other, talking crap and joking......i was kinda alone cos the only person i could effectively talk to was chris and its not like i have absolutely so much to talk to him like i can talk with andrew or titus like dat so we jus ran out of topics to talk about after awhile.....so i spent most of the time jus fiddling around with my guitar, playing the bass notes of "dare" by gorillaz or trying to play some of the harder carols while trying to read them in the dark, after awhile i was bored so i whipped out my trusty mp3 player and continued my movie of ultraviolet which is kinda an old show but since i hardly watch movies, its new to me.......we got to NUH shortly after.......kin yip decided not to bring out his guitar cos we had to be quiet in NUH, plus he didnt have a strap......it felt jus tons of wierd carrying my guitar into a hospital la, like i was breaking the social norm dat hospitals are meant to be solemn and uncheerful, emotionless places......but i guess it must have been wierd seeing so many people wearing formal and all, plus a violinist and a guitarist bringing their instruments into a hospital, travelling together......soon we reached her ward and we were told not to make so much noise so as not to disturb the other patients......end up chris played for most of the songs, some i onli did lite strumming (dat was if we were playing on the same key in the first place), it was hard to coordinate cos the song sheet dat i had was in a diff key from the songbook chris was playing with, so initially chris wanted me to start then he follow in the same key and all but it failed so chris played violin for most of the songs lol......the most champion thing chris did was show me the songbook with all the 'dao gay' and he said "i forgot my theory already.....is this in D?" i went like "eh! i dunno 'dao gay' u ask me for wad?!" LOL......good thing alethia was next to him and she like confirmed it was in D....almost died in laughter and unbelief lol, but socially speaking u cant laugh in a hospital, much less in a ward so i didnt laugh.....but dat being said and all, i saw the state Patricia was in and my heart really went out to her, she was on teh oxygen mask and the density of the air (i asked chris about the display of the machine) was actually quite low, much lower than an average oxygen density for a normal person.....and she was like gasping for breath, breathing very labouredly......chris was saying dat with the mask it was low density already, without it would be much worst......i cant imagine exactly how much pain she was in.......my heart went out to her and her husband, like i could feel jus a little bit of the pain they must have been feeling......well after dat episode, we headed back to bishan (i think) or was it elder chou's house im not sure......anyway we also visited elder chou at his place where we were treated to a wonderful green bean soup made by our host's family member herself, i had 2 bowls of it, wonderful fruit cake some konnayaku jelly and alot of drinks......we also visited rowena and her mother at their home....i was kinda reminded by mabel's memory dat rowena's mum did say sumtin at one of the (now-abolished) yw sessions, speaking about rowena's condition and i remember she is our age too.......we had lots of stuff to eat there as well but we had no time to eat there cos we had to go to our last house, it was like 2300-ish already, so we packed some food along the way, some buns and a few packets of drinks.....the girls did their "we are the reason" 'item' again for both houses, woah hard stuff....well our last stop was to this guy named john's house......i dunno if u see him around church before.....well he is the guy dat walks around with a limp and most of the time he walks around using a walking stick.......he teaches tuition to some little children......i think kevin got tutored by him before......well yeah dats the one......we went to his house as our last stop at about 2345 thereabouts....super late lol.....but i think he stays alone so not so bad i guess......but anyway he offered us wasabe peas which i so geniusly took and realised dat they were more potent, i think i gave some to ruth and i cant remember who else.....we didnt completely finish the packet and it was thrown away by tim i think oh wells......haha ale caught some couple making out in their car by the road or sumtin heh.....she went like "eh get a room la" qing yuan : "technically they already have one....." ale: "no! but they should at least like park in some secluded place away from the main road...." then they all started discussing wad ale should get off the van and do like teach the guy how to kiss and make love i think......"you should do (this) in (a certain way)......" lol.......when we reached the church, (pastor david had left slightly earlier and reached his home before us) the church gate was locked, could be expected........so i climbed in but couldnt find the caretaker anywhere lol......kin yip climbed in too, saying there was some lever we could release to manually pull open the gate.....but we couldnt find it in the dark (even in the day oso cannot find cos i dunnno wad to look for heh)......so i had to go up to pastor david's house to ask him to come down and help us open the gate cos uncle mike had to park the church van and aunty lily had to get her car which was parked in the vicinity of the church.......end up aunty jenny (pastor's wife) came down to open for us, pastor david was in his pjs quite a funny sight heh.....when we were all done, mabel very kindly sent me back home, of which im very grateful......haha somebody made a comment "daniel and ruth should not sit together in the same car!" haha i mean its true la, she stays in the west while i stay in east but they put it in dat way sounded abit funny heh.....i think lucas sent us both back before....woah man, the amount he or his parents must spend on monthly petrol fees must be quite abit.....im gonna treat him to a drink or sumtin for sending me home so many times more than one......well for mabel too of course.....and andrew......next time when i have a car i'll send ppl in my ag and my frens home too i guess WHEN i do get a car.......haha mabel is one kiond of a joker.......tell her directions havta tell her like 3, 4 times before she actually registers it......and another 2 times before she actually reacts heh, (i'm saying this for fun onli, not dat im not grateful for her sending me home)......super funny la.....but somehow getting sent home in her car is quite different from lucas sending me home, mayb cos i noe lucas betta in some guy ways i guess, we did grow up together, well come to think of it mabel and i did grow up together as well but she disappeared from our lives after around p6 i think, back then when we jus went into yd classes........good thing she had sarah in the car with her, if not i really dunno how she is going to get home from my place, she'll jus get lost la.......well dat concludes the nite of caroling with ag 16........i slept at 7am dat nite cos i was doing nonsensical nothings jus checking my mail and facebook.....dunno how the time passed so fast lol.......oh wells i got up jus about an hr or so before to get ready to go for caroling at food for thought, another last minute request to play guitar by ruthless jamir.....post ended on 02/01/09 1956hrs
tracy kee: hi mop....yeah i always had a blog since not sure when......nice of u to drop by haha.....
sarah ang dao hui: did i get the correct sarah? haha.....erhm yeah same as the above.......
actual yf caroling day was 231208
(post started on 231208 @ 0344hrs
and finished on 241208 @ 0533hrs)
hi haha.....so sorry people who normally check in and find dat i haven updated in so long.....wad can i do haha except apologise......erhm i didnt want to leave this stagnant on purpose but i've jus had so many things to do dat blogging has become very low on the priority list.....
recently i haven had much time during the weekends, my weekends are always so precious and not to mention packed......i always want to do as many things as i can with the little time i have in the weekends.....my mom always say i everything oso want, which i admit is kinda true alot of the times....the result is im always rushing for time jus to squeeze in another activity or event during the weekend so as expected the time for blogging almost doesnt come by easily even if i set my heart on blogging, i will somehow get caught up with doing something more fun i guess like trying to complete a certain game or sometimes jus surfing online alone will take up all the spare time i have so i dun have the luxury to slowly sit down, gather my thoughts and churn out one the long posts dat is so normal for my blog nowadays.....guess i do havta specially set aside a day meant for blogging, but if dat were to happen (dats a really big if), i can guarantee i can probably rant a post so long it may be the length of 3 or more of my normal posts haha......probably...well enough nonsense, i jus meant this as a short update, promising of more to come la.....it will come when it comes, im thinking of writing a short book on my blog which would hopefully make it more interesting lol....complete with the prologue, the main body with a few chapters and also an epilogue, but it has no happy ending heh, so its not a storybook rite? genius haha....
well i jus wanted to say something about caroling today.....i wore my new mandarin collar white shirt there......hmm let me see this was one of the 2 shirts i bought which cost 102+ altogether, the other one is the red one i wore for the musical, cna go see on facebook.....
i felt i had enough (ok mayb good is a betta way to describe it) sleep cos the previous nite i slept at like 3 plus then i woke up on caroling day at about 1330 like dat....the sleep felt good but still i noe sleeping at such wee hours is damaging to my body, today even worse, its like 0435am and im like still awake blogging, haven gotten down to bathing yet haiz....i will probably sleep at 0530 when this is done and probably wake up at like 1630 later hahah....ah my weird sleeping patterns, so unhealthy....wad to do....i'll sure want to catch up with normal sleeping patterns when i can......im dying now la seriously, well not literally but yeah.......i've got the 'christmas season, coughing, sneezing blues'....( a line from on of the songs in the "Its A Christmas Thing" musical by the way if u didnt get to catch it)......my eyes are tired and i have been rubbing both of them, my nose is red from all the sneezing (probably sinus la) but its getting betta thankfully.....ah i need sleep but i can onli get normal sleeping patterns after christmas or so i guess.....haha digression, now u see y i could probably type a 3 normal posts long post haha.....
well back to the yf caroling....it started very early today so my breakfastlunch was wad got me thru the day before tiny snack size bit of food came along......i ate some biscuits and a cheese and apricot jam sandwich after waking up so thank God it lasted me until like 7 or 8 plus......andrew didnt eat at all after waking up so he was very hungry by the time we stopped at gardens......but he couldnt go out and buy something to eat.....too bad la who ask him not to eat anything after waking up lol.....anyway i could tell dat alot of ppl were wearing very nice dresses and shirts for caroling this year.....hah random comment....anyway bj spoke to us on the reason on y we carol before we started, he said sumtin about isaiah 53, i'll go and read it when i have the time....oh ya we carol to proclaim Christ's name and tell others wad He done for us at the cross.....
we went to this lee ah moy old folks home first, the design of the home was like a gloomy and lonely and sad place (to me dat it), mayboo pointed out the called their resident in-mates, dats like for prisoners......even us national servicemen are not called dat la even though its kinda similar to prison lol......we had quite a big group of us walking around the long, narrow corridors of the home and like 2 guitarists, one was jerry all the way in front and the other was joe tee i think, somewhere in the middle or so.......it was quite a mess i must say haha.....cos by the time the info got passed down to the last few ppl dat they were singing a particular song, the front few had already started singing, then becos the middle guitarist cant possibly hear the front guitarist at all, he jus starts the same song as well at probably a line or 2 later......it was jus confusion heh, the front half dat could hear jerry would sing along with jerry then the back half dat could hear joe tee followed joe tee, the middle parts were jus confused who to follow so jus anyhow sing lol......hurhur i noe cos i was roughly in the middle heh.....we did dat for quite awhile lol, then finally we went to 2 rooms and the front part was in one room, the back part was in the other, then timmy decided dat we should jus stay there instead of move along with the front group so we jus sang our own carols, different from the front group.....
we stayed there for awhile, like 5 or 6 carols then when it was time for us to go off then we walked out, caroling as we walked well abit onli la, most dunno which part of "we wish u a merry/blessed christmas" to sing lol so jus anyhow bomb oso lol......in dat room, there was this one gentleman dat said "thank you very much for coming" when i wished him merry christmas and he said it in sucha way dat really impacted me in some way i cant really tell, he was very sincere and he realy meant it.....my heart went out to the man lying in his bed in dat room, in a sense of pity and yet care.....there was another man who seemingly was more chatty and aware of his surroundings and he didnt seem like he was the resident (or in-mate) of the home, not to mention he was the only one who was walking around when we caroled.....when we sang "God sent His Son" he was like shaking my hadn profusely la haha....first he shook my rite then with 2 hands, after dat i jus felt my other hand hand should go up too in courtesy which i later found out was a bad move haha, dunno y i did it oso.....end up he was shaking both my hands profusely and swinging them around left rite and up down lol oh wells......gayle and i oso talked to this resident who was lying on his bed and could sing some of the carols in his own slurred speech kinda way, i didnt bid goodbye to him tho hmm.....then we proceeded to another much smaller home which i cant remember the name......
(well danlee goes to sleep after bathing here, at about 23/12/2008 6plus am...then recontinues on 24/12/2008 0228am.....the crazy waking hours...zzzZZzzz....well and raking my memory for stuff i wanted to blog about)
well caroling at the smaller home was much more organised than the first....at least we all were singing the same carols at the same lines at the same tempos haha.....well when we were singing, we were supposed to interact abit with the residents (not in-mates this time haha) but i saw like those in the room were like jus singing there and not shaking the residents hands or wishing them blessed christmas etc.....like they were shy or something lol....so i had to initiate sumtin, being an older one.....i went to shake the hand of a resident who was awake when we were caroling.....at least some ppl starting shaking the residents hands then.....oh wells......then in between caroling, sarah ang dao hui (haha) became known as the (lousy) pail for tracy kee the mop hahaha.....its like super funny and sarah is like kinda retarded in onli the slow kinda way haha, kenna jack big time oso jus "huh i dun wanna be a broom, i rather be a pail...." one kind of self jack lol.....after it all we gathered near the home entrance where we has our first bite of something......they provided water in packaged cups and alot of quaker muesli bars of a few flavours supposedly one for each of the carolers or sumtin.....then there was this brown rice snack thingy which was totally tasteless, they were passing it around on our bus like way after we left dat place lol......everybody who tried it said it was taseless, like jus eating starch or sth like dat....
after dat we were an hour too early for our next stop, salvation army grace haven, which was a children's home so we dropped by gardens church ....we had to register our names and nric for the salvation army place lol which was abit dumb cos even if we didnt register,. there wasnt anyone to check the number of ppl who actually went into the home with us wad......well andrew was uber hungry then but too bad it was quite unheard of to go out and buy food anyway....
well so we proceeded to grace haven.....initially i thot it was an all girl's home, or so i was told by the best (kenji).....a lil suprised to see younger guys there at first.....then i felt i had to go over there and interact with the guys there....abit wierd at first cos i jus introduced myself to them and wished them blessed christmas....some of them jus shook my hand and held it there for quite awhile....which is wierd cos i really dunno wad to do, do i pulll my hand away violently, which would be rude by the way or wierdly let them hold onto my hand until they do let go? one little kid tried to bite my hand or salivate my hand when i wished him blessed christmas lol....i felt so disgusted after dat.....but oh well i didnt show it (i hope)...well i'll agree with joe tee on this, they really do have many diverse backgrounds and the spectrum of the types of youths there is really larger and far by the wayside (is dat the phrase? i dunno, cant be bothered to think so much, its like 0415am now la).....i cant help but notice a few of the kids are from ah beng backgrounds, meaning like speaking vulgarities here and there, some abit more violent than others....stuff like dat, i guess i can really relate to this kinda thing cos i was from a neighbourhood skool and i had a few frens who were like dat or way worst....so i've seen alot and the thing about these kids is i emphatise with them cos they all display this kinda behaviour becos of underlying reasons as diverse as their backgrounds they come from.....but really i dunno how to interact with them, without coming off as seeming too righteous or sumtin like dat.....i dun think i see this as a ministry for me to go into yet but i felt abit helpless on how to deal with them then.....
well over at grace haven, there was a decent pa set up, all brought from bishan and stuff, including the mics, mixer and high hat or sumtin jeremy played and perhaps sumtin like a portable drum and some waist level bongo drums or sth like dat.....they (daryl on his charis, david heng on guitar, jeremy khoo on the high hat thing and the drum 'box', david bob on guitar, and linus on the bongo thingy) performed an item called "Lord of the dance" which is probably a contemporary piece.....given dat they rehearsed at least 8 times for one performance alone, it was awesome, as usual daryl never fails to impress......but i felt dat tho it was good i dun think it was something the children could fully appreciate for the message daryl meant to bring across thru it as much as it being jus another "ordinary" good music performance......it was hard for them to fully grasp the meaning of the song la, mayb cos of age and mayb abit to do with background......some of the boys i was sitting with kept looking at the back of the place where we were seated, on following the directions of their stares and incessant pointing here and there, i saw they were looking at rachel ng, alethia tiang and gayle ng standing at the back, whoooo kenna distracted by pretty girls everything.....lol o_O i dinno wad to do so too bad i jus let them be lol......grayham and ibob and theodore performed "manger throne" for them too, the goh brothers were ok....ibob was doing the acoustics on guitar accompanying gray and theo played the violin.....my personal take on ibob's performance is dat he really sounded like an emo kid when he tried to sing in harmony for the chorus or sumtin, like a yellowcard version of the chorus which to me sounded abit bad heh.....i must applaud his courage for performing and singing but somehow i think his voice doesnt suit the vocal harmonising they were trying to do, sorry ibob heh.....good try tho...when we were making our way off from the place i met the guys i introduced myself to again and one of them jus grabbed my arm and asked me to bring him along with me, abit weird request i must say, i jus politely declined saying i cant bring him home....LOL.....
my next and last stop for yf caroling was theodore and grayham's house cos i was scared i wont have bus to go back if i stayed too late at megan's house which was the last stop......well nothing much to say at the goh's house...jus normal routine caroling....gray, theo and ibob did their item again, in a much quieter setting so ibob sounded even worst than he did at grace haven, he sounded jus constipated and emo.....i am not gossiping here its really how i feel.....but i dun wanna hurt ibob's feelings or like cause any misunderstandings or misgivings so i'd prefer he doesnt noe i wrote this heh.......after leaving from the goh's residence, sher, ivan lee, ruth and priscilla jamir, john and i walked out together to supposedly go eat....andrew insisted on going caroling at megan's house so we jus let him be la..... by the time we decided to go to chomps to eat/da pao, john decided he didnt want to take the risk of not having a bus after eating at chomps so he went off with sher after she da paoed her food.....i stayed behind with the rest since i said i would eat with them instead of da pao, taking the risk of not being able to catch the last bus.....i ate prawn mee which was really quite good i must say, altho slightly more pricely than the normal prawn mee, it had newspaper cuttings and all ma, the stall is called the penang prawn mee stall or sth like dat....ivan and i shared a towering lychee drink dat cost $3 which was quite ok i think for the amount we had.....ivan told us about the way he and his 2 other eating buddies normally eat at chomps, depending on how hungry they are....well they would pool like $20 each and jus order food then most of the time they finish them up la! wow madness.....after eating we saw a 73 bus coming so ruth and i ran for it, haha priscilla had to take out her heels to run barefoot heh....turns out it was the wrong 73 haiz....well then we finally took the rite 73 and then i found out dat i had already missed the last 59 bus so i took a random bus to toa payoh int and inquired which buses were still in operation (the wayward brother had already called earlier, dat genius didnt even noe the fastest way to get home lol, so i told him take bus from megan's to bishan and take a straight bus home, luckily for him (and myself) the last bus for a straight bus from bishan had not gone yet so i told him to wait for it lol)......then i took 28 from toa payoh, assuming i would be walking home or sumtin, it was quite a distance lol.....then end up i took the bus my brother was on, at one of the bus stops both buses stopped at.....thank God dat bus was still operation if not i would have to walk home.....well no more supper next time if its getting late, unless i have my own means of transportation other than cab lol....a bike of my own would be nice (if my mom doesnt kill me first), quite cool man, leather jacket, killer helmet and a fast bike for me to zoom around, dangerous la but the thot alone is thrilling enough.....i probably wont be able to learn bike ever la cos my mom is against it, even tho my dad allows it ;) he knows how to ride a bike cos he was from malaysia haha.....
well dats it i guess, i slept at like 0600+am and woke up uber late dat day, jus nice to surf online abit and see all the spamments made by valerie lew, rachel tan and whoever not on photos, woah like on msn they jus spamm lol haha, good thing i dun receive any emails from facebook from all this, was smart enough to unsubscribe from it, if not my hotmail would be like flooded la.....can u imagine like jus after one nite, then got like 50+ notifications, madness.....ok its like 0514am now la.....i shall blog about my ag caroling some other time la....
P.S. by the way i would like to know who are the owner(s) of these 2 blogs since i cant read ur blogs, i would at least like to noe who ye are haha:
http://elixirofheaven.blogspot.com/http://bleeedinglove.blogspot.com/
sher: so it was u i was talking about ah, thank u for admitting
sandra: okk thanks for the new link, i WILL update the link soon.....when i have the time haha....
er sao: ok ok i finally updated, happy? haha
valerie lew: lol stalker haha....how did u find my blog? dats the problem with public blogs, too many ppl "discover" it lol, i really should switch to wordpress soon but i cant bear to part with all my previous posts archive and yet too lazy to post them all one by one there, so i guess im sticking to this haiz......yeah la im the one and only danlee, the best ever and forever will be lol.....
et: lol who is this? im guessing from inferrence dat ur eunice tay? correct me if im wrong heh.....but i dunno anyone by dat name lol.......how u noe i'm a mad man? lol
grace lee: ok haha updated, didnt noe u read my blog too lol......thanks, blessed christmas to u too!
wad is happening to kids these days? wad have they become man......
i'm now in camp, using the comm in the camp mess......anyway time to blog about the past week of off + leave which i spent helping out at children's camp full time as a sheperd.......
going onto the state of children these days......i guess the most memorable thing i can talk about is the 5 or so little girls (about p1 - p2) dat for some reason or another come and grab me and pull my hands, pull my shirt and all trying to drag me around to play catching with them.....dat meaning i run or wad then they chase me, cos they think they can run very fast lol, of course they are left expending energies from their little bodies like way behind heh, even the boys run faster than them.......yes i noe, they are girls summore la, i think i must be the most popular guy with the little girls haha, mayb its cos i handsome la (urp haha joking)......mmmm i guess the good thing dat came out of dat is dat jamie ding and jasmine chua, their sheperds dun have to take care of them cos they are so busy running around the church or wad chasing me.........tires them out too so they cant really cause trouble and talk nonsense lol..........well talking about crazy children, those girls are not only hyper (not as hyper as me but yeah) but besides grabbing my hands, shirt, they would oso hit me with their hands and kick and all.......lol i mean they are girls lol......one kind of fierce lol......and one kind of tomboyish behavior.........anyway but mayb can forgive them la they are still so young......wa these girls are very very noisy as well lol.........they will come and shout at the top of their little voices, asking me to play catching with them as well as constantly ask me who is my girlfriend, like they will make guesses and ask me everytime i talk to some random girl helper in camp.........abit cock la.......ok i guess i really cannot complain cos the p1, p2 girls some of them are cute and quite harmless, except myself being temporarily hurt at dat particular moment from their 'beatings'........plus i noe 2 of the little girls from aunty mabel's class dat i help out on sundays........the 2 of them are very cute, xiao zhing and melanie......both of them very guai as well, the low profile very nice little children kind heh.....xiao zhing is very cute and adorable......ok i stop myself from saying too much, im not a paedophile like some surname lou i noe hahaha........
well talk about complaining i guess lizzy really got it quite jialat or challenging lol........her kids were the p5-p6 girls and they bring the words "hard to handle" to a whole new level altogether.......i was told her kids had a crush on charles and all and then they totally make up scandals out of nothing, from like when any girl talking to charles like flicks her hair behind her ear or does some other normal actions.......totally ridiculous man........add dat with the normal girl squabbling and a little bit of violence (if there was, im jus guessing) and u probably have a bigger problem on your hands than wad you alone can handle i guess, but thankfully God has brought lizzy, abigail, and hui lin (the 2 sheperds and hui lin is the helper attached to help out dat group cause of lizzy) and their group thru the children's camp safely i guess........its nice to see them collaborating together with the p5-p6 boys [who were such gents according to liz and also whom the girls apparently have some grudges against from the year before (its dat bad)] to put up quite a good skit i must say.........not bad considering hearing firsthand from lizzy all about the tension at the girls side.......ok i guess the p5-p6 girls, some of them have some family problems and stuff like dat dats y they are like dat and mayb a thousand other reasons dat led to their attitude problems........i dun really noe them and i dun really noe for sure so this is all im going to say, wad i heard from lizzy.....
enough said about the girls, the boys arent much betta either la, except apparently for the p5-p6 boys who won the best group award or sumtin like dat.......i keep hearing about how gentlemanly and accommodating the boys were with the p5-p6 girls despite them bitching and scolding them etc.......well lets talk about my group first......p1-p2 boys....i was a co-sheperd together with david chua (the ultra tall man) as well aunty bee wan (thank God we had her at times oso if not we would be too stretched to take care of all the problematic children causing trouble, injuring ppl, talking nonsense, or jus running around being a nuisance {gabriel goh heh} etc)......btw i had one k2 kid whose name is reuben lim, he is really very cute heh, liz took a photo of him for me using her phone.....will upload it next time mayb? see how la, mayb not here but on facebook or wad heh......the way he says "kor kor daniel" really makes me feel like his older brother there to protect him, really thank God he did not get kicked on punched or anything man by any of the other kids dat i took lol if not it would be a very traumatic experience for him (because he is really small sized la) and for us sheperds as well lol.......anyway yes i did mention my boys kicking each other or sumtin like dat.......well my kids being little children like to play around Alot........the first day or so we jus couldnt get them to REST in the bunk lol, they would be playing and running around like nobody's business, then end up stepping on the other children lying down, either dat or they end up getting more violent than when the imaginary play fighting first started, like one kid i had, daniel murti wa he is damn violent wann lol.......he would kick the other kids if they like offended him even over the smallest of things like some kid accidently step on his blanket or sumtin........like one boy, reuben quek, aunty bee wan's son was kicked in the stomach by daniel murti lol......so jialat reuben came to me crying and telling me about the story at the same time, so sad......well thank God we expended the energies of the children quite abit by the 2nd day so when it was time for the children to have siesta or wad, most of them were resting peacefully in the bunk.......with the exception of a few who still wanted to play and all, but of course we made sure they didnt injure their frens anymore......the rest of the nites the children slept so well lol, cause we really expended all the energies in their little bodies through all the games, workshops and wad not conducted for them (GOOD JOB CAMP COMM AS WELL AS ALL THE HELPERS DAT MADE THIS CAMP HAPPEN BY THE WAY, im sure im not the onli one who appreciate their help at this camp)........the boys jus dun seem to listen to our instructions or rather follow them.......they hear us but they still run up and down the stairs at the fastest speeds they can manage heh..........i remember a few times i let them run all the way down by themselves for a few workshops when they were supposed to stay on the 3rd floor to look for sumtin or someone heh.......quite funny, let them be la let them expend their energies running up and down for nothing heh......there was this once linus asked them to find 'bob the builder' aka ibob heh.......i think they didnt listen to the briefing on who was 'bob the builder' so when linus asked them to find 'bob the builder', i jus shouted "GO FIND BOB THE BUILDER !!", and i made huge gestures with my hands heh, its funny even typing it.......then we were in sanctuary 2 and ibob was there as well but immediately after i said it, the kids rushed out the doors and went all the way down heheh.......sooooo funnny.......anyway i had to go down to find them and get them back to sanctuary again haha......quite amusing heh........this happened a few times ready......some kids jus dun follow instructions to follow their sheperds so i jus let them run around until they are tired then i go look for them and bring them back, kinda like sheep isnt it? (haha i jus thought of dat as i was typing)....other than the violence and all dat hyper activeness, i guess my kids were generally ok la, at least the vast majority of them dun talk nonsense......only one or 2 spouting nonsense and scolding their frens, mainly daniel murti, yu tong and mayb a few others more..........as usual i had to take care of the all too famous gabriel goh la, he was running around and making unusual comments loudly as usual all the time........luckily i could meet his energy level to run around catching him and grabbing him to sit down all dat.......oh ya another significant thing dat i remember from this camp was punishing gabriel goh and daniel murti because they simply did not listen to instructions to sit down and they kept running around when during their lessons..........well i took gabriel to the room with doors on both side then one at both sides of sanctuary 2 and i made him to jumping jacks, push ups, sit ups, running on the spot, and i oso asked him to run up and down a flight of stairs and stuff like dat lol jus to expend his energy lol......i asked daniel murti to run up and down a longer flight of stairs cause i was quite pissed with him for not listening to instructions not to run around......after dat he sit down really quietly and listened to wad we had to say to the children........i tell u if the camp was any longer, i think more of the children dat didnt listen to our instructions to stop running around would have had a taste of the physical training lol.......i must say i kinda had a little bit of satisfaction from punishing them, sounds saddist yeah........i think its the influence of the army, and being a sgt, kinda getting used to getting ppl to do things......but its not mainly dat, its the expending of the energy of dat hyper active kid so dat dat kid wont be able to run around so much and cause trouble, like playing with the mic, climbing on the high stacks of chairs, doing nonsense.......i think its mainly dat la........
well more about the boys......this time the p3-p4 batch......i think lin ping and marvin had quite a hard time controlling them.......its like they are in the middle or being childish and being matured......so they like have both sides......imagine a p3-p4 not so little boy still playing on the playground and being hyper, running around, its quite hard to handle them if ur not on good terms with them or if u dunno them well prior to camp starting......not to mention the different ways needed to deal with every single one of them.....well i took a few of them last year when i was their sheperd so im on quite good terms with them all as a whole but i wasnt their sheperd heh......anyway they can be quite nice when they noe u and when u noe them la......i hid in their bunk when the little girls were chasing me around the church for the fun of it......haha its definitely worth it spending my leave and off at children's camp, watching as the little children grow up and mature mentally as well.....kinda of a fulfillment in some sorta way.........
the p5-p6 boys i didnt hear anything but good comments for them......their sheperds, kenneth ho and peter wang gave the boys quite abit of freedom to do whatever they wanted jus as long as they met the timing specified....it was quite a good way to lead them especially because the boys were quite mature......and might i mention the boys were on time for every activity as i saw it heh......not bad im impressed, considering i had quite a hard time rushing my little kids to meet the timing due to certain things we wanted to get done etc........
well having said so much about all the different types of kids dat we had to face at this "camp afloat".....kinda makes one wonder how do parents actually raise and govern their kids nowadays lol.......must be quite interesting to delve into the methods.....and of course u look at some kids and wonder wad could be the cause of this kid's misbehavior? could it be the way the parents raised them? i can only wonder cause i imagine dat if i myself were a 30 odd year old parent at this current age, with all the work-related stress going on on weekdays and so many other factors and worries they (I) have to take care of, dare i say dat i definitely will not let my child turn out dat way? well i dare not, and i can only speculate how i would want to treat and raise my kid when i do have one, if i do have one.......oh well dats all in the quite far away future i guess........
dats all from the long poster (me)......heh
actually when i first wanted to post, i wanted to post about how depressed i was feeling.....army life is starting to get very very sian for me.....to a certain extent i cant wait for it to end, counting down to ord and at the same time thots of jus ending my life have come in more than once but i wake myself up cos i somehow noe its not worth it taking my life away because of the remaining 11 or 12 months or so of the lack of freedom in the army, thank God for dat if not i probably wont be around to tell my story now heh...i feel dat i can be used by God in mighty ways dat i may or may not imagine and i definitely can be of more use being alive than dead haha.....dun take me too seriously la its jus the depression....
i feel abit like a loner in there cause i'm not very close with many ppl in there.......in fact when i was in bmt,i wasnt very close to anyone in particular, i really dunno the reason oso but somehow i cant talk to alot of ppl on a deeper level........casue i cant relate to them being so perverted and dirty minded........
sispec it got slightly betta cause i feel i could at least talk abit to my bed buddy when he was around.....but still the same problem existed......
as you might have already read, when i was in skool of armour, it was quite jialat for me la....my bed buddy was a sucker heh.......but at least i had frens dat i could relate to at times........
army is getting quite sian now because they are keeping us in camp when we dun really have to be in camp, doing things dat are quite unnecessary as well as all the mundane chores of staying in........but at least now the frens dat i have are quite alrite even though some are still the usual f-ed up personnel.......
well well what could be the cause of the happiness so far? haha well i got the whole week off lol........cause they burned my vesak day public holiday for live firing which we didnt really have to do with the infantry men (cause we done the same firing and more before lol), and they oso burened our saturday half day for some sand model thingy which was not needed as well....so well the army has to pay us back for burning our days dats not supposed to be burned.......i got off for 1 and a half days then my oc (who is a super nice person) asked all of the new specialists and the new operators (aka drivers) to clear 3 and a half days of leave so i get the whole week off lol......so i can help out full time at children's camp as a sheperd.........quite shiok la.......plus the next week after dat, im taking leave to go for youth retreat full time so next next week will only be 2 days long in camp, such a good break im looking forward to.........now to talk about the sunday dat already passed....
SUNDAY.......i had a very refreshing time in worship, even though it was very warm....the aircon had somehow broken done and almost everywhere was hot and very humid.......everyone was talking about wad a warm worship we had and talk about giving a warm welcome to our newcomers lol....so lame man.........in worship, i saw ppl fanning themsleves on both the lower sanctuary and the upper sanctuary from wher i was sitting, i must say looking at the pattern and speed at which they fan themselves is kinda like an art, like even though some ppl fan in different directions, they all fan about the same speed haha kinda like art lol.........anyway dat aside i think worship was particluarly refreshing cos i wasnt so distracted as the previous few weeks i guess, i oso had more sleep the nite before......i feel worship can be a great place where cliques do not exist apart from the people you sit with la but still it doesnt matter dat much who u are sitting with (of course its nicer to have someone whom u noe sitting with u so u can talk and wad not haha) but i believe when the whole congregation is engaged in worship, it doesnt really matter who ur sitting with as well as whether cliques will exist during worship which is really great to me........
carrying on my day, i went to behind church for lunch with my brother who went to arpc for their service along with a few of the other yfers, jus because there they have aircon walao lol......we ate with cheng hui and yi cheng at the new western food stall......i think they cheat money wann lol, their plates are quite big but the portions is not dat big haha, part of the psychological effect, mayb its abit ex too haha.....i ate the mini portion of some fried fish with spaghetti, so not enough for me la....the spaghet it like a few strands of noodles onli la.....i went for a shiok bowl of shui jiao tang (dumpling soup), the damn shiok one at the wanton mee stall haha........after dat we played a very good game of floorball, oh ya cheng hui, yi cheng, linus played, together with wilfred and i, oh ya and kevin and his fren saleh......all guys affair haha cos suprisingly no girls came......but it was fun heh........had a great time of runnning around and feeling the rush of the speed heh.........oh ya i think i noe y cos i was wearing shoes to play as well i guess......
after dat i went on to play frisbee with the normal frisbee group dat play every sunday.....i thought the field would be wet and muddy cos slightly before dat it rained abit.......but when i got to the field, it was jus perfect la cos before the rain it was very hot so i guess the rain was wad we needed to soften the ground.....and like since it was so hot before the rain, the ground like absorbed all the water......the field was so perfect, i so enjoyed running back and forth on it, i felt like i could continue running here and there on hours on end.......i enjoyed the rush of running around and jumping, running and leaping here and there......reaql long since i enjoyed myself so much at frisbee.....welll i normally dun go for it cos i have to book in.......see how la if i can make it next week i guess i will......i guess the day couldnt be more perfect, i was listening to christian songs on my mp3 player while i was travelling to dinner at chinatown with my family (after frisbee ended) adn like normally when i dun feel good, many songs jus dun seem to click for me....feels wierd lol.......when i feel sad i really feel like drowning myself in music........
at chinatown.....alot of food choices there but i was lazy to walk around to seek out the various food choices so i jus had the same beef noodles dat my parents had, i ordered the last plate heh.......not too bad i must say........the lime juice dat i bought quite cheat money, like the aunty juiced a few limes with her juicer , the actual lime juice was onli like 1/8 of the cup or sumtin like dat, probably less, then she added water until the cup was about half full then she filled it to the max with huge ice cubes, walao but ok la cant really complain dat much cos its onli $1......... after dat still feeling good, i got home and talked to quite a few ppl at once online, i really relish and enjoyed the catching up with dat few frens, looking forward to doing it again some time soon.........listening to klove online again made me feel even greater heh.....
some things weighing me dun go away, they jus seem far away for the moment.....
somethings i must share......i feel very helpless of how to help myself.....it never was like this before, i dunno y its like this.....must be the work of the hormones haiz.......i cant help but notice and sometimes i dunno y i think the things i do when i see, shocks myself on how those thoughts can even be there in the first place, even with some of my frens......feel so helpless and desperate mayb? i dun wanna feel dat way, i wish it would all go away and go back to being jus about enjoying the friendship for the friendship in itself and not all the unintentional judging based on appearances, the way ppl perform etc........i feel hapless cos i dunno wad i should do....i guess i should jus come out and say dat i feel like i want to get attached, dunno y i feel this way but its how i feel........i cant say how wierd and awkward this is to me putting it down in words, not to mention wad ppl will think when they do read this post.....ouch man.....feels kinda like a post secret kinda thing, except the person who posts this is unannonymous (obviously)........i dunno, i feel if i should jus shy away from all form of female contact dat would tug at my heart strings......mayb i would feel betta and less desperate then..........
i feel a little stuck in a dilemma, like should i go out and do sumtin about how i feel i.e. mayb go out and actively search for a girlfriend (more for someone i talk about the deepest stuff with and also someone to love) which would be how the world in general would act........or should i wait for God to show me the right (and the best) person He has set apart for me? i dunno what it really means to wait.....how will i noe when the right person has come into my life or not? kinda makes me wish dat God would jus let me meet dat one person (or so whatever His plans are), wish i could jus cultivate a deeper friendship with dat person...(of course the other ordinary frens wouldnt be neglected la)........what if...God has already sent 'the right person' to be a part of life already.....i read somewhere dat God doesnt limit the right person to jus one, He plans a few for each and everyone because we all have the freedom of choice to choose (in some ways) our spouse or sumtin like dat la.......and if.....God has already put dat someone in my life, ok lets say by then......then wad should i do? jus sit around and wait? or do sumtin (i dunno wad) about it? the normal worldly thing would be do sumtin and probably actively chase dat 'right person'......haiz for now i can and will only sit around and wait cos i dunno wad to do, how to do it and mayb im too scared to take the chance......
well i think i've said quite abit too much........dats all for the nite now........tata.........
well its really been awhile since i last posted.....i feel its really time for me to bare abit of my thots.....well first and foremost, this post is wad i would call an ex post, which to me means blogging about past events dat i enjoyed but didnt have the time to blog before i booked in the last time........cause somehow or rather the time dat i spend outside of camp not only never seems enough, it also seems to somehow pass by too fast even tho i feel as if im not doing much.........anyway here is some background for ppl who are oblivious to the ns terms and the way things work.....well the title 'off-in-lieu' means off basically.....they give us (a) day(s) off based on how many times our weekends get burned by activities on saturdays and/or sundays...thank God for the 5-day ns work day policy, at least for trainees at least, which i still am.......one of the very very little perks of being a low-life trainee........but anyway my off-in-lieu started last wednesday, 190308 stretching all the way until sunday nite when i book in again.......but i must say i really relished the break and not to mention enjoyed myself alot lol....wednesday evening we booked out and i went to a club for the first time....i went to st james with my army coursemates and it was ladies nite lol......i went there to drink abit la the 2 free drinks dat u can get when u pay $20 for entry into the club haha but i didnt drink dat much to get myself drunk la.......but i really enjoyed myself there lol, dunno y leh, i went there and i danced around quite abit and dat in itself made me quite happy i guess.......after going there the first time, my frens alll say i very wild lol i cant believe it, cause i mainly went there to dance and mayb try to enjoy the ultra loud music and nothing much else.......quite curious y they say im very wild lol, mayb its cause they hardly dance around much except one of my frens who is a rather experienced clubber, he went around buah-ing girls, i bet he went to buah every girl he saw lol......oh wells dats his problem, i will probably never have the confidence or shamelessness to do dat, whatever way u want to look at it.......let me try and remember wad i did on last thurs 200308......oh ya i remember i got home from clubbing the nite before at 7am cause we stayed at the club until the lights came on which was about 430am like dat, by the time we dilly dally around it was about 5 or 530am ready and since there was no bus yet, and we didnt want to take cab, we decided to wait for the first train to be in service before we took it........so we went to the hawker centre at habourfront there, and actually we were quite suprised to find one or 2 indian stalls jus preparing to open for business so early in the morning......we waited awhile for the stall to make their teh tarik which was super good la after a nite or so of drinking and stuff.......my frens dat were still with us mostly drank cold drinks lol so wierd, esp after clubbing the whole nite.......they also ate abit like prata haha, i wanted to eat roti john with cheese but my fren ordered the only one heh too bad la..........let me see, after dat i slept until 1pm then i got a call from my fren, shalyn to go out and meet.......we had previously planned to meet up the day before......shalyn is this fren i met thru pep, the poly prayer and evangelism thing i used to go for sometime, back when i was in poly.....i stopped going for their gatherings cos i didnt really identify with the ppl there and mayb i felt i went there mayb for the wrong reasons......she also dropped out of the poly pep gathering thing after some time for some reason i dun really noe......but anyway i dunno how come we started talking to each other again cause we haven talked to each other for quite awhile cause we hardly get to meet cos we hav different schedules and we are not say the closest of frens.......i dunno la its abit fuzzy how come the both of us are talking now but guess it started when i noticed her facebook status which 'told' me dat she changed from being attached to being single.....so i dropped her a msg, to see if she was ok......then since last thursday i met her, she has been sharing bits and pieces of wad happened between her ex and her.....and i dunno wad to say to her as advice lol mayb because i dun have much experience and mayb oso cos its jus the "what am i doing here? or the how did i get here?" kinda thing but its alrite for me i guess...i jus pray dat she is feeling betta and dat God is actually leading her to wad He wants her to do in her life.......well yeah i talked to her for quite abit dat day......well she did most of the talking, there was nothing much i could have done except being a fren to listen......
anyway wad did i do on friday ah? oh yeah friday 210308 was good friday.......i went for good friday service which talked about pride and the very small little forms of it dat were taken for granted as not part of our own pride.........then after dat i was supposed to have a lunch date with my wife, titus dear but he had to pang seh me to go visit some relatives or frens la........anyway im quite thankful i managed to have lunch with andrew, my other best fren instead......we ate a very VERY hearty meal at botak jones lol.....we both ordered hotdogs........he ordered the pork sausage and i ordered the chilli dawg haha....monster size la plus the bun, i couldnt finish the bun but i ate up most of my fries and the coleslaw, to think i was still thinking of trying the tiramisu at the start of the meal.....but obviously there was no space after a giant hotdog and 2 drinks to let it flow down....we played a relaxed game of pool after dat.....since we were free, i sorta invited myself to andrew's house (well technically i only went cos he sook permission from his mom first then i went) since he had to take some time to get ready to go out again and i was jus waiting to play frisbee (something i haven done in quite awhile due to me having to book in on sundays).....it started to rain on our way back to his place and we had to run in, obviously we were wet abit........anyway i really enjoyed andrew's company and i relished the talking with him about the things dat were troubling me or weighing me down.......his advice was very timely and jus being able to share some of my difficulties and worries with a good fren really felt good, it was jus wad i needed after not talking to alot of my frens for so long.........after dat i had a blast playing frisbee, even tho i was really full i couldnt play as well, couldnt run as fast as i felt i could heh.....after dat i had a sort dinner with cheng hui and yi tao, i was still full from lunch lol so all i 'ate' more fluids dats all haha.....saturday 220308......i went to my aunt's place for lunch......i can tell she enjoyed our company as usual i guess......i seriously cant remember much la it was quite long ago.....memories are so far from fuzzy already.....then for some reason i went to church, i really cant remember y la.........but i onli remember dat i left for kuishin-bo to eat a really good food buffet with section mates and my section instructor (and his fren who supposedly seems more than jus his fren, yeah my section instructor is quite happening and quite on wann, he talked to us quite a number of times when we were on course with him to check out how we all felt about the course and all, quite nice la) from Armoured Infantry Section Leader Course, back when i was a corporal on course with them, of cos now im a sergeant already, and now posted to a different unit from most of them......so seperated lol........after dat we went to marina square to watch a movie, something i haven done in a long time........we went to catch step up 2 lol......really nice la their dance moves......how i wish i could dance like them in clubs or sumtin like dat.........seems really nice and liberating to be dancing ur heart out like there's nobody watching...........i think wad i need is some place or form of activity to vent out pent up thoughts and a messed up head man......sunday 230308 i went to help out aunty mabel with the kids, nothing much out of the ordinary i guess......probably had abit of gabriel in my day but nothing i cant handle, even on my own with out andrew, who hardly comes to help with me alot of the time........and then after dat the normal floorball, after yet another time at the toa payoh botak jones, i went there with titus, daniel fu and timothy sng.......it was quite wierd i must say cos it was jus supposed to be jus titus and i cos i really wanted to talk about my problems but somehow timothy sng and daniel fu tagged along as they thought it was open for all but i cant blame them as well la they dunno and they probably never will unless some smart alec directs them here.......so i didnt get to have the personal time with titus to talk out my problems and reservations.........well mayb some other time man........man its so hard to find time to talk to both my good frens lol.........in the meantime all i can do is try and get by with God's help.....and honestly jus try to get by la.........it can get quite low in camp alot of the times........then the normal sunday nite book in sighs.........i really dread leaving the house at times like these...........MORE RECENT STUFFp.s. notice the date of this post.....when i POP-ed from the skool of armour camp at sungei gedong, i felt so happy lol, i was at an ultimate low when i there, partly because of some of the frends there.........quite a few are f-ed up la (im sorry i dunnno wad other way to describe them), some are backstabbers, some jus cant be bothered to do anything, some are jus i dunno how to describe except f-ed up.........it pretty much covers and most adequately describes them la.........i must say it was very hard for me to find ppl i could talk to in AISL.......i really couldnt stand my bed buddy la, normally in the saf ur bed buddy is supposed to be the one person u are able to talk to even if u cant talk to any other ppl.......he is supposed to be your best fren.......but my bed buddy and i, i can never forget him..........to say he is f-ed up is quite an understatement.........i really hated him......really i dun hate ppl easily but he is a totally different issue........he jus cant keep his mouth shut........he always comments on the things dat i do and i mean always.........drives me crazy, cos some of the things i do are not even very serious compared to wad he does, his attitude is like if he can siam he will siam and try his best not to do ANYTHING at all.......and he has the cheek to talk about my actions!!! cant stand it, he is part of the reason y i was so happy to POP.........oh ya and i can hardly talk to the rest of my section as in the honest kind of way cos the way they all think is quite different and they think of way more perverted and wad not stuff......
anyway now things are slightly different now......having POP-ed and all, the problems inside are still there......its the co-existing with some of the f-ed up ppl now dat i still face.......at least now as a sgt i get more freedom to go to the canteen, mess and stuff like dat.........luckily im not in direct contact with the f-ed up personnel, as in im in a seperate bunk with one of old AISL my section mates dat is quite a good fren.........but of course they expect a higher standard of discipline from all of us and all........well i'll update more on dat next time la..........
yeah i guess its been awhile since my blog actually published its last post........i'd say dat actually MOST of the time i dun have much time to spend outside of camp to actually have time to blog much, considering dat i come book out from camp on friday and i normally reach home about 8 plus or nineish.....sleep in on saturday (cos dats the only day i can do so) and then go for yf........then sunday i go for the 1030am service (with the once in awhile of me making it for my ag in the morning [i will try to go more often tho since im caught up with helping the little cute children for beginners every sunday for now until march or april])....then after dat its floorball for me until 4 or 430pm....after dat, by the time i get home, its already like 5 plus like dat, so i hardly hav much time to blog then since i will go bathe and get ready to go for dinner, pack my bag for camp all dat cause i normally havta book into camp by 2200hrs, so i will have to leave from dinner,probably early (which i really hate for some reason) cause my parents and i dun want me to be late (cause i run the risk of getting confined or other regimental punishments, which i have not gotten so far because even tho i have been bordering on the line of lateness many atimes, God has been gracious and good to provide chances for me to slip by without incident, but of course i will not take my chances for granted....)wa dat was quite a mouthful to say all at once......but it more or less sums up every weekend of mine dat i go thru........the only things dat change are the things dat happen during the week, how i feel each sunday and how i relate to ppl i guess......i cant really think of wad i originally wanted to post for today ready........oh wells i guess i should turn in to bed soon so i can wake up fresh and early for service later so yeah good nite, will post more later if i remember and if i have the time....
