graduate lohh

first i must say i really totally forget the amount of ppl who have access to my blog, ppl who know about my blog, ppl who wont really read my blog but yet might once in a blue blue moon pop by for a read or two..........luckily i realised today dat i dun have anything to hide on my blog, i jus blog things the way they are.......thankfully i realise dat i onli blog about relatively honest stuff and the more brutally honest ones are either kept in memory or in my private blog haha........

well i had my graduation earlier today...........it was alot of fun to say the least haha..........hmm let me see if this works....i'll talk about the before graduation, the event itself and after hahaha......so chronological eh haha.......

okk before my graduation,
ella asked me quite sometime back if i could make it for an india mission trip with her, kristine koh, zhi wen and i dunno who else........i readily agreed at dat time but a few days after dat i realised my graduation ceremony was smack rite in the middle of the trip so i couldnt go and because they lacked the prerequisite of 2 guys, which was supposed to be me and zhi wen, they all couldnt go........i hated to disappoint them......then i found out dat kristine koh couldnt make it as well.....but dat didnt really exactly take away my guilt....esp when ella asked me wad i would be doing at graduation.....i replied her, collect my cert and nothing much else, cos i dun really noe........at dat time i felt like really not going for my graduation ceremony.....i knew i could pon it but i didnt noe dat a few of my frens were deciding not to go for it and then collect their diploma cert some other time.......if onli i talk to jie hao, this fren of mine from year one, earlier then i might be in india with ella, zhi wen and whoever else at this point in time ready..........i didnt bring myself to pon my graduation ceremony by the way (duh) haha.....

fast forward to something of the present or recent events,
i went out with my mom jus yesterday shopping for my graduation attire haha.......end up i bought one nice long sleeve green shirt and a shimmery dark green tie.....it felt very good heh......my shirt was bought from g2000, sounds like a expensive brand rite? haha.....got offer dats y my mom bought it, the shirt cost $37.10 after discount.......and the tie i got metro for free cos my mom had $10 metro voucher........so there my graduation attire...i duno how many times i walked to and fro between metro and isetan jus to find the rite tie, shirt etc....

well down to my feelings about the graduation event itself........at first i didnt really noe wad to expect for today..........oh yeah we all, graduands havta wear a special gown lol, and we all had to pay at least $20 plus to rent it (of course more if we wanted to buy the gown for
momento).........at first i was thinking wads so special about this graduation ceremony, must pay twenty over dollars for some gown (designed by tp design students by the way haha) summore, i should not have gone, and i should have gone to india..........haha yeah but today i can say i enjoyed myself quite abit...............i met alot of frens (mostly from my course and very small minority from other courses) whom i didnt see for a long time, and i kinda forget dat poly is a place where there are all kinds of teenagers, thin, more fleshy, short, tall, pretty, average ppl..........its a nice feeling to jus see them all again, reminded of all the times we slogged together in various settings on our projects, with almost seemingly random ppl...........i think being in poly and the same course together, jus to be the normal tp mwc graduating population together means sumtin to me, of course its better if we could all get diploma with merit and stuff like dat.....but for the general average population who is unable to get the dip with merit, jus a diploma speaks sumtin in itself dat we all have sumtin common....something normal......heh

we didnt have any rehearsal on how to walk and wad to do haha......alot of us were quite nervous and scared as our turn came nearer and nearer haha....in fact a few ppl were abit suah gu and a little bit of mistakes were made on stage haha....i guess no one from our course made any mistakes as far as i noe haha....i cant wait to get the stage photos dat i ordered from today....one close up and a full body 5r each shot for $5 i think the price is quite reasonable heh..........after the ceremony everything i walked around at the refreshments area and stuff, i saw everyone taking pictures with ppl they knew.........i dunno la, i felt abit of anti-socialness cos not say i didnt want to take photos with anybody but i would have taken with more ppl if i knew who to take pictures with or rather who i wanted to have pictures taken with and also if i had a camera dat belonged to me haha and not my mom,taking her camera would complicate things alot haaha.......

i feel it alot la (everywhere i go la), its natural la, the bottomline is u dunno dat particular person(s) dat well so since their not exactly frens ur familiar with, u cant really take pictures with them (and talk deeper to them for dat matter) and not wonder y u even did wad u did lol........its a natural thing for me to not talk or approach ppl cos i dunno them and not only dat oso becos i dunno wad to talk to them about...........

end up i happened to take a photo with my fren nai xiang (my fren with me since year one but as usual i didnt noe him very very well) and jun you (someone i knew since sec skool but not too well everything).........i didnt even noe who took the photo for us lol.....some stranger i didnt recognise........must be jun you or nai xiang's dad heh......i happened to be there cos i wanted to congratulate them on their graduation and end up nai xiang jus asked me to come in and take photo....heh i thot he asked me to take the photo for him and jun you then i turned around i realised he asked me to be in the photo lol........its like one of those times dat i was like huh? why did i do dat cause i didnt really noe them dat well......and stuff like dat la.......sometimes its an obligatory thing at times.......heh

mayb a way to explain why i dunno them dat well is cos as a christian i shouldnt participate in all the things dat they do in the world, so since i dun participate in those things they do (like lying or talking about girls and stuff, these are examples onli, jus to help ppl understand, may not be entirely true...), then i dunno them well? i dunno la mayb im jus a loner.....since young, reminising i seem to hav one thing constant in my life, dats being a loner and oso not being really close to skool frens, compared to church frens whom im really close to..............

well ok frankness aside......i oso managed to take a photo with kimberly and hui ling haha..........haha again i was there to congratulate them on the way to get a drink since they wer in front of the drinks table but end up i didnt get to do so......jus photos haha.........quite funny, cos huil ling was the one who wanted to take a photo with me haha....and i didnt have my diploma folder with me, it was with my parents at the end of the hall......so in order to take the picture, kimberly lent me her diploma folder jus to take the photo haha then after dat change over haha.....so funny heh.....ok to be honest i think i didnt really feel wierd like wad was i doing there taking photos all dat, i think its cos i noe kimberly and hui ling betta la i guess, huiling i talked to her more than i normally would cos she was in the same cross disciplinary class for freehand drawing together with me so we talked more and i got to know her betta then haha, im always amused at how she can make me smile by acting silly and talking funny things.....she is this rather short girl but the onli thing is dat she seemed to be very bubbly all the time haha......ok then kimberly was the same group with me for one of our projects, and i must say we did talk more than normally i talk with other group mates haha, i guess dats called mutual clicking........

OR mayb its cos the 2 of them are jus girls who look relatively cuter (duh, then guys definitely) HAHAHA no la dat was a joke........even if i liked them in the relationship kinda way (i dun deny dat i thot about it before, but yeah i think about it with almost everyone i meet so yeah its nothing special), i probably wouldnt let it continue cos they are not christians lol.......if they are christians then say la......or i jus rather wait for God's best choice and not settle for the potential 2nd best option......even tho 2nd best is still good everything, its jus not as good and cannot compare to the best option........so jus waiting for me now la...........i thot long and hard if i wanted to share this on a public blog but yeah everybody would noe la.........i would be lying greatly to myself alone if i were to say dat at this age and stuff, i dun think about relationships, about '"going further than being jus frens'" with ppl i noe, from the opp gender.........its the hormones and also the age that this world has come to, and also the advertisements for products which everybody knows (i hope everybody i know, knows this) are selling some other thing other than their product, like happy families, teaching a false sense of relationships all dat..........adverts are dangerous stuff when u are relaxed and not discerning to them.........haha look wad a simple post about my graduation has become.....but i'll be honest, come on poly is a place with ppl, many attractive ppl and many ppl who will spend so much to beautify themselves for dunno who to see lol......if ur in the company of many different degrees of attractive ppl, the desire to get attached gets stronger plainly for the carnal reason, simple.........i agree with wilson pang, we're all at an age dat we jus want to be liked, to fit in with ur guys frens and girl frens........enough said about dat, im sure the understanding of this topic is so common and shared..........."woah, daniel ur blog jus went up several notches in the honest category".....hurhur i dun really care la.......a blog has to serve some purpose anyway.......

i suddenly realised today dat hui ling and a few others of my skool frens have access to the url of my blog lol but as i mentioned way up on top, i dun mind cos my conscience is clear........may feel wierd for them to read a post about them or wad but yeah....i prefer the brutal honesty rather than the fake facade........was jus wondering wad else i missed out haha then i realised i promised an after of the event haha.....

well well the after event
did i mention my parents and i took cab both to and from my house to temasek poly, abit waste money cos tp is quite near to my house but on the way there was necessary cos i was holding my gown and all......on the way back we took cab cos my mom was very tired from all the walking hah.........but i guess not much difference from taking bus oso jus dat its more convenient, we onli pay about a dollar plus more than wad we would pay for the bus fare (for 3 adult cards combined)........

after the event finished, it was about 7pm like dat (it started at about 5pm or earlier).....we had (ALOT of) refreshments i jus realised, and near one of the ends there was ALOT of food there, nobody was there to touch much of the food there i dunno y oso haha.........there was noodles and siew mai, har gao, finger food, mini cream puffs, and egg tarts etc and of course drinks.......i ate abit so i was about half full after dat......after taking photos, one with mom, one with dad and one with them both, and settling all the admin stuff, we walked about one bus stop from the tp convention centre to the central bus-stop to get sumtin more to fill our stomach haha......mum super tired cos of the walking up and down the tp stairs which was quite a challenge to me when i first came to tp in year one but now im used to it cos like everyday walk up dat stairs to go to walk even more to class haha, legs strong ready haah.......

end up mom, dad and i helped to finish one plate of pineapple fried rice.......cos we werent really hungry haha........i bought a chicken cheese sausage and the 3 for a dollar tapioca cakes from the nearby passar mallam,(and one cup of bubble tea dat my frens and i used to buy when we were still in skool, when we went opp skool for meals and stuff)........the normal kind dat u find at pasar malams, very tasty meal haha.......but i had to tapao the tapioca cakes cos i didnt noe mom and dad couldnt finish the pineapple fried rice they ordered, they said it was a very big portion.........i didnt have much appetite cos i dunno y oso mayb i was thinking of stuff la.........

after getting home by cab, i played guitar for awhile in my formal attire, normally i think dat feeling is quite nice.....even tho im at home i feel the style man, formal attire and playing guitar.....if its outside even more style la but of course in church its not important la........it was quite hot in my room (mayb cos my door was closed, im in long sleeve and long pants) even with my fan blowing at me........after awhile i felt quite sian and stuff cos i was thinking about other stuff as well......i guess come ppl can guess wad i was thinking about by now jus by reading all the way to here haha.......i went to bathe and after dat i felt like posting, this is wad turned out haha.....im going to get myself a good nite's rest and oh yeah! i will remember to pray for good weather to test out the youth retreat games tml and oso for the youth retreat committee as well, before i sleep......i will and i will not sleep before i say amen, it may be tough but prayer to me is sorta like a positive obligation dat must be done if u say u will do it.......in fact everything u say oso should be carried out and u havta follow it, im still trying to keep my word when i say it (or else i dun say anything haha)........with God's strength, i will be able to keep whatever i say and say mean wad i say (at times la, not counted onli for jokes haha but yeah jokes shouldnt go too far....dats y i dun really joke with ppl i dunno, cos i dunno if they can take it or how much they can take.... .. .. ...)......time to sleep now.....goodnite.com (i decided to choose a comfortable green for reading since its such a long post heh)

oh ya ya replies to tags:

jon lee: seriously man a footlong in 5 mins? and u say u enjoy ur food in dat time? ur one kind of a bucket where ppl jus dump food into u noe.....lol if u were competing i guess it would be much worst rite? i dun understand how u can 'enjoy' good food in jus 5 mins......good food must slowly eat then u have the luxury of enjoying every bite every morsel of ur food.....no matter if im eating shark's fin or wad, whenever i eat i always take my time to enjoy my food (except when im rushing for time) haha...

crystal: haha good question........i was thinking of not going, but its still mid week so i cant really think of anything i would be doing for now to replace the time normally spent in yf (except helping out in awana which popped into my head at this point in time)...i dunno la.....if i dun have plans im most probably going to yf.....at the rate things are going i'll probably be there...haha

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i thank God for older mentors to talk to...

well yeah as i told my er sao, i dun really stay unhappy for long.............sometimes i can say dat i dun stay happy for long as well.......heh but im ok now i guess............. i talked to zhi wen about abit of the problems dat i had......y i talked to him specifically i dunno oso.........mayb its cos i really respect his fervence (pardon my spelling, i dunno if this is actually a word haha) and Godly wisdom.............i never talked to him about my problems before but i jus feel he is like a bigger brother to me at times.........but i jus noe dat wad i tell him can be kept in confidence..........(somehow i think got more to say but cos im watching the tv next to the comm, my thots are disconnected and they get lost somewhere haha..........) oh yeah im oso very encouraged by the way he lives his life and the way he knows wad he is talking about (when talking about matters pertaining to the faith and all).........i will type more when it comes to me....

and i must say i really felt much i had a good time pouring my heart out of some of my problems to him........and suprisingly he said it helped him too by listening to me about my problems as well....hmm i cant really see how it can be so lol but if he says so then ok lol..........he prayed with me after we both had a good chatbetter..........in fact im feeling the effects of talking to him even now haha.......he is jus very encouraging as well for his passion for the development of the youths in zion, powerful man...........im thinking if he has the time and if he is willing i might ask him to be one of my mentors lol......... yeah in short im ok ready haha............

some things i brought back from talking to zhi wen:

1) SERVE FROM A POSITION OF STRENGTH

2) WHEN WE ALL (2 OR 3) GATHER TOGETHER IN THE NAME OF JESUS, HE IS THERE AMONG US, AND WE ARE WHAT JESUS WOULD BE TO EVERY OTHER PERSON......

3) WE ARE ALL ONE BIG FAMILY

4) ITS BETTER TO MINISTER TO A FEW IN DEPTH THAN MINISTER TO ALOT OF PPL BUT ONLI TO A SHALLOW EXTENT

replies to tags:

jon chua: haha i myself cant tell for sure.......but i guess not rediscovering my old self la......i personally think dat is not possible.....only God knows and whatever it is He is in control la.........eh ur stomach small la......heh

maggie mee: haha thanks for tagging........mayb ur rite mayb not heh.....i dunno oso la, i dun wanna appear aloof and anti-social lol......thanks tho ;)

jon lee: hello? carl's jr oso havta open ur mouth wide to eat wann wad.........i never get a jaw ache from eating good food man......i seriously think u dunno how to enjoy good food haha.......ur not supposed to compete to see how fast u can eat a footlong lol, the joy of eating and enjoying the food is gone man! haha.....i think i could eat a footlong in 5 mins too but i dun wanna do dat hahah....subway is jus as tasty too, and more affordable heh......but still ex.....

crystal: haha actually jus the confirmation dat ur someone i know would be enough, of course i know who u are, pastor eddy's daughter or mark and gloria's sister would be more than enough heh......i'll jus call u by ur name la haha...thanks for the link, i will link u soon........

er sao: haha thank you so much, feels comforting to know ppl are praying for u........heh actually i dun really noe how to describe this feeling oso......haha u noe i appreciate it can ready.......

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children are God's gift

yeah i recently helped out in awana.......on 19th may haha so its still quite recent considering the date today heh.......it was the saturday dat jus passed.........the reason y i helped out is cos i was scheduled to be on duty by justine and shannon and herself were supposed to come to help out as well but i dunno how come no show.......justine no show is understandable cos she was bringing a fren to yf.........but my best fren andrew tan came to help, quite suprising lol, normally he would be running off to spend time with his girl fren, priscilla heh..........but i guess he had to come oso la, cos aunty audrey made him promise dat he would come if not he would owe both me and aunty audrey either $50 or $100 each lol! alot of money lol, enough to cover the new floorball blade i bought, which was $40 lol ;p

anyway awana needed extra helpers on dat day cos it was an organised outing to ang mo kio macs.............ok la.........i had to skip most of the psp (prayer, sharing and praise) session at yf to help out but i dun really regret it cos come of the children at awana were really cute! ooooh, i sound like a paedophile haha but im not one haha........i had alot of fun jus spending time with the little kids...........i think a few of the little kids were very cute, all girls heh.......boys i didnt really go and see............from the cubbies, claris and chloe (cousins), even though they can be quite mischevieous and scream quite abit at times hahaa.......then the sparks, xiao jing and xuan jing (sisters) i think haha............super guai both of them, never cause trouble wann.........but then again mayb i dun really noe them la, based on first impression onli.........

ok la all i had to do was to look after them while they were playing haha........heh i even played the swing myself besides pushing them haha.......but of course i turn the seat higher so my legs almost wont be able to touch the ground haha, i swing very high haha.......like a small kids like dat..............speaking of which i think being a small kid is a very good thing lol, ur so innocent and ur mind is so impressionable and u hardly doubt the good intentions of everybody, to me the ppl with the least of problems is the little children............hmm is this wad God meant by (paraphrased, but the meaning is there) men getting into heaven like little children or sumtin like dat..............if only i could be a little child again, then i wont be so caught up in thinking so much all dat haha..........

nothing much happened haha, im sure everyone sweat quite abit looking after the children haha......i think claris's 2 bottom teeth dropped out haha.......she even showed me the first one and put them on my hand haha......i asked her to keep it and put under her pillow heh.......

andrew and i couldnt or jus werent allowed to NOT eat anything when we went there to help haha.......i was quiet paiseh to spend whoever's money jus to eat something dat i didnt really need to order.......of cos if i really wanted to spend whoever's (i say whoever cause im not sure whose money it is, either aunty lisa's or part of the budget for awana) money, i would have ordered one darn good brownie (i dunno y, im trying all types of brownies from all kinda places, addicted to brownies i guess) and maybe a huge cup of cappucino or latte whatever, then mayb if i want another burger jus to feel satisfied.....but of course i didnt la........i only ordered a double cheese burger lol........by the way i think the double cheese burger price is quite worth it at macs lol, only $2! if im eating at macs and im not eating a evm, i would order 2 double cheese burgers and mayb i buy a drink from ntuc, not a bad meal leh heh..............andrew ordered a sundae haha.......

andrew didnt take the bus back to church, aunty lisa drove him back home (i suppose)..........i took the bus back to church and claris was making noise for me to sit at the seat in front of her the moment i got onto the bus, i finally agreed, but i think cos her brother wanted to ask me how to massage ppl then he bullied her to sit at his original seat then end up she went to the back of the bus to sit with aunty audrey heh...........then after aunty grace got down the bus at j8, i went to sit at her place which was partly facing xiao jing and xuan jing in the front of the bus........so cute and guai as usual, jus eating the leftover fries they packed from wad the awana ppl ordered for all the kids......i asked xiao jing some questions about how old they were and i found out xuan jing and another flames student and her were sisters, they dun look like the oldest sister lol haha.......and i cant believe the oldest sister is only p4 lol she looks like she is already p6 lol..........very cute, xuan jing is like one year older than xiao jing and she was like covering her sister's mouth so xiao jing would not answer my questions haha, but end up xiao jing answered without talking at all haha.............and on the bus they both asked me "why is 6 scared of 7?".......i thot for quite awhile, and i jus couldnt think of it.....the answer is "cause 7 ate 9" hahaha..........lol i was jus smiling to myself after dat lol.........how long has it been since i've heard primary skool humour lol........i cant believe myself dat i couldnt think about it haha.......

children are God's gift, i truly believe it.........i think whether cute or not, its their innocence and the way they think dat truly amazes me about them......im jus amazed by God's little creations......i will post pictures of the cute little girls at awana when i do get a chance to take pictures with them haha......

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a strange kinda feeling

blogger is back haha so is my posting page lol.......i went out and met my wife, titus for lunch today.......had quite alot of fun haha even though we jus met at carl's jr for lunch LOL.......i must say dat the carl's jr burger i ate was really quite good man.......the bacon slices were jus heavenly lol if i got money (or like wise if im short of money, i would go there to work part-time lol jus for the food, well i could work at subway as well, all for the food not so much for the pay hahaa) i would love to eat carl's jr more often lol until i have tried ALL the carl's jr burgers! ... but its jus a pity dat carl's jr burgers (and the meals) are so PRICEY!!! sian man.........if the meals and stuff at carl's jr are much cheaper, i think their business will be much much betta la (not saying their business isnt already good hahaa)...........and actually not to mention alot of ppl will be much fatter hurhur......

anyway i have a great time talking to titus today haha.......pity he had french class la if not we could have partied the whole nite away hahaha...........cant really imagine how we spent like close to 2 hrs together without really realising it......hurhur im sure anyone who has spent time before with close frens would know wad im talking about i guess...........ok i feel im blabbering on.......tsk....

ok actually cos i was watching tv and distracted with so many other thots dat i dunno wad to post about now actually.......amidst the chaos of thots i guess i would post about this strange kinda feeling i have...........i dun really noe how to describe it now but i onli noe im not exactly happy and im not exactly sad or anything..........how i wish i had a concrete feeling instead of not really feeling much of anything.........i dun mind being happy or sad cause there are ways to either stay in dat feeling or get betta in the case of being sad..............mayb its the floating feeling like im not really here or there like titus happened to mention.....come to think of it he is rite to some extent.....its like i finish skool ready but im not in ns yet.....true i got lotsa free time to do alot of thing dat i want to do but the fact of the matter is im still floating, waiting for ns to come..........my parents dunno it but i kinda regret not starting to work about 2 months ago.........if i started working then mayb i would have more money to spend and not to mention more money to 'give to God's work' (much as i hate to admit it sometimes, my dad is partly rite on this if this was his intent of telling me dat.......) to me its for offering, i dunno wad else he meant...........

i feel this loneliness mayb? if dats a way of describing it...........i dunno la.......words fail me at this point in time........i can onli say wad im sure of..........hmm i feel as if the ppl i can talk to are getting smaller and smaller by the circumstances and many other stuff i cant really stop or explain..........(woah it feels like its not the first time saying this, kinda like deja vu....) i have come to accept it as a fact dat frens, even ur bestest frens have to be shared, especially in a setting like church or yf etc, in fact most settings frens have to be shared (i think) in terms of time spent with them, care from them, opportunities to talk etc........im jus shooting off my head some examples......(im physically and mentally tired now, mayb i cant really think dat straight now....haiz)......i dun blame anyone for dat happening cos its natural, we all onli have this much time to spend on who we choose hahah.......im jus contemplating wad i should i do now...........like sometimes in settings esp social settings i feel abit prone to mayb either not really try talking to ppl i jus noe (by face and name only, nothing much else dat kind), talk to ppl i CAN talk to (of cos frens havta be shared.....), or jus shy myself away and do more thinking or whatever i like to do when im alone, is dat counted as anti-social? haha......i dunno anymore.........

in fact i feel as if i dunno myself anymore, seen my msn nick personal msg? HAHA dats quite how i feel now...........i dunno how daniel lee would react to things already, its like daniel lee feels very different......(heh this is the first time im actually mentioning my own name on my blog haha feels kinda wierd).......daniel lee doesnt know daniel lee anymore? interesting.....is the daniel lee danlee used to know a friendly person? if so y is daniel lee feeling like shying away from crowds and ppl he does not know so well? in some sense not going out of my home seems a safe enough facade for me, jus carrying on my 'usual routine' waking late, watching tv, watching shows on the comm, occasionally playing the guitar and packing my room................arre the other things dat i do jus a social, moral (etc) obligations?????? lol

i wish i had answers, alot of answers from my Heavenly Father......rite now alot of things are jus maybeS and speculations stuff....haiz.............

"..................not forsaking the assembling of yourselves as some is.........." (mumbles) taken from somewhere in the new testament of the bible.........its jus abit of wad im thinking about.....go figure heh...........enough rambling "......" time to say good nite......

reply to tag:

Crystal: erhm hi.....are u pastor eddy's daughter? dats the only crystal i remember (there's another crystal by the same spelling dat replied me about audio blogging but i dun think dats u hahaha).........u have a blog too? how did u find my blog? haha.......take care till next time u pop by ;)

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nothing much to post about, but im jus happy

haha i dunno y la but today for the first time, i feel very much betta than when i normally go to floorball trainings......mayb its cos most of the time i have very little or no sleep (like today, dats the strangest thing) AND normally i oso bring alot of troubles on my mind when coming to the court..........

today even though i didnt have much sleep and all (i feel i didnt sleep at all la, super tired now)........i felt happy coming to play floorball this morning.........we all had great game(S) haha we played 2 on 2 on 2 haha, one goal sub out........winner in loser out haha, we ended up playing about close to 50 games hahaha......shiok la..........and i think i played well partnering with kin yip today, both of us scored quite a few haha, close to the leaders terence and marcus......heh i think terence and marcus, terence scored all or most of the goals at least.........

one more thing on feeling happy and mayb staying happy at least..........its like everything else seemed to fit in really well and everything, quite nice.....i felt very good the whole day today......i guess the choice to stay happy instead of focusing on being down can be quite uplifting HAHAHA! anyway yeah i had a great time today, and i sub consciously realised i smiled more to ppl in general today and after the bgr talk and all i was abit crazy with alethia hahaha, i think its been a long time since i done dat to anyone in particular hahaha, enjoyed dat quite abit haha......

after dat was the worship session for the acm was going to start at 630pm.....haha after staying for dat, they wanted to start the acm at 730pm i think but then the quorum not met yet so they said they wanted to wait 30 mins.....then i so smart i didnt want to wait around for (what i thot was) nothing, so i went out with andrew tan and went for dinner behind church....aoh the beef ee mee was so good la, its a pity i had to rush my meal to (try) get back in time for the acm haha....but they took aliittle longer than i expected to cook the food haha so end up i was late going back for acm, i ate very fast tho (i think)...........anyway by the time i got back they all already submitted their votes ready haha.......zhi wen submitted my empty voting slip cos he thot i had already completed it haha....oh wells jus a difference of one vote........andrew managed to submit his vote cos he didnt ask anyone to keep his slip for him haha so he jus left it on the seat and walked out, then when he come back, jus nice to complete and submit the vote to deacon jeffery....lol......ok im tired, dats all for now i guess........time to bathe and go to sleep.......

reply to tags:

jon chua: haha lol i think dats onli applicable for female dip studs who dun go to uni lol....for ns liable guys i guess we'll be obselete for 2 years ......etc...yeah man i didnt noe rock and roll was so jialat.......

sandra: hey u have a new blog? u want me to relink u? haha let me noe k?

jonlee: haha ur watching the same season as tv? i think cannot be its not out on dvd yet in singapore.....onli the previous season is out haha....oh yeah if ur cousin happens to have lost 1, 2, 3 and the show '24' or 'house' hahaha i am quite interested to watch hahaha............or even prison break season 3, dying for dat hahaha......if have then can lend me? haha....lol less common fields then its not worth mentioning lol, i dunno if i can even get into dat kinda fields......i dun even noe wad i wanna do.......hmm but i guess not all la, those who lose themselves to good music is good wad i think..........

goldie: heyy how have u been freshie? hahah.......i freezed u today hahaha........i will reply more next time....or when i next visit ur blog....

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rock and roll -- the devil's music?

this was an email sent to me by serene........

ROCK MUSICIANS AS MEDIUMS

Updated April 19, 2007 (last updated January 2, 2002; first published June 16, 2001) (David
Cloud, Fundamental Baptist Information Service, P.O. Box 610368, Port Huron, MI 48061,
866-295-4143, fbns@wayoflife.org;

In the following statements, rock musicians testify of an outside power that has taken over them while writing and performing rock music. Some of them have actually identified this power as demonic:

JIMI HENDRIX' girlfriend, Fayne Pridgon, said: "He used to always talk about some devil or something was in him, you know. He didn't know what made him act the way he acted and what made him say the things he said, and the songs and different things like that © just came out of him. It seems to me he was so tormented and just torn apart and like he really was obsessed, you know, with something really evil" (sound track from film Jimi Hendrix, interview with Fayne Pridgon, side 4, cited by Heartbeat of the Dragon, p. 50).

"In the end you have to look at a song and not know exactly where it came from" (BRUCE
SPRINGSTEIN, Dateline, Dec. 14, 1998).

Robert Plant and Jimmy Page of LED ZEPPELIN both claim that they don't know who wrote their occultic song Stairway to Heaven. Plant testified: "Pagey had written the chords and played them for me. I was holding the paper and pencil, and for some reason, I was in a very bad mood. Then all of a sudden my hand was writing out words. © I just sat there and looked at the words and then I almost leaped out of my seat" (Robert Plant, quoted by Stephen Davis, Hammer of the Gods, p. 164).

"I've always considered that there was some way where we were able to channel energy, and that energy was able to be, from another source, if you like, like a higher power or something, that was actually doing the work. I've often thought of us just being actually just the earthly beings that played the music because it was uncanny. Some of this music came out extremely uncanny" (Bill Ward of BLACK SABBATH, cited in Black Sabbath An Oral History, p. 7).

"It's amazing, 'cause sometimes when we're on stage, I feel like somebody's just moving the
pieces. ... I'm just going, 'God, we don't have any control over this.' And that's magic" (Stevie
Nicks of FLEETWOOD MAC, Circus, April 14, 1971).

ANGUS YOUNG, lead guitarist for AC-DC, is called the "guitar demon"; and he admitted that something takes control of the band during their concerts: "... it's like I'm on automatic pilot.
By the time we're halfway through the first number someone else is steering me. I'm just
along for the ride. I become possessed when I get on stage" (Hit Parader, July 1985, p. 60).

"We receive our songs by inspiration, like at a seance" (Keith Richards of the ROLLING STONES, Rolling Stone, May 5, 1977, p. 55).

"I was directed and commanded by another power. The power of darkness ... that a lot of people don't believe exists. The power of the Devil. Satan" (LITTLE RICHARD, cited by Charles White, The Life and Times of Little Richard, p. 206).

"You can't describe it [playing rock music] except to say it's like a mysterious energy that comes from the metaphysical plane and into my body. It's almost like being a medium...." (Marc Storace, vocalist with heavy-metal band KROKUS, Circus, January 31, 1984, p. 70).

"They [The Beatles] were like mediums. They weren't conscious of all they were saying, but it was coming through them" (YOKO ONO, The Playboy Interviews with John Lennon and Yoko Ono, Berkeley, 1982, p. 106.).

"[Of his music JOHN LENNON said] "It's like being possessed: like a psychic or a medium" (The Playboy Interviews, p. 203).

"It's amazing that it [the tune to 'In My Life'] just came to me in a dream. That's why I don't
profess to know anything. I think music is very mystical" (John Lennon, quoted in "The Beatles Come Together," Reader's Digest, March 2001).

"I felt like a hollow temple filled with many spirits, each one passing through me, each
inhabiting me for a little time and then leaving to be replaced by another" (John Lennon, People, Aug. 22, 1988, p. 70).

"When the real music comes to me, it has nothing to do with me 'cause I'm just a channel. It's given to me and I transcribe it" (John Lennon, quoted by Mickey Hart, Spirit into Sound: The Magic of Music, p. 134).

"The music to 'Yesterday' came in a dream. The tune just came complete. You have to believe in magic. I can't read or write music" (PAUL MCCARTNEY, interview on Larry King Live, CNN, June 12, 2001).

"I wake up from dreams and go 'Wow, put this down on paper,' the whole thing is strange. You hear the words, everything is right there in front of your face. I feel that somewhere, someplace it's been done and I'm just a courier bringing it into the world" (MICHAEL JACKSON, Rolling Stone, Feb. 17, 1983).

"When I hit the stage it's all of a sudden a 'magic' from somewhere that comes and the spirit
just hits you, and you just lose control of yourself" (Michael Jackson, Teen Beat: A Tribute
to Michael Jackson, Summer 1984, p. 27).

"A lot of the songs were written in 15-30 minutes, very stream-of-consciousness, as though
it was being channeled through us" (Alanis Morissette, quoted from Hells Bells2 by Eric Holmberg).

"When the Siberian shaman gets ready to go into his trance, all the villagers get together... and play whatever instruments they have to send him off [into trance and possession]. © It was the same way with The Doors when we played in concert... I think that our drug experience let us get into it... [the trance state] quicker.... It was like Jim [Morrison] was an electric shaman and we were the electric shaman's band, pounding away behind him. Sometimes he wouldn't feel like getting into the state, but the band would keep on pounding and pounding, and little by little it would take him over. God, I could send an electric shock through him with the organ. John could do it with his drumbeats" (DOORS keyboardist Ray Manzarek, cited by Jerry Hopkins and Daniel Sugerman, No One Here Gets Out Alive, pp. 158-60).

"That certain feeling happened to me in a big way quite often with the first King Crimson. Amazing things would happen--I mean, telepathy, qualities of energy, things that I had never experienced before with music © you can't tell whether the music is playing the musician or the musician is playing the music" (Robert Fripp, guitarist for KING CRIMSON, Down Beat, June 1985, p. 61).

"I believe inspiration comes through me and that I channel it" (Jim Kerr, SIMPLE MINDS, cited by Steve Turner, Hungry for Heaven, p. 147).

John McLaughlin, leader of MAHAVISHNU ORCHESTRA, testified: "One night we were playing and suddenly the spirit entered into me, and I was playing, but it was no longer me playing" (The Rock Report, p. 58).

Glen Tipton of JUDAS PRIEST says, "I just go crazy when I go onstage © it's like someone else takes over my body" (Hit Parader, Fall 1984, p. 6).

In 1974, JONI MITCHELL told the press of a male spirit who helps her write music. "Joni Mitchell credits her creative powers to a 'male muse' she identifies as Art. He has taken so much control of not only her music, but her life, that she feels married to him, and often roams naked with him on her 40-acre estate. His hold over her is so strong that she will excuse herself from parties and forsake lovers whenever he 'calls'" (Why Knock Rock? p. 112, citing Time magazine, Dec. 16, 1974, p. 39).

GINGER BAKER, drummer for the popular '60s band CREAM, said: "It happens to us quite often--it feels as though I'm not playing my instrument, something else is playing it and that same thing is playing all three of our instruments. That's what I mean when I say it's frightening sometimes. Maybe we'll all play the same phrase out of nowhere. It happens very often with us" (Bob Larson, Rock and the Church, p. 66).

JOE COCKER, who contorts grotesquely during his performances, claims that something "seizes" him when he songs rock & roll (Time magazine, cited by Bob Larson, Rock and the Church, p. 66).

"When I'm singing and in touch with the energy I'm generating, I sometimes literally have no awareness of where I am. The ego disappears, and me and my surroundings with it. © that's the reason I'm in music--to achieve that feeling" (Daryl Oates of HALL AND OATES, interview with Timothy White, 1987, Rock Lives, p. 592).

The original recording of "I Put a Spell on You" was done after the SCREAMIN' JAY HAWKINS and his band members got drunk and "some type of presence seemed to seize him." He began "grunting, growling, screaming, gurgling in strange unknown tongues, and wildly dancing around the studio" (Heartbeat of the Dragon, p. 40).

"Rock has always been the devil's music, you can't convince me that it isn't. I honestly believe everything I've said-I believe rock and roll is dangerous. © I feel that we're only heralding something even darker than ourselves" (DAVID BOWIE, Rolling Stone, February 12, 1976, p. 83).

"[CARLOS] SANTANA keeps a yellow legal pad handy to record the music when it comes to him 'just like a fax machine'" (Rolling Stone, March 16, 2000, p. 41).

"I really wish I knew why I've done some of the things I've done over the years. I don't know if
I'm a medium for some outside source. Whatever it is, frankly, I hope it's not what I think it is-Satan" (OZZY OSBOURNE, Hit Parader, February 1978, p. 24).

== The End ==

reply to tag:

jon lee: haha ppl busy ma........i think its diff, u probably watching on tv.......i finish watching the season showing on tv ready, waiting for the next to come out lol..........are u sure dip gets higher pay? lol dun hav such thing la.........confirm uni grads get paid betta.........but mayb dip grads get hired more easily hahaha.....

195/1

what is on my mind now

well alot actually.....im sorry for those ppl who have been coming to my blog and not finding the latest post changed, the fact is i haven been blogging about recent stuff.........i've beeen updating about past stuff dat i didnt really find time to blog.............and also i've been sleeping alot and watching prison break on my comm and going out and stuff like dat la.......its like dat la when u sudenly have so much time to do wad u wanna do, the list never ends...........and its like blogging is like the last thing on my mind to do cos there is nothing much to blog about daily, its jus waking up late and watching prison break, then doing abit of nonsense then the is over at 2 or 3 am then the cycle continues until i finish watching prison break and stuff like dat...........

haha cos now im having a break and since im not working and all, im pretty much slacking around quite abit..........its like dates do not really matter to me, its jus the days.........the dates are onli significant to me for my QT lol.........the day would jus be my 'marker' if there happens to be anything on like i going out or have ag etc.........

okk mayb something more recent.........i've been thinking (and mayb fretting) about alot of things lately.........like education in the future, the life to be in army, my career next time, what i wanna do, and how my half would be completed (this is cryptic haha i guess onli i would understand hahaha......) but actually now, at this point in time, i dun think im worrying so much already..........i came across this interesting thing to note, during one o my QTs from the daily bread.........it basically said dat whenever u feel worried about sumtin, like u worried u are going to fail a test or worried if some things would happen, then u say "The Lord is my sheperd ... so i'm worried to death" (or whatever it is your worried about, the worst case scenario).........for me it proved dat that contradiction or mayb oxy-moron really gave me comfort and a sense of peace...............so im not really worried about much realy cos i somehow know God has a plan for me, for everything, i jus havta take dat step of faith to really trust Him...........

hmm some things coming up.......
i will be having my graduation ceremony on the 23rd of may haha......i heard graduates will be wearing a special graduation attire for the first time in tp haha........i wonder wad it will look like haha........mayb a gown with a 'motar' hat......haha then they tell me i dun havta go into uni ready, i will get higher pay than them with this diploma already HAHAHA........how can dat be lol.......

i received my NS enlistment letter ready.........it turns out i will be wearing green uniform by 13th july haha......i got my own apprehensions about NS, its not the training la cos i dun think the training or work will really be dat hard to get thru.........im jus worried about the completion of the half (cryptic again).............there will be events needing ....... aiya i shouldnt be thinking so much, jus trust God la..........

i guess there is nothing much ready.......end here for now haha

reply to tags:

gillian: haha ok....thanks.....

jon chua: gardens got place to play so many things meh? or rather i know they do hav space buit i heard alot of things cannot do or play at gardens at many places cos its new and they dun want anything broken and stuff........eh u sure or not? i thot u hardly updated lol hahaa........

er sao: haha i finally updated.......heh how are u doing overseas? hahaha miss someone (erhem ahem) already? hahaha........

194/1

busy holidaying

ok ok i haven posted for quite awhile ready....sorry la haven found the time to la......anyway im going for a holiday to penang tml, monday nite........so yeah i will probably post when i get back the following monday...........

oh yeah if anyone needs to msg me, still can msg but i wont reply and i wont pick up calls cause roaming charges are expensive, i pay before so i noe.......i'll be bringing my phone and probably turning it on most of the time.........dun worrry if u guys msg or call me it is charged as normal local rates according to ur handphone plans.........cause ur calling and smsing a singapore number..........haha i dun think i will get much smses like normal times but im jus saying this here jus in case............

another thing i hav quite abit of old stuff for posting jus for ppl to read and stuff, much of my holidays or how i've spent my holidays is a blur to me i cant really remember how exactly how i've spent each day la, probably sleeping late and waking even later haha.......dats all but i onli remember some major stuff haha.....post when i get back la probably

ok ok i will reply to all ur tags before i leave:

replies to tags:

jon chua: (sorry ah its a very late reply, i read long ago but yeah...) heh anything u wanna call it la......honest? ok la i've heard dat before......but i dun mind la....this blog is not really private or anything so yeah....i really wouldnt mind if nathaniel himself found out about wad i typed and how i feel, honesty is the best policy rite? yeah la but i do leave out certain parts of my own feelings etc where appropriate la......its ok la on my brother wanting to play table tennis (natural la who doesnt want to play lol, those ppl who are not sporty is a different issue), cos mayb for me compared to bishan serangoon is really outta the way and i tend to get home later than when i go home from bishan so yeah mayb it jus gets to me sometimes......haha yeah i found out on the recent combined games day dat ppl can really play many other games at gardens but most jon lee might be rite at times..........capture the enemy's ball/flag is very VERY fun to play, u guys should play it in gardens...........i dunno about powerball tho, i heard its fun too.........

jon lee: (sorry another late reply heh) yeah man mass games are much much more fun lol.........2-4 player games very anti-social and abit exclusive sometimes.......u cant play for another 2 months? how come? cos of ur leg? haha wad is sko? is it soccer knockout? haha i dunnno.....till next time man.....

eleanor sao zi!: hahahahah......yeah la yeah la very busy.....actually its more caught up with alot of stuff.........heh enjoy ur time here while ur still here in singapore k? haha.......

lydia: hey! wad new nickname? hahaha.......its not new wad....u have always been acting like a bimbo wad.......HAHAHA........ok la except u got brains? hahahaa....

josette: haha ok thanks i will relink u....but which one? are both the same or sumtin? hahaha..........let me noe k?

193/1

new bike

i finally decided to get a new bike from a shop in simei lol, the shop was abit outta the way for me from my house but i came to find out there's a bike shop there cos my uncle drove past in his car when fetching my mom and i to simei east point or sumtin there..........

i went there before to check out the bikes la, woah to me the bikes there are quite ex la about 300 for a good and yet not so functional bike, meaning a bike with grip shift and no brake plates......and even more expensive like about 400+ for a good bike with button shift and close to 500 for one bike with button shift and metal brake plates (woah)..........to me bikes at dat prices are expensive la but to ppl like brandon those hardcore cyclists, he spends 1000+ or more on each of his bikes lol.........

ok la so i spent wad i think was worth the money i paid for it.......i bought the bike dat was retailing at $297 or sumtin like dat la.........the reason i bought it was cos it felt very heart pain to spend $200 more for another bike (at $497 ouch!!) i think now i kinda regret not buying dat bike haha cause looking at how much brandon spends on a bike sumtin like dat (of course the parts on his bike(s) are probably more high end la but still to me its the same la)...........end up i jus have the basic functions like front supension (its really smooth and i like it, never had anything like it before but more on dat later.....), the frame not dat light but dats not really a concern to me, as long as lighter than my old bike can ready hahaha......, let me see wad else? erhm grip shift which i must say looks betta than the kinda lousy grip shift on my old bike (when the grip shift on my old bike spoilt, i was quite convinced dat i would not buy a bike with grip shift ever again but oh wells dat was the onli bike dat suited my preconceived budget in my head), kinda regret it now but oh wells the money is spent and its a good bike to me, dats wad most impt i guess so i jus be content la..............i kinda wished i had bought my bike from bishan there, opposite wilfred's house there......cos i heard from nicklaus dat he bought his bike about the same price as mine but it came with button shift for the bike! and lock and whatever not (i cant remember wad else la haiz.....) i wouldnt care about anything else but its button shift! lol sian i paid a total of $305 for my bike plus a very powerful front light and a back light.......dats all lol, but its enough to pacify me from complaining haha.........

cause my bike is new everything so i cycled it to bedok a few times ready haha........my first time cycling to bedok was quite a nightmare and i think i could have gotten killed if not for God's grace.........my first time i didnt noe any pavement or anything so i jus went the onli way i knew......i jus went the way the bus would have went on the pavement at first, but after da the pavement ceased to exist........i jus had to go on the road lol......i had a super bright light and a back light so suprisingly no cars honked at me...........i jus dun understand y when i was younger, everytime i went on the road with my bike there'd be some car dat jus decides to hornat me for no apparent reason lol........i wonder y..........

anyway i was very careful cycling on the road but there are like some things dat u cant really be careful about........the problem was i didnt really look very closely at the road.......it would be foolish to stare at the road and not notice the cars (and buses) zooming by u as u go haha........i skidded off a stone (i think, i didnt turn around and look) cos i was going quite fast cause its stressing when cars have capabilities speeds so fast...........after the skid, i jus braked to prevent myself to skid anymore out but still i imagine if there was a car going near to me, and suddenly i skidded abit i might have been knocked down and i would be part of the road ready haha........but i really thank God for His providence..............

on my way back from bedok i discovered a way back home dat was free from riding on the road and all, mostly pavement, cutting thru the park and all, the onli road i need to go on technically is the road at my house there, which can be very quiet, its like i own dat road like dat.........haha i guess in time to come, before army i will be cycling around on my new bike alot........

end of this post and i dun really know wad to say.com

192/1

napfa test

well i had my napfa the second time......i booked it on wednesday, but i didnt know it would be like at 730am la...so early in the morning! and cos its a napfa test conducted by mindef or sumtin co its onli held at toa payoh stadium......

woah abit the far from my house ah........i havta wake up extra early summore........anyway on the day of the test i wanted to wake up at like 530am (cause a standard rule for me (for places far away from my home) is to wake up 2 hrs before the meeting time so that i will have enough time to do my qt and wad not as well as travel to my destination haha)........but end up i couldnt wake up cos about 5 plus hours is definitely not enough for someone who just loves to sleep (like yours truly here).........

anyway i talked to emmanuel tan (i think) a few days before my napfa test, he came back from overseas to get his enlistment stuff done, i didnt expect to be able to take the napfa test the same day and time as him lol.........

doing the napfa test with someone you know and can talk abit to is quite nice in the sense of the companionship haha............i think i scored everything A or B except 2.4 run haha.....dat was bad haha i think i should have trained up abit or mayb pushed myself...........but even though its quite disappointing at 12 mins haiz, i still managed to get a silver award.....cos i think i jus managed to get a D for my running lol, so 2 months off NS, a load off my chest la....

but i must say dat the army napfa test is more strict than skool haha, skool wann like ppl anyhow do oso can get A lol haha.....drats i shouldnt have ate dat day la if not i would have gotten gold easily ready haha........but its ok i guess cos i heard dat ppl who take their poly napfa havta retake a ns one so i should be more or less prepared...........

emmanuel got about the same as me except his pull ups couldnt pass, so sad his running quite good leh, about 10 mins 30 lol, i miss the good old sec skoool days where my timing would be dat or less i guess (i didnt really run seriously then and i got 11 mins lol......), i really miss my sec skool damai canoeing training, this is not the first time im saying this........i miss the frendships, the passion for canoeing (tho i still hav the passion now, i dun hav an outlet for regular trainings and races to look forward to anymore) as well as the thril of riding on the water, im filled with nostalgia when i think about those good old canoeing days......end up emmanuel got bronze lol so its like so wasted, cause of his pull-ups he did the whole napfa test for nothing.......anyway he will be coming back next time to take it again after his uni end or sumtin..........he went back overseas already (quite long ready at this time im typing this.......) to dunno do wad la, complete his sudies or sumtin........i think dats all for this post la, its supposed to be quite long ago haha......

191/1

pulau ubin cycling

ok i will make this a very short post.....cause it was quite long ago and all.........

well julia msged me one day ask me if i interested to go pulau ubin cycling lol....and i thot she msg the wrong person lol so i replied her dat she msged the wrong person haha....it was on thursday in the march holidays (yeah dat was how long ago....) end up after quite a few ppl called me at one go lol........haha i didnt noe i was so popular lol (or not most probably)......end up i think jasmine, charles, julia and wilfred all called me at almost the same time lol.......its like when i was having a call with one person, another person will call me and i will hold the current person and then i answer the other person's call haha...it was the first time ever i received so many calls at one time lol......quite interesting lol......

oh yeah on dat day on the trip, julia they all had arranged to meet up at bishan before making their way down to changi jetty, i thot it didnt make sense for me to go down to bishan then to changi jetty when my house is quite near to changi jetty........anyway i found out the bus number dat goes from my house to changi jetty, which is 59........so we were supposed to meet at 1030am at changi jetty........by the time i left my house after getting up and getting ready everything it was nearing 10 or mayb a few minutes later than dat.......so i msged julia dat i would be late....she didnt reply (i found out after that dat she didnt see her phone haha).........end up when the 59 bus came to my house there,

anyway i went ubin cycling with quite a few ppl i must say, lets see charles, jasmine, gillian, julia, joy, wilfred, matthias, kar wei (im suprised he went heh)........not bad i must say i had a very great time, cycling around ubin very fun and the bike dat i rented was quite a good one dat i got for half the price of wilfred and matthias's bike, they paid like $10 for their bikes probably whole day (but we all didnt use our bikes for the whole day anyway).........i really enjoyed the bonding between everyone on dat day its like its special to me la dunno y oso..........

anyway one of the highlights of the (that) day was the food there man......shiok la........cos there was so many of us so some of us ate our own zhi cha sets like fried rice and eee mee or sumtin like dat......julia, joy and i ate rice and shared 2 dishes, i think it was lemon chicken and pai gu wang (its pork ribs la, oh yeah damn funny the menu said pai gu da wang which literally translated means pork rib BIG king HAHAHA, super funny to me man.....).......then after dat wilfred ordered 2 big plates of kang kong and one big plate of pepper beef and im not sure wad else la, but i jus noe i ate until quite shiok after all the cycling.....we stopped quite early cos alot of ppl had to go back to church for children's camp meeting........and i had a.g. later on as well, i was the worship leader haha.........anyway i had a great day then after a.g. i slept immediately aftre i reached home bathe everything haha....but super fun la heh..........dats all for now......

190/1

the floorball friendly between FBFC and AB's team

heh this was a recent match and yet its not dat recent cause at least 2 weeks has passed since the match haha........

well some comments on the game la.........almost everyone in FBFC prepared alot for the upcoming match lol....wilfred came up with an official 'playbook' lol on how we should be positioned when the ball is with the keeper and when we are taking a free hit and the defending system everything lol.....serious lol.........he explained it to us like one week before the match and we practiced our plays on one saturday lol........we more or less could remember wad to do but i guess on dat day it was so much different dat we didnt really stick to our places and (i dunno about the others in my team la) i felt i was running around into places i shouldnt have run..........mayb cos halfway matthias change my position to a defender and stuff which is quite different from being a forward...........

on the actual day i think we all played very badly, ok mayb im jus speaking for myself..........i dunno about the others but i was out of position most of the time even though i scored a goal myself (but i think it wasnt a very very nice wilfred kinda goal, it was a messy goal to me la).......especially in defending i felt i was running all over the court, like running over to joel, the other defender's half and all......as a forward i felt the play-ups was very very messy, many times i could not exact out the play ups cos it was very fast paced and i think the main thing was dat they were going after the ball, jus knocking everything else in the way (which was a good tactic for pressuring sumone and causing them to make nonsense passes that fell short or went above grounder balls (which are harder to take shots immediately by the way) ...........i cant really remember much of anything ready la cos it was quite long ago and all, most of us's first time playing in a bigger 'court' than the fellowship hall haha........i think we drew each other 5 - 5 lol........dats about it from me i guess lol.......

189/1

sending mayboo and sam off.....

heh sorry everyone i haven been blogging for awhile........heh no time la, even tho im having holidays and all but floorball and other stuff has taken up alot of my time heh dat i didnt have the time to settle down to finally type this.........

i guess this will be a short post cause sending mayboo and sam off was quite long ago ready heh......i see wad i can remember la.........this is jus old news la so jus for a read if u like heh........

haha i sent mayboo and sam off all the way into the transit area, heh with my staff card that i got from my internship......dat card expired at end feb so i kept it until the very last day till i sent sam off heh..........my card allowed me to go into the arrival and departure transit area (which most of the public cannot go in), in case u didnt know.............

anway sending ppl of esp i transit is quite a funny feeling, like especially if there are quite a few ppl sending dat particular person off (like for sam and mayboo, but on the other hand not much ppl sent daryl off heh).....its like ur inside transit area waiting for the person going off to clear the customs check on their passport then after 'dat person' will look back and wave to the ppl outside heh......then of course the ppl outside wil wave back......then there i am looking at the whole scene and all its quite a funny feeling because i dunno whether to wave or not.........its super funny la haha..........i could wave back too if i wanted heh.........but mayboo told me not to wave hahaha.....damn strange heh.......but dats about all i can remember about sending them off haha......

oh yeah mayboo dat muddlehead called me one day after she left singapore, from adelaide looking for her laptop charger la, so cuckoo, i helped her inquire at the transit gate there as well as the information counter in transit but couldnt find it heh........end up i think she found it in her room mate's room or sumtin like dat, i dunno the whole story so yeah.......so long ready, dun need to ask her about it ready, at least she found her laptop charger, if not no internet at all for her! hahahaha.........dats all i guess for sending ppl off..........i returned my card the day i sent sam off heh.......so no more privileges as well, discounts in changi ariport shops as well........i thank God that He provided my colleague (who usually works late) who was still in the office after i sent sam off, if not i might havta make another trip down to changi airport jus to return my airport pass..........

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its jus been a very sian weekend

i dunno y la this whole weekend i didnt feel the least bit like myself la.........i think it started on friday nite la, i really wanted to sleep and i was tired and all but i jus could not get to sleep LOL how torturous (i think i didnt get a wink of sleep seriously)........must be dat (EXPENSIVE) belgium coffee i had with mayboo after watching the protege (how long has it been since i last watched a movie lol) with her, i must say its quite a good show and all except for abit of the gory parts haha......mayboo was like practically jumping out of her seat when one of the drug dealers guys use a hammer to crudely hammer off one guys wrist haha.........and mayboo can be a director ready la she almost practically noes wad will happen next lol......i had a good time la, catching up with mayboo on some stuff as well.........but i think i shouldnt have drunk coffee!!! ouch it was so expensive la and i never ever buy such drinks one by the way........but it was nice i must admit.....once in a blue moon la if not i'll go broke jus going out all the time and spending money so extravagantly......pain leh........

anyway back to my sian weekend..........floorball in the morning was ok la, jus normal fun heh........i jus felt very sian at yf after dat i dunno y oso..........it was skool day and all...........after skool day i felt my normal lost feeling lol........its like the ppl dat i normally talk to , or those dat i can talk to jus disappeared or went home, went for reunion da da da............

i stayed downstairs and stayed there for awhile after rachel asked us all to go look at the booth........i took a look and the shirts dun really look like much (as in the design wise........sorry rachel.......) but i really might consider buying (from wad i hear i betta decide soon) cos even though the designs dun look like much, the price seems reasonable (or mayb im getting more spendthrift without realising it......), i dun really mind to part with my $40 for "a good cause" (lol im not noble i guess haha.......) i saw ppl all sitting around and all all like very sian and all lol........i jus felt like going home lol.........it was like dark and nobody started captain's ball at all! the onli thing they all were playing was table tennis which i'm not really good at............how come it seems dat bishan can play more things? lol i guess its due to the strict management in gardens, i heard dats y most of them dun really hang out in gardens anymore cos its like so restricted there in some sense.......not dat bishan is really open to anything la but i jus feel dat we can play more things at bishan.....like floorball, captains ball, basketball, soccer etc.........im NOT using this as an excuse to draw ppl to bishan im jus stating my opinion on my blog LOL...............

anwyay after dat i went upstairs and in my mind i was thinking so dats where some of the ppl dat i can talk to went........i didnt really talk to much ppl haha i saw my brother playing sepak tekraw (luckily he was playing in some sense if not if i saw him downstairs i would have brought him home long ago heh......)......i guess i was jus tired and all la.........i played such an old skool game with john foo, lydia, sara tan (the younger one) and sebbie...haha cheered up a little...i cant believe lydia never played erasers before lol....so funny i wonder wad she played in her childhood heh......in spite of me wanting to go home early everything i think my brother and i left gardens church for dinner quite late i guess........cos my brother wanted to play every thing........i jus didnt have the mood for anything at all lol..........after the delicious beef noodles at gardens (i always eat nothing else but dat whenever i go gardens, im hooked i guess) my brother and i went home relatively earlier than normal when we go bishan.......but i think we reached home about the same time if not later than coming home from bishan.....dats one of the reasons dat i go bishan besides being able to talk to ppl there in general betta (not all of course, knowing me.....), cos its more accessible from my house heh even tho gardens is nearer i must say.......

(haiz its late and i feel as if im rambling on and on.......i still have another post to post, ok dat mayb tml meaning the later of feb the 28th......)

ok onto sunday...........i jus slept the moment i reached home (of course after bathing all dat) but i jus konked out, didnt bother to do anything else at all lol.....and i had sucha good sleep la but i feel as if sunday i could not wake up at all cos i had such a great sleep dat i could hardly hear my handphone alarm clock lol.......sian too late for yd and all........so i didnt go for it in the end.............after dat i jus went to the junior worship place cos i'm scheduled to play and all.......woah we had like 4 guitarists.........end up matthias didnt play lol cos already got me, shermaine and nat playing.........plus matt snapped nat's guitar string while trying to tune it lol.......haiz i think the 3 of us didnt really work out very well........quite bad i must say..........cause like shermaine's timing is irregular depending on the songs and nat's timing is jus off la, he plays the songs very funny way la i cant really say how he plays la its jus funny........and tho i can play but i cannot like go against nat (and shermaine following him) cos i know its rite and all but yeah cos if i play against them it will sound jus a tard bit too much messiness and noise lol so i hardly played much i guess esp at some songs..........im not complaining about nat or his guitar playing behind his back la but seriously if i had the chance to bring it up to him i would (but this kinda thing abit hard to voice out la, afterwards he turn around and say who am i to say and all, like i very pro like dat then its gone ready lol, dun need tell him anything else ready)........i feel as if i didnt do much as junior worship this particular session to be honest, dat feeling very sian so i have to constantly remind myself dat God is satisfied with the heart and not the 'motions or processes'........oh wells after dat floorball woohoo probably the thing dat brings me back to contentment at least (but not happiness) every week heh..........so tired when i got back but nothing much happened, jus had a really good rest on monday la..................

ok i've been keeping this bottled up for the past few days already been wanting to post haha.....anyway this is all old news so for ur reading pleasure onli hahaha.....

okk replies to tags:

jon chua: sorry for the late reply.......anyway heh my brother got selected for jpsae interview for his film sound video course, he is quite happy i guess but i dunno when he will know if he is accepted or not heh.......thanks haha but i dun think im dat fit yet la.......

jon lee: haha dats y im retaking but i guess the retaking date will continue to be procrastinated by me heh........but i dun even noe when safra is holding their napfa tests at tampines stadium... heh i guess can find out from the pre enlistment recruit booklet or sumtin, havta go and find it heh....

su: su? erhm hi..........i dun think i recognise ur nick heh.......anyway cheap sticks ah, depends on wad u are looking for i guess........i heard fatpipe sticks are quite good and so are salming sticks i guess........my fren says cannot compare brands or one stick with another, its all based on personal preference..........salming probably offers a cheaper range i guess..........

ivan lee: hi ivan....thanks for tagging.........heh green pyjamas adn national slavery heh....all learnt phrases from frens heh.......eh wait green pyjamas is my own heh......slowly la u'll improve (;

dats all for the nite, gotta go sleep.......(=

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Happy Chinese New Year!

haha abit late ah........im onli blogging on the like 4th day of the lunar new year? hahaha but anyway been wanting to blog but either haven got the time cos i had to do up my report or my mom had to use the comm for her typing or wad heh............

finally im down to blogging today...........oh yeah by the way i finished my report adn sent it via email already.........such a good feeling lol but i dunno if my teacher received it or not cos she didnt reply my msg, quite worrying cos i might fail my internship if she doesnt get it la, but oh wells as (dunno who) one of the pastors said, worrying does not add 15 mins to your life so i dun worry la, its all in God's hands.............

speaking of being in God's hands, sometimes i jus cant help but wonder or dream about possibilities in every present situation........i mean there is so many 'possibilities' God will work out, sometimes i jus cant help myself but guess "if this might be the way God has planned for me"..........i guess its the age and the hormones probably la...........i oso dun really noe wad to think la...........am i really not trusting God as much as i want to when i dream about the possibilities? lol...........ok enuf about that.........

i went for duck tours with my 2 brothers today HAHAHA! i have never been on a tour around my home country before lol........quite fun and interesting.........but lol which singaporean would pay to go on a tour to see their home country? lol my brothers and i didnt........we got complimentary tickets given to my aunt so she gave us lol..........quite nice la i must say, very enjoyable cos the 'duck' went to the place where i used to canoe when in secondary skool..........dat place sure brings back fond memories lol.........how i wish i had the pleasure of canoeing again in poly as well lol........i would be much happier lol, and if i could have such great team mates as secondary skoool then it could not be anymore perfect lol..............hahah dreaming of things again.........anyway they gave out free duck whistles on board the duck but they onli had 3 lol..........and they were like selling them normally at like 3.85.......siao, onli siao ang mos and silly tourists would buy them lol..............i got to noe more about certain structures in singpore as well........

hmm i jus remembered i didnt blog about my napfa test.........dat was on the friday that passed lol..........haiya sian la..........i am jus not satisfied with my results la.................ok for my five stations, i did pretty ok.........i got all As and Bs, good enough to get gold for napfa (still even though i would consider myself pretty off form due to lack of exercise during my attachment period.....(sian).........).........woah but i when i found out the timing for my 2.4 km, my heart sorta sank for any dreams of getting a gold la.........12.32 mins or sumtin like dat SIAN!!! well its like this, i ate at 240pm on the day of the test, i am damn smart la.........shouldnt have eaten lol.........now all cos of dat meal i havta retest..........the test supposed to start at like 3pm but by the time its started, it was like 330pm..........i was part of the group dat did my 2.4km first, i already dun like the idea of running first, wads more i was quite full.....sian............i began my run and i was in second place until halfway lol (dats at least something i can be proud of)........then after halfway i could not really run cos my stomach felt too full and i started walking for abit and running when i could.........damn sian la the feeling............haiz all cos of dat meal..........too late for regrets now........i will take a napfa retest at the tampines safra or sumtin.........i will get a gold so i can skip 2 months of btp of sumtin like dat, not dat the 2 months really bother me........but yeah lesser time better............

nothing much i can think to blog about ready.........going to coutn my ang pao money and sleep probably.......

oh yeah mayboo, get well soon haha........i jus remembered i wanted to visit you when i wanted to visit titus (but he apparently forgot to msg me heh).........eh mayboo, can...kendrick HAHA!

replies to tags:

jon lee: hmm u dun understand? hmm mayb u can go check out anyone of the floorball websites......http://www.salmingsports.com/........go check this out la, i find it quite informative........

jon chua: lol......its the influence from bishan la haha.......all of us are fanatical about floorball, or more importantly, FBFC!! FloorBall For Christ!! lol oh my brother got 17 for r4......i think its ok la but still havta wait and see if he can get into the course he wants.........

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new floorball sticks!

well i do admit its been a long time since i last posted..........so im posting on valentine's day haha or at least i started posting on valentine's day.........

well today passed by as yet another day without a real valentine........eh wait dat sounds so sad, which i am not by the way (i jus dun hav a reason to be sad or wad anymore haha)........i actually had a great day, not dat not having a real valentine really bothered me much at all..........i have titus my wife wad hahaha........

well for now i am quite free cos i have completed my internship already.......february 9th was my last day lol.........no more waking up early lol......quite shiok im enjoying it.....but for now i havta complete my report and send my internship liason officer (from my skool) a soft copy of my report by this coming monday............quite sian la...........up until wednesday i haven touched my report a single bit lol........

let me try and remember monday i woke up early, wanting to go cmpb for applitude test but then after my "quiet time" and all i couldnt make it there already cos they close at 2pm lol..........then i went to bedok to alter my pants, (my new pants dat i bought from bossini, quite nice, a different colour (its a nice green) from all the pants i already have)........then after dat i bought a double hole belt from there as well.....but even though its abit short i still bought it cos its nice, end up my mom help me ask them if they have a longer belt at other branches so if they have they will send it over to bedok (and call to let us noe) for me to change....i seem to be spending alot this lunar new year lol.........shirts, belt, pants, a new stick etc..............oh wells.....after dat i went to the floorball stick supplier's place (i guess it would not be wise to mention the supplier's name cos this is a public blog and all, he might get into trouble) to see sticks, dats where i bought the $45 stick for my brother.........i bought 3 balls too, 2 green (one softer and one harder) and an official black ball from the supplier as well...........altogether $50, he is very nice, he rounded off the figure so dat its easier to count.........

tuesday............another day of going out all around singapore.......this time i managed to wake up earlier and managed to get to cmpb earlier and do up my applitude test.........woah my applitude test i felt wook very long la, at first when i took the test i wasnt really tired but after dat i felt so drained and mentally tired, there were like so many questions like mayb about 400 plus i think (mayb it may not be dat many but it sure felt like there were lol)........they tested me on so many types of questions la like pictorial patterns, links between words and many many other stuff, mathematical questions as well...........shagg man.....after dat my mom and i close some fund savers account, dat one i oso blur, i dunno wad dat was there for lol............after dat i went down to tampines to look at sticks in the shop in the tampines sports hall.............i dream oso i wont guess dat there is a retail shop selling blast and fatpipe sticks so near my house........i went there mainly to see the blast stick collection cos i was considering buying the blast grapper...........but it wasnt in stock at the shop and looking at the specs and listening to wilfred's advice (i arranged to meet him there), i decided against buying it...........after dat wilfred and i had dinner and we both made our separate ways to the suppliers place (cos wilfred forgot to bring helmet for me haha)......pillion riding with wilfred i must say he is quite a steady driver lol, he said he drive alone more reckless haha.........ok dun digress, i went to the floorball stick supplier's place and i collected the new stick for my brother as well as the few balls dat i bought, as well as my new stick which costs $125.......i wont mention the name of the stick here............the supplier fit on a different blade from wad i wanted (i wanted the green blade cos it was my favorite colour and all) , saying its a better blade and all (especially for airhooks)........black shaft and grip with a dark purple blade haha i jus dun like the colour heh.........but wilfred and i bought stick bags, wilfred bought one bag dat can hold up to 10 15 sticks, alot of compartments for all his stuff for about $58, i bought a stick bag dat can hold mayb about 4-5 sticks lol for $30, both of us very satisfied with our purchases........the supplier very nice cos he let me try out the purple blade first (the new one which he already used a screw driver and bent it for me, thus since its damaged (ouch i sorta regret asking him to bend my stick for me, the bend marks really heart pain to see in my NEW blade lol ouch) , he cant sell it anymore), then if i really didnt like the purple blade, i could go back to him to change to a new green blade, really nice guy........i brought everything back home, and i jus had to confess everything la cos this kinda thing cannot really hide for long from my parents so jus tell them the truth lol, i got scolded abit for spending quite abit, $265 in all but i dun really care la..........heh........woah this is a long post (as always), its going to get longer still.........

valentine's day........hmm i spent most of the day at home jus really wiping the tiles of the bathrooms and my house washing area (there's a washing machine there and my family scrub laundry and hang clothes out to dry there as well......)........i dunno why i didnt hav any objections or wad to do household chores today, normally i would complain lol..........normally i oso wont do unless im asked to do haha...........after dat i chatted online for awhile haha, found out the meaning of uber, one of the words dat jason chua always use haha.........as well as uber micro, pwnage, HAHAHA its entertaining jus to think about wad i read online jus now HAHA.........uber means super or above etc....ok haha i should stop.......today i went out to buy small little tins of paint to paint wadever i wanted, heh $3 for 2 small tins, i think its quite reasonable haha........i wanna paint my phone cover black cos im quite tired of the black velvet cover, it will tend to stink over time.........i bought green paint as well but i dunno wad really to do with it now dat wilfred said my stick would look uglier if i painted it cos the paint will come off and all..........oh wells i guess i can always find some use for all the paint la haha..........its not much anyway, onli a palm sized tin.........oh yeah after trying out the blades at tampines sports hall again today, i think i will keep my purple blade cos mayb it is easier to lift the ball using the purple blade..........the floorball stick supplier offered to give me a t-shirt to sorta compensate for the bite marks probably from his son on my supposedly new stick...............he told us his son bit some of the sticks, so mine is like very little bits of the plastic coating was bit off..........i think i'm going to ask him if i can get the penalty box kit instead, which is actually a face/hand towel plus a bottle i think...........if cannot then nvm lol i'll jus settle for the shirt.........hopefully its a nice design, instead of a plain one..........but anything oso can la i guess.........

ok la i think this post is long enough, i need to sleep, tired man........later at 3pm got napfa test.........i should get more rest..........morning i should wake up earlier to do my report as well......hmm......oh ya sorry everyone who reads my blog, haven been having the time to blog........and these past few days my brother was hogging the comm to do his jae thing, i think he did it for like 3 nites lol...........

belated replies to tags:

jon lee: haha i didnt do more QT but i tried a few days to read my bible daily............now im still lagging behind on the daily chapters...........havta start reading again..........haha dun tell me u oso play dat game lol........o_O my highest score is 6.7 million plus on my frens laptop.................

jon chua: yeah u were rite i had one more week to go then........but sorry i didnt have the time to reply until now, now my internship over ready...........

BOSS: haha yes dear, i am now updating because my BOSS asks me to hahaha......

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a long time belated reply

well sorry to those who tagged.............i guess i will onli reply all the tags now even though i read and re-read your comments long time ago hahaha

replies to tags:

jon lee: i agree that the music at arpc is very distracting, its more like a performance than a worship service to be honest.............i think i might go a few more times to confirm wad i feel lol, that is, when i am free hahah.......

jasmine: haha u seem to be able to tag about alot of things lol..........i wonder how many times u read my blog lol...........but anyway as i already told u, i wont sell u my stick la.......after all i got it at a very good price and more importantly i wanna keep my stick haha.....even if i decide to get a new stick...........alot of things are pushing me to get one hahaha

da sao: hahaha i dun think i might go back to arpc soon with all the commitments i have in zion this year lol.....then got ns summore........lol....in time to come la........

oh yeah as the few last words of this post........these few days like the last few days of my attachment (still got 2 weeks left onli haha) i very free lol....everyday go there to do routine tasks and slack and all lol........seriously i go there if not watching show in office, its playing meaningless game(s) of pinball (so far i play until i got the high score LOL!!)........and the best thing is my boss dun say anything about it at all even when he see me playing lol.....damn nice of him lol..........i guess as long as i do the work given to me he's ok if i play........shiok la............i haven been doing my daily readings of the bible lol, now i am like 30 odd chapters behind lol....haiz.........

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