words from the mind

heh wierd post title eh.......but oh wells im jus lazy to think of anything else....


anyway jus some perhaps random thots in my mind rite now.........well im going to ns this friday and ppl have been asking me if im dreading the experience or looking forward to it and i will go with the standard ok lol answer which is wad i feel lol haha........cause no natural person would look forward to ns lol, come on no matter how close u feel to ur family and wadever connections in the outside world, im sure most of the men who have completed ns or have some experience of ns in singapore would agree dat its betta to be out than in lol.........the onli thing i look forward to for ns is to enjoy myself there (have a good company, good job promotion status (i'm not even sure if i will be signing on or not but dats still to be considered, based on the circumstances lol), good pay etc)...........i dun dread the coming time in ns cause its 'ok la' for me.........its jus physical training (and mayb abit of bad company spouting nonsense and stuff) and all to me la, im ok with physical training la........the government pays u every month to work out (and be totured and wad not haha), looking on the bright side the physical training seems to me like wad i can take, wad i can endure, its jus the repercussions like me being tired from it and some other things i dun wanna mention -- the things i've been brooding about and for now its recently solved (see the previous post for of an idea)...............etc..........i really need discipline to make time for God i guess, haha being a person dat likes to sleep heh...........hmm also about my bunk mates etc, i wonder if the frenships with them will be like wad its been for me throughout my primary, secondary and tertiary education years, like i noe them but somehow i am not close to them, we hardly get to talk about serious things and stuff, mayb its because i probably might not join them in many activities dat they like to do (for example onli) like kbox, pool, bowling........i might not enjoy myself as much with them cause i mayb dun relate as well to the company of frens as compared to church frens whom i have gotten to noe for years and the level of being comfortable is there and u can really be urself, be crazy and nobody will fault u about it cause it u haha.............oh wells on a side note i feel restricted by wad ppl think sometimes esp ppl i dunno well, u cant jus say wadever u want or do wadever u feel like doing without being judged by dat other person lol (not dat their judgement matters to me at all but its jus the fact dat u will be judged if u do something out of place or say sumtin out of line)........mayb dats y i keep quiet sometimes? doesnt matter if i seem muter (as someone told me before) i'm comfortable keeping quiet so dat it seems i dun have an opinion about the things ppl are saying but sometimes i jus keep my opinions to myself.......so dat i would not look, appear or seem to be strange, wierd and out of place (which i do not feel much anywhere, because im happy being alone in a crowd, sounds wierd but i dunno how else to describe it)


ok la enough about ns la........now like quite sad everyone talk onli talk to me about ns........like its some impending doom lol haha.......it goes like "hey daniel wad u doing now?" "... oh i finish poly ready, waiting for ns ...." "oh i see, when ah?" "... erhm 13th july, friday" "friday the 13th! lol hahah.....enjoy ah(or sometimes its good luck)"............lol i think i've had dat conversation so many times i cant even remember who i had them with lol.........but after dats said, i feel kinda glad dat ppl are concerned about me sometimes, its not as if im suffering from a serious lack of concern from anyone (afterall i have a Heavenly Father who cares so much about every bit of my life, isnt dat enough?).....well but its nice to have more ppl concerned..........


once again once dats said and done, i wonder if dat concern is one dat stays or if its jus the rite thing to say and do at the moment......oh wells onli time will tell so i dun need to worry about this kinda pointless things dat come to my head when im too free for anything haha.........well well sunday was the last day for a long long time dat ppl will be seeing me with my tail and longer hair haha.......wanted to blog about this on saturday but somehow something kept me away from using the comm too late..............


i went to watch abit of the last period of wilfred's match on sunday nite........he told me about it and was abit sad dat nobody was going to support him dat nite heh........so since i never watch a real floorball match before i persuaded my family to go tampines for dinner......haiz i wish i had gone there earlier..........if onli i could have cycled.........if only i went to the tampines sports hall earlier then i could have caught more action and also mayb be an encouragement to wilfred as a motivation to play betta heh.....but mayb im onli deluding myself haha, mayb he'll jus play the same jus dat his spirits and morale might have been lifted.........anyway he was really happy i came to support him and watch his match though, i saw it on his face after the game ended.........wilfred's team was some "...rogue" or "...vogue"or sumtin like dat la....they played against some "...squirrels" team la......wilfred's team lost like 4 - 0......which is quite shocking cause wilfred is such a good player, but i guess his team all very small sized wann la, they got eaten by the bigger opponents in the squirrels team..........wilfred told me dats y he had to go in harder while defending his opponents..........i dun really respect the squirrels team even though they won, cause their attitude and sportmanship was not really very good la.....when the opposing team got a bench penalty or was the cause for a free hit their team would jeer at their opponents, calling them names and wad not..............so noisy la, typical muhds haiz.......but they still won a clean sheet summore, wad to do............life is unfair at times....


now i talk abit about today........today, aunty lily, elizabeth, joanne and i went out for dinner haha.......we went all the way to buena vista for dinner lol........i think it was supposed to be for lizzy's birthday and a farewell for me to ns.......but it dragged and we were supposed to have lunch on sunday but aunty lily had sumtin on (and so very typical of her at dat haha but oh wells she is aunty lily, dats descriptive enough of her hurhur).......so it ended up on today lol........buena vista is abit far for me lol.......and i like suah gu like dat, i've never even gone there before la.........like i dun really noe where is holland v which is near there......as a sri lankan fren of mine said before, there is hardly any singaporean who has gone to every part of singapore before, while he boasted dat he visited all parts of india or sumtin like dat la......he said it in spite and i think he is quite an idiot thinking but ok moving on........we went to settler's cafe, i have heard quite nice things about the place in general and now today i finally get to actually try it haha.........firstly the space is very very small, if only it were bigger and jus as cosy then i guess there would be so many more customers and stuff..........the food there is quite limited i must say but i guess that place is more for its games......the owners probably spend more of their finances getting the latest games and stuff like dat instead of buffing up the menu with steaks and wjat have you la hahaha..........aunty lily and joanne has cajun chicken which was ok la, they gave me rather huge portions to try lol! well aunty lily gave me large portions to try, joanne gave me abit also cause she didnt finish.........lizzy ate some chicken sandwich i guess, she gave me one portion of it also cause she couldnt finish........girls ah forever eat so little lol, going out to eat with them at expensive places helps alot when ur a guy lol cause can jus eat the great food they order (eh come to think of it now, our sets came with ice-cream! but they didnt give us!! and i was supposed to have mashed potatoes with my set! which wasnt there! haiz i feel abit cheated but its ok i guess, we had alot of fun, if onli we had more time)..........we played like 3 games haha quite fun heh, we started off with taboo (haha! i suddenly remembered joey and lizzy playing it haha.......lizzy was describing to joey "wad do u need when u drink too much alcohol?" and joey straightaway guess "...liver cycerosis..." like LOL la she is a med student see but its so funny cause the word joey was supposed to guess was rehab HAHA!) and then we played mad gab which was a pronounciation game.......woah man......dat was very hard to play cause it was like they give u some words (which make no sense at all) to pronounce and ur supposed to pronounce them quickly and try to form a word or a phrase like "canned egg my highs of eu" or sumtin like dat la is supposed to be "cant take my eyes off you".......we're allowed to give hints and all but its still hard.......then we played bang! haha joey and i taught aunty lily and lizzy how to play it heh.......and it quite amusing to see a woman in her 50s learning how to play a game like bang lol.......but anyway we had fun with the first timers haha, joey was the sheriff and she ended up killing her own vice, who was lizzy, who happened to take damage from the dynamite dat joey put out heh.......we played it with the expansion pack so we had like a mountain of cards in the deck.........the expansion is green in colour, quite nice, and the characters they have at settlers were like uber many la........so many never see before lol......we didnt finish the game of bang cause they all had to go so yeah ok la not too bad for the first time...........we wanted to play another game as well called marriage material which sounded quite interesting lol but no time......hurhur mayb next time when i can book out lol, we go holland v there and play games hahaha...........after dat we had a short time of prayer in aunty lily's car......i thank God for joey and lizzy's frenship.........in more ways than i can express i guess......i do thank God for aunty lily as well.....too many things la haha......


oh yeah i must also say dat the prayer thing in my last post didnt exactly come out the way i meant it to come out lol........i dunno how else to describe it but it jus came out very crude and wad not to me la........mayb i shouldnt have put this on my blog.........but then how then? are there any other ways to find out the answer? mayb i put it on my blog in a moment of folly, i didnt noe wad i was doing, mayb the reason i did it was wrong.....


(mumbles, mayb i've been thinking too much of wad my father said about it....i dun even noe if its reliable or not, mayb depending on circumstances and stuff like dat la......etc)


......haiz these are all the musings on my part.........i keep thinking i shouldnt have put it on but wad to do? probably literal dozens haven seen it since its the 'latest' post in my blog...........aiya dun care.......i apologise to everyone if the content of my last post was too misleading /disturbing to you..........i dunno wad to say cause wads done is done, please forgive me and jus take it dat i didnt type anything there......sorry.......


anyway for those who have already said yes, i urge u all to reconsider and all......if u really think u can or cannot do it, seeing its an everyday thing and all.......jus let me noe of your final decision and even if no one respond to this prayer thing or even if alot of ppl respond to this prayer thing, it doesnt really matter to me, it wont really make me any much happier or any much sadder, whatever it is i will jus accept it.....im done worrying about things dat i cannot really control and its about due time i learnt how to really trust God for everything......after all looking back i think He has been there all the time, whether i notice or remember or not........i shouldnt box God up to be so small dat He cant work mightily in my life, in whatever areas it is..........haiz enough of dat....


oh yeah its been a long post which i have started since yesterday 10/7/07 (since im jus lazy to change all the 'todays' jus take it dat today in this post means 10/7/07 ok? thanks).......anyway i'm jus grateful for every one of you who visit my blog......thank you all for reading this long post...sorry its so long, i tend to ramble alot......


i think i had enough for the nite, time to reply tags:

jon chua : its true sometimes.........recently in main service we sung a song dat i liked cause of the lyrics, but it sounded abit off to me cause we sung it very much slower than when i was first introduced to the song......i guess it varies with ppl la taste and the song as well......

jon lee : hmm but u must give the contemporary christian music the credit dat even though there is hardly any difference from secular music, the difference is there, no matter how subtle it may seem, in the lyrics etc.....huh? its not whether i would like u to or not.......its up to u la......if you would like to, jus let me noe lol.........

christina : hey erhm....u are christina lim rite? (if im not wrong, my mind is in quite a whirl now, sorry if i got it wrong)......the primary 5 one in yf? anyway thanks.....but its everyday leh......do consider and let me noe k? thanks so much.......

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