10/2 d n a

haiz y iszit e thing dat makes u e happiest often is e thing dat makes u e saddest as well?

crap stuff i try not 2 think about u cuz it HURTS but how??

i wanna call u rite now.....but wads stopping me? u? or jus my overwhelming feelings.......
if its jus e distance its nuttin......but e thing is ur not distant ready even tho i haven seen u in like days or months......ur already too close 4 happiness jus 4 it 2be so......therefore it jus hurts dat i cant seem 2 see ur face.....

one of these days i'll call u n i'll see how my feelings torment me......y did u hav 2be so perfect? Y?? i blame onli myself 4 being too careless dat i fell too deep...to say trust God about dis is easy but 2 actualli do it is not easy due to my human nature.......can i really trust Him 2 give me wads He thinks is rite 4 me when i think dat i might hav let sucha wonderdul opportunity(d_n_a) pass me by rite before my eyes, b4 my heart??????

haiz onli time will tell.....all i can do now is 2 reminnence about e past...n jus stone..not think about u...but dats a hard thing in itself.......i've thinking about u, d_n_a every now n then (yet again)..........haiz u'll probably never ever read dis so i'm jus content 2 let it overflow here.....haiz.....