this is agonizing

haiz i still haven finish all my drawings yet.......haiz.....im beginning to not like drawing cos of the setting dat i havta draw stuff to pass up lol......mayb if i could draw at my own pace it would be much betta la....heyy mayboo sorry u had to get involved in this too....and sorry i didnt draw u dat well haha i admit i cant draw humans i guess.......i think i draw non-living things much betta lol......

haiz my teacher is quite nice la...even though today is like the last day to pass up everything, she gave me until tml to hand in to her for her to mark lol..........good i can go and complete it after dis......i will get it done by tml.....and mayb i can get extra marks for my sketch book if i draw a few more drawings......

ok la i already destress in skool so yeah......i played cs with my fren and bots in skool, i so owned him lol.....like more than 2 times his frag lol......so i will onli play after i complete my work lol.......later la i guess..........and i can be able to play guitar too.......now i will go and bathe and then go complete drawing my stuff lol........

hmm i seem to be shying away from talking to much ppl on msn lol mayb because i dunno wad to talkabout with them or mayb i dun normally talk to them if at all.....i mean like deleting some of my contacts came to my mind la but i felt like i was very bad like dat and if i deleted them, i might be the onli christian in their lives, if i delete them they might be like condemned cos of me (christians would get wad i mean lol)......and i also will be blamed for not assuming my responsibility to tell them the good news lol.........mayb its jus me la........if im not close to a person i wont really talk? and also dun really noe wad to talk i guess.......i remember a time when i could talk to ppl i didnt talk to before on msn la.......like jus talking crazy stuff (as always).....

hmm am i becoming anti-social? not onli on msn, in skool and everywhere else where i come into contact with non-christians........i mean i cannot think a non-christian dat is my good fren in dat sense lol......all my good frens are christians.......i feel wierd with SOME of my non-christian frens, like i dun belong in their clique talking to them, i dun share their ideals and dirty-mindedness........i dunno oso la......how come i feel so so distant from my non-christian frens......i sorta noe sumwhere in the depths of thot dat i should be telling them about the good news.......granted i MAY NOT be "required of God" or able to reach out to all of them (of cos if i could dat would be great).......i mean how to tell them about the gospel if we dun even noe each other well enough? hmm.....its always been a challenge to me......i guess i willl havta continue trying and starting with those whom i am in closer contact with, meaning more than jus an aqquaintance or hi bye fren dat kind la......i guess i will stop posting here, mayb i go and practice my guitar or sumtin.....my dad is holding up the bathroom so i cant bathe jus as yet......i WILL be able to play "I want to praise you Lord" (a song in my youth fellowship chordbook).....its sucha nice song lol...ok haha my dad jus got out so i guess guitar will be later in the morning with my room door closed, i tend to do dat quite alot these days lol.......mad man, not good for health to sleep so late =| ok im done....till next confide.....

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