i'm glad its over, wad now?

firstly i jus wanna say dat i thank God for being God........sounds and seems funny jus typing or saying it out heh but im really thankful He Is (not dat He Is good or He Is bad or anything but He just Is).........

i jus thankful dat the things dat have been weighing me down a little bit has (too simply) been solved lol........mayb its turns out im not ready for it which is fine to me, at least it is an answer, instead of the many confusing thots, emotions and wad not..........my answer came from this 'little black book ... ' but im thankful for the answer at long last...........

rite now i dun really noe wad to think about quite seriously.......cause the past few months i've been thinking about this and mayb pondering over it but now dat the problems has more or less been solved, i really dunno wad to do in my spare cognitive processing time.......almost quite literally i dunno wad to think and ponder about heh........mayb its a good thing to remain thot free and stuff like dat...........when i observe little children, i am jus so amazed with their innocence, their trust of you, an almost total stranger, the way they think, so pure and simple........i jus enjoy being in contact with them, makes me rethink the way i approach alot of things.........

recently, in the daily bread QT, i think the recurring theme (or at least the thing dat sticks in my mind) is about trusting God even though ur life may be in the midst of a storm and stuff like dat
.......seems quite encouraging to me.......well i actually remember today's QT, something about planning for the future and stuff like dat...... being flexible yes! haha......being flexible to God's plans.............actually i confess dat i am really at a loss whether i would go into uni or not, i dunno wad i would do there, whether i would enjoy it or not, wad would "happen" there etc.....but i feel quite happy dat it is all in God's hands and i jus havta trust Him (even though it is hard for me sometimes).........i need to grow a bigger spiritual heart, a heart dat longs more for my God then after dat a heart dat longs for better relationships with family and frens and everything else...........

digressing abit, i haven been really listening to christian music (even though i noe dat is the best to keep ur moods uplifted and stay there as long as ur listening to it) cause my christian 'collection of songs' is jus quite messy cause i once had a mentality dat christian songs are meant to be kept and listened to whether u like it or not, as long as they are songs very rich in meaning..........actually its not really jus cause my christian collection is messy, its the comparison thing la, i mean i sorted out my secular songs in my mp3 player and i must say i really enjoy it lol..........so its mainly cause my secular songs are too much like a serenade dat i seem to enjoy listening to secular songs more than most boring christian songs now.........by 'boring christian songs' i mean those slow, and some of them the singers i dunno how to comment lol quite jialat la....in short its those songs dat u hear, when ur not really happy, after listening to the song u feel more or less the same or even worst lol cause the song is good at other times but its jus the wrong kind song(s) at dat time lol............

of course christian songs are not as fanciful and wad not in terms of the instruments used, all the little frills here and there etc, as secular songs lol........cause for christian songs, the focus is more on God and not the instruments.............but sometimes i ponder on sumtin daryl said to me sometime ago, i tend to disagree to this statement.......but is the current generation really a generation dat cannot live without faster rhythm and more lively music -- even in christian music? i think about it for myself first and wonder if i have subconsciously followed in the world's footsteps without really ever realising it........is zion gearing more towards dat direction cause the youths simply have a different need? a need for more livelier songs to keep abreast with the world? i guess there is nothing wrong with livelier songs as long as the focus is on God lol......but then after dat, the question is how lively to go? how far till the liveliness turns from God-centered to being centered on man? i guess these questions are not easy to be answered........

oh yeah i forgot sumtin..........hmm can i ask who would be willing to pray for me EVERYDAY when i go into NS? not so much dat i have any prayer requests or not but i jus wanna noe (for certain reasons) if any of you would.........actually to be honest, i was looking for more of the female responses but i guess both genders oso can.......

anyway i think dats enough for me for the nite, so much for wanting to post a short post before i had an early nite......oh wells goodnite.com....

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eleanor ho: hurhur good lol......aiyo small thing like dat oso worry quite ait
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