firstly i jus wanna say dat i thank God for being God........sounds and seems funny jus typing or saying it out heh but im really thankful He Is (not dat He Is good or He Is bad or anything but He just Is).........
i jus thankful dat the things dat have been weighing me down a little bit has (too simply) been solved lol........mayb its turns out im not ready for it which is fine to me, at least it is an answer, instead of the many confusing thots, emotions and wad not..........my answer came from this 'little black book ... ' but im thankful for the answer at long last...........
rite now i dun really noe wad to think about quite seriously.......cause the past few months i've been thinking about this and mayb pondering over it but now dat the problems has more or less been solved, i really dunno wad to do in my spare cognitive processing time.......almost quite literally i dunno wad to think and ponder about heh........mayb its a good thing to remain thot free and stuff like dat...........when i observe little children, i am jus so amazed with their innocence, their trust of you, an almost total stranger, the way they think, so pure and simple........i jus enjoy being in contact with them, makes me rethink the way i approach alot of things.........
recently, in the daily bread QT, i think the recurring theme (or at least the thing dat sticks in my mind) is about trusting God even though ur life may be in the midst of a storm and stuff like dat
.......seems quite encouraging to me.......well i actually remember today's QT, something about planning for the future and stuff like dat...... being flexible yes! haha......being flexible to God's plans.............actually i confess dat i am really at a loss whether i would go into uni or not, i dunno wad i would do there, whether i would enjoy it or not, wad would "happen" there etc.....but i feel quite happy dat it is all in God's hands and i jus havta trust Him (even though it is hard for me sometimes).........i need to grow a bigger spiritual heart, a heart dat longs more for my God then after dat a heart dat longs for better relationships with family and frens and everything else...........
digressing abit, i haven been really listening to christian music (even though i noe dat is the best to keep ur moods uplifted and stay there as long as ur listening to it) cause my christian 'collection of songs' is jus quite messy cause i once had a mentality dat christian songs are meant to be kept and listened to whether u like it or not, as long as they are songs very rich in meaning..........actually its not really jus cause my christian collection is messy, its the comparison thing la, i mean i sorted out my secular songs in my mp3 player and i must say i really enjoy it lol..........so its mainly cause my secular songs are too much like a serenade dat i seem to enjoy listening to secular songs more than most boring christian songs now.........by 'boring christian songs' i mean those slow, and some of them the singers i dunno how to comment lol quite jialat la....in short its those songs dat u hear, when ur not really happy, after listening to the song u feel more or less the same or even worst lol cause the song is good at other times but its jus the wrong kind song(s) at dat time lol............
of course christian songs are not as fanciful and wad not in terms of the instruments used, all the little frills here and there etc, as secular songs lol........cause for christian songs, the focus is more on God and not the instruments.............but sometimes i ponder on sumtin daryl said to me sometime ago, i tend to disagree to this statement.......but is the current generation really a generation dat cannot live without faster rhythm and more lively music -- even in christian music? i think about it for myself first and wonder if i have subconsciously followed in the world's footsteps without really ever realising it........is zion gearing more towards dat direction cause the youths simply have a different need? a need for more livelier songs to keep abreast with the world? i guess there is nothing wrong with livelier songs as long as the focus is on God lol......but then after dat, the question is how lively to go? how far till the liveliness turns from God-centered to being centered on man? i guess these questions are not easy to be answered........
oh yeah i forgot sumtin..........hmm can i ask who would be willing to pray for me EVERYDAY when i go into NS? not so much dat i have any prayer requests or not but i jus wanna noe (for certain reasons) if any of you would.........actually to be honest, i was looking for more of the female responses but i guess both genders oso can.......
anyway i think dats enough for me for the nite, so much for wanting to post a short post before i had an early nite......oh wells goodnite.com....
reply to tag:
eleanor ho: hurhur good lol......aiyo small thing like dat oso worry quite ait
ah......dots
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Friday, June 29
Monday, June 25
Hosanna – Paul Baloche
Hosanna – Paul Baloche
Praise is rising, eyes are turning to You, we turn to You
Hope is stirring, hearts are yearning for You, we long for You
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away
CHORUS
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus
Hear the sound of hearts returning to You, we turn to You
In Your Kingdom broken lives are made new, You make us new
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away
CHORUS
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away
'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day
In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away
CHORUS
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises
Ho- san- na, ho- sanna
Come have Your way among us
We welcome You here, Lord Jesus
(Repeat)
Ho- san- na, ho- san- na
Ho- san- na, ho- san- na
this was a song timothy sng, marcus sng's brother uploaded onto my ag website......nice man i was looking for this song for awhile since zhi wen introduced it.........now i can hear it!!! nice man.....
okk replies to tags:
jon lee : ok im glad there's no offence taken.......hmm i shall not reply much to ur comment.........its not about enlistment.....im not worried about enlistment at all.......the date is 13th july......
crystal: erhm i dunno how to reply u oso......nvm forget about it........heh
eleanor ho: i guess u already have ur answer....but i still think u should give to the person u first thot of when u bought it......hint hint to ur darling heh........up to u la..........hah
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Thursday, June 21
some retail therapy
im going to sleep soon so im going to make this quite short heh........today i went out with shermaine to bugis haha....i was late cos i slept too late yesterday i think so today i will sleep early and let my body get some good rest.........
before having retail therapy, i met shermaine like 20 mins late but since she got there quite early, was more late then not haha.........anyway we had lunch at macs, nothing special, except dat shermaine didnt eat her fries and i so cleverly upsized my (student) meal (shermaine used her student pass for both of us heh) and like before dat, i bought 3 small brownies from the four leaves at bugis........i must say their small brownies look so much more appetising than their big ones, one look i can tell the big one is not very nice, recently i think i have eaten enough brownies to noe heh, if the top of the brownie is very chocolatey and soft, eating the brownie will most probably be very messy and the bottom parts will not be too nice cos its either too wet or rather too dry heh......
yeah so i ate one of the 3 brownies and for lunch i had ALOT of fries la cos shermaine didnt eat her fries la then end up i brought back almost all of the pack of fries dat i so smartly upsized home to share with my brothers.....lol at least i got a bigger drink lol.......so we went shopping at bugis street the market there after dat...........i think we spent a suprising amount of time walking around and looking at bags along the same alley la........
actually i was more the one looking for a bag and mayb a watch, shermaine was jus tagging along to see if she had any of the same things in mind as well........well i think my theme today was to buy green stuff haha.....i wanted to buy (ideally) a green bag, like the colour sumtin like those crumpler bags but they are expensive i noe so i was hoping to find a greeen colour bag dat i fancied there heh........i couldnt find the colour and type dat i wanted so in the end i paid $30 for a green denim kinda bag, dunno how to describe it but i think its nice and i think it can last..........shermaine saw a bag dat she wanted to buy, its sorta like a handbag but quite deep, she says she wants to use it for skool but i really think it doesnt suit her lol cos its and its $40 lol
before dat i was looking to buy a green kinda watch, one dat looks like a fake adidas watch except the colour is not in the adidas range hurhur.....ideally i would want to get the colour matthew and jieren have la, i think dats nice man but i dunno where to find dat colour, and not like pay 100+ for a watch i dun really need.....i saw this dirty green colour 'fake adidas watch' the last time i went bugis with jasmine so i was jus looking to get it for fun la, not cos i needed a watch.......i have like 3 already haha......one metal, one with the cracked glass dat i normally wear and my supposedly ns watch which i jus got the batt replaced lol but i think dat strap is too short lol........lol so i found the green watch i was looking for and i hung onto it for quite awhile cos shermaine was taking such a long time to decide on a watch to buy lol.....she was deciding between a watch dat was the brand kevin (haha, so coincedental serene's brother who happens to be sher's god-brother) and some other brand la.........end up she got the other brand one cod it was easier to read the time and oso cos the watch brand wasnt kevin haha! but i still think the kevin one not bad wad, quite style and different as well haha..........
haha im quite satisfied with my purchases today heh....next time when there is time i will blog wad i can remember about all the camps that have passed i.e. childrens camp, youth retreat (for bishan) and church camp haha.......remind me to blog about them if u wish to read about them heh........
replies to tag before i go to bed:
eleanor ho: haha wad gender confused? u are ah? so sad for u hurhur.......up to u la.......im jus the willing receiver...if dun have anything oso im ok with it haha.......lol ur maggie mee complaining ready, now ur the one in hot soup! HAHAHA!!!
maggie mee: haha lol........ur her best best fren in the soup leh, how can she leave u in the lurch without anything? haha she will confirm get u wann la, if not at most i share my chocolate factory dat she buys me back with u la HAHAHA......
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before having retail therapy, i met shermaine like 20 mins late but since she got there quite early, was more late then not haha.........anyway we had lunch at macs, nothing special, except dat shermaine didnt eat her fries and i so cleverly upsized my (student) meal (shermaine used her student pass for both of us heh) and like before dat, i bought 3 small brownies from the four leaves at bugis........i must say their small brownies look so much more appetising than their big ones, one look i can tell the big one is not very nice, recently i think i have eaten enough brownies to noe heh, if the top of the brownie is very chocolatey and soft, eating the brownie will most probably be very messy and the bottom parts will not be too nice cos its either too wet or rather too dry heh......
yeah so i ate one of the 3 brownies and for lunch i had ALOT of fries la cos shermaine didnt eat her fries la then end up i brought back almost all of the pack of fries dat i so smartly upsized home to share with my brothers.....lol at least i got a bigger drink lol.......so we went shopping at bugis street the market there after dat...........i think we spent a suprising amount of time walking around and looking at bags along the same alley la........
actually i was more the one looking for a bag and mayb a watch, shermaine was jus tagging along to see if she had any of the same things in mind as well........well i think my theme today was to buy green stuff haha.....i wanted to buy (ideally) a green bag, like the colour sumtin like those crumpler bags but they are expensive i noe so i was hoping to find a greeen colour bag dat i fancied there heh........i couldnt find the colour and type dat i wanted so in the end i paid $30 for a green denim kinda bag, dunno how to describe it but i think its nice and i think it can last..........shermaine saw a bag dat she wanted to buy, its sorta like a handbag but quite deep, she says she wants to use it for skool but i really think it doesnt suit her lol cos its and its $40 lol
before dat i was looking to buy a green kinda watch, one dat looks like a fake adidas watch except the colour is not in the adidas range hurhur.....ideally i would want to get the colour matthew and jieren have la, i think dats nice man but i dunno where to find dat colour, and not like pay 100+ for a watch i dun really need.....i saw this dirty green colour 'fake adidas watch' the last time i went bugis with jasmine so i was jus looking to get it for fun la, not cos i needed a watch.......i have like 3 already haha......one metal, one with the cracked glass dat i normally wear and my supposedly ns watch which i jus got the batt replaced lol but i think dat strap is too short lol........lol so i found the green watch i was looking for and i hung onto it for quite awhile cos shermaine was taking such a long time to decide on a watch to buy lol.....she was deciding between a watch dat was the brand kevin (haha, so coincedental serene's brother who happens to be sher's god-brother) and some other brand la.........end up she got the other brand one cod it was easier to read the time and oso cos the watch brand wasnt kevin haha! but i still think the kevin one not bad wad, quite style and different as well haha..........
haha im quite satisfied with my purchases today heh....next time when there is time i will blog wad i can remember about all the camps that have passed i.e. childrens camp, youth retreat (for bishan) and church camp haha.......remind me to blog about them if u wish to read about them heh........
replies to tag before i go to bed:
eleanor ho: haha wad gender confused? u are ah? so sad for u hurhur.......up to u la.......im jus the willing receiver...if dun have anything oso im ok with it haha.......lol ur maggie mee complaining ready, now ur the one in hot soup! HAHAHA!!!
maggie mee: haha lol........ur her best best fren in the soup leh, how can she leave u in the lurch without anything? haha she will confirm get u wann la, if not at most i share my chocolate factory dat she buys me back with u la HAHAHA......
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Tuesday, June 19
i think a reply is at hand
hurhur i think my blog is quite stagnant for awhile.......soon it will be one month of stagnance haha......im tired so i will jus make it quick........not much of an update but yeah i think its either too much or nothing much to update about for now......next time then i see how la.........
replies to tags:
jon chua: i guess ur the first to tag since i last replied so there i'll reply u first.......i dunno about the slowly it'll get easier to open up thing but i trust that God will work what He wills in my life......
jon lee: i got nothing else to say except ur a bucket man jon.......thanks for letting me noe about the finding christian frens in ns and all......to be really honest i didnt really appreciate the comments after the graduation bit, so lest i say anything i would regret, im jus not going to reply to dat.......like aunty esther would say (i've heard her say this like countless times even tho i jus gotten to know her thru childrens camp and all) "i'm very transparent about my life........."
......well in my case im jus transparent with u here......i hope u appreciate my frankness.....
kenji: no la u think too highly of me la seriously.........this is not really the most honest things i can shared, there's still alot to be shared, things i might or might not want ppl to know......
autobiography im not too sure about it la but see how la =) (you should feel happy, im asking so many ppl to refer to my reply to ur tag la hahah)
GOLDIE: haha hi, nice to see you at church camp......stay cheerful heh
april and jon lee: refer to my reply to kenji's tag about the honesty bit heh, sorry abit lazy to type it so many times, my apologies..........thanks for the comment about childrens camp, i dun think its been any of my efforts to control them.......i really think its God dat worked in the kids really, looking back i think could not have almost single-handedly (of course there was my partner abel) make the children listen and follow our instructions esp on stage for the skit (super last min) everything.......all glory be to God!! =D
eleanor ho: lol i thot i wont be able to see you before i go into ns but i guess u proved me wrong heh......ok u promise ah haha i feel so thick-skinned.....get me really good food as well HaHaHa.......no la im not so thick-skinned.......up to u to get whatever u want la......im jus the willing receiver hahahaha........take care of urself over there k?
rachel yeo: Hello! thanks for dropping by! i didnt noe u knew my blog add and dat u come to read haha...thanks for tagging anyways........
gayle: haha its really funny meh.......oh refer to my reply to kenji's tag about the honesty thingy as well can? haha sorry to u as well cos im lazy to retype many things..........
hmm about being passionate about prayer i think deep in my heart i wont say i was passionate about it....it was more like i needed to get honest with myself and God (who actually doesnt need me to tell Him anything cos He knows everything).......and the graveyard shift mayb it was a good thing to me at least dat u didnt come heh for some reasons unknown to u haha (i cant really say cos i wann keep this to myself and hold onto it as a reminder of the time i spent alone with God in dat room)......dun worry about it.....i think spending dat 5 tiring hours in the prayer room was sumtin dat God impressed upon my heart to go 'with or without you' <-- HAHAHA......you meaning frens and all so yeah =) although i cant really put my finger on it, i feel i've really been blessed by the time spent in the prayer room on hindsight.........there's always opportunities to pray, make time haha..........
this is a note to some ppl -- to some ppl who come to read my blog or at least know about it, when u do come across it, i hope dat you will come across this note.........to all those who have been treating me so well, especially some attached (and some non-attached) ones, this may sound silly cos there are some of u i feeel might be 'possibilities of more than furtherness' (i'll jus leave it at dat without explaining, i know who you are can can ready), can you all not treat me so well? i find its really tough for me cos i feel i'm in a very emotionally needy time now and you ppl treating me so nicely makes me feel desperate and many other things lol =| yeah i sometimes wish i could tell it to each of you honestly but dat would be so hard, so awkward, so damaging to the frenship, so... etc........of course this IS ONLI APPLICABLE TO FEMALE BEINGS lol........wa i like this song im listening to rite now, it sounds appropriate for wad im typing, tho i didnt really pay attention to the lyrics except the "tear out my heart (listening to it again im not too sure if its eyes or heart but oh wells i jus leave it as heart for the emo purpose it serves hahaha), feed them to lions" part......the song is Five For Fighting - Two Lights.......im laughing at myself how i sound so emo and stuff, got some for moment for wad im typing everything, especially this........haha dats all from this wearied body for now.......i guess this counts as enough of an (honest) update.......
time to sleep, good nite.com
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replies to tags:
jon chua: i guess ur the first to tag since i last replied so there i'll reply u first.......i dunno about the slowly it'll get easier to open up thing but i trust that God will work what He wills in my life......
jon lee: i got nothing else to say except ur a bucket man jon.......thanks for letting me noe about the finding christian frens in ns and all......to be really honest i didnt really appreciate the comments after the graduation bit, so lest i say anything i would regret, im jus not going to reply to dat.......like aunty esther would say (i've heard her say this like countless times even tho i jus gotten to know her thru childrens camp and all) "i'm very transparent about my life........."
......well in my case im jus transparent with u here......i hope u appreciate my frankness.....
kenji: no la u think too highly of me la seriously.........this is not really the most honest things i can shared, there's still alot to be shared, things i might or might not want ppl to know......
autobiography im not too sure about it la but see how la =) (you should feel happy, im asking so many ppl to refer to my reply to ur tag la hahah)
GOLDIE: haha hi, nice to see you at church camp......stay cheerful heh
april and jon lee: refer to my reply to kenji's tag about the honesty bit heh, sorry abit lazy to type it so many times, my apologies..........thanks for the comment about childrens camp, i dun think its been any of my efforts to control them.......i really think its God dat worked in the kids really, looking back i think could not have almost single-handedly (of course there was my partner abel) make the children listen and follow our instructions esp on stage for the skit (super last min) everything.......all glory be to God!! =D
eleanor ho: lol i thot i wont be able to see you before i go into ns but i guess u proved me wrong heh......ok u promise ah haha i feel so thick-skinned.....get me really good food as well HaHaHa.......no la im not so thick-skinned.......up to u to get whatever u want la......im jus the willing receiver hahahaha........take care of urself over there k?
rachel yeo: Hello! thanks for dropping by! i didnt noe u knew my blog add and dat u come to read haha...thanks for tagging anyways........
gayle: haha its really funny meh.......oh refer to my reply to kenji's tag about the honesty thingy as well can? haha sorry to u as well cos im lazy to retype many things..........
hmm about being passionate about prayer i think deep in my heart i wont say i was passionate about it....it was more like i needed to get honest with myself and God (who actually doesnt need me to tell Him anything cos He knows everything).......and the graveyard shift mayb it was a good thing to me at least dat u didnt come heh for some reasons unknown to u haha (i cant really say cos i wann keep this to myself and hold onto it as a reminder of the time i spent alone with God in dat room)......dun worry about it.....i think spending dat 5 tiring hours in the prayer room was sumtin dat God impressed upon my heart to go 'with or without you' <-- HAHAHA......you meaning frens and all so yeah =) although i cant really put my finger on it, i feel i've really been blessed by the time spent in the prayer room on hindsight.........there's always opportunities to pray, make time haha..........
this is a note to some ppl -- to some ppl who come to read my blog or at least know about it, when u do come across it, i hope dat you will come across this note.........to all those who have been treating me so well, especially some attached (and some non-attached) ones, this may sound silly cos there are some of u i feeel might be 'possibilities of more than furtherness' (i'll jus leave it at dat without explaining, i know who you are can can ready), can you all not treat me so well? i find its really tough for me cos i feel i'm in a very emotionally needy time now and you ppl treating me so nicely makes me feel desperate and many other things lol =| yeah i sometimes wish i could tell it to each of you honestly but dat would be so hard, so awkward, so damaging to the frenship, so... etc........of course this IS ONLI APPLICABLE TO FEMALE BEINGS lol........wa i like this song im listening to rite now, it sounds appropriate for wad im typing, tho i didnt really pay attention to the lyrics except the "tear out my heart (listening to it again im not too sure if its eyes or heart but oh wells i jus leave it as heart for the emo purpose it serves hahaha), feed them to lions" part......the song is Five For Fighting - Two Lights.......im laughing at myself how i sound so emo and stuff, got some for moment for wad im typing everything, especially this........haha dats all from this wearied body for now.......i guess this counts as enough of an (honest) update.......
time to sleep, good nite.com
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