walao very pek cheak man.....crazy man......i almost drove myself crazy TRYING (the keyword here is trying) to finish ONE ONE pathetic piece of drawing la....and the main thing is that i haven finished it yet despite spending the whole day drawing it lol.....pek cheak i onli finish drawing the stupid cover of the camera and a very little bit of the lens...(i may seem very calm here but actually im not really at all.....)
my mom has been nagging me the whole day.....her voice jus makes things worst lol.....haiz i quarrelled with my dad yesterday...........
in short he scolded me for using the internet too long and it even led to me talking nonsense on msn dat kinda thing, he also asserted his authority and everything, i jus felt like punching dat face i call dad lol, does he even care about me or my feelings or not? so old fashioned, im like dying in this house..... haiz i didnt do anything la, at least i dun dare to dat stage yet.......i prayed and really cried out to God about it lol, it hurt so much.......but the comfort He gave me was so much betta.....it would be easier if my family understood me perfectly.....then there would be peace and harmony and mostly love within the family........and my dad oso said sumtin like its getting harder to talk to me and all.....i agree y do i even bother to tell them stuff like lets say i got work to do? so dat they can go on and on nagging me to do things when i've already planned when i will do them.....y cant they jus trust my judgement?
today he said dat these few days i'm talking more and more rudely...i've jus been very irritated but i've jus been more honest onli with the way they (my parents) treat me without caring for my feelings.....haiz y cant they understand? y cant i hav a perfect family? haiz i havta keep my post short cos im rushing to watch LOST........my mom wont allow me to watch
*rolls eyes, she finally allowed me to watch the tele and blog at the same time....i dun understand y she wants to purposely watch her VCD!! (did i mention she didnt even ask? she jus changed the channel lol her reasoning (DEMANDINGLY) is dat she washes my clothes and dat she co-owns this house dats y she has the rite to do wadever she wants)*
i watched LOST abit here abit there la........im quite frustruated in general lol....so many things happening or deadlining to happen in my life lol on top of dat i still hav family problems....how i wish i had lotsa free time to get everything done lol haiz.....i felt like running away from home and probably like living under a bridge or sumtin and then earn my own money every month lol.....this place i call home is becoming lesser and lesser the best place to be.....well i dun think dat my home is not comfortable enough but i feel the atmosphere and the relationship within the family is far from desirable....its painful to carry on trying lol....mayb i jus havta keep on trying to make it betta la......i guess i havta speak up even though it mayb painful but its betta than getting hurt time and again by the same nagging and things they dun understand lol HAIZZZZ......i've given up on drawing for the nite......i dun wanna touch or see a pencil or a camera for awhile lol.....sigh i think i will go do my own worship again......worshipping God your own way really does uplift ur spirits haiz.....good nite all thank you so much for being a listening ear to my ramblings......
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