haha as usual been feeling lost.....for abit at least.....i jus finish class now.....i cant even tell wad i'm supposed to do now la......wondering wad i should do before i get home.....i noe i shoulnt be playing games so im not playing......not preparing for term tests cos even tho its next week cos i noe i will hav enuf time cos its onli one subject......i finish and passed up my 3rd draft! of my comm skills (damn sian i changed it twice after my teacher said some parts of it were not acceptable, then after this final change i couldnt get my teacher to vet anymore so i jus passed it up la haiz.....i did my best la jus trust God for the results......)....if i go home now i could go and play guitar, draw stuff for my freehand drawing, read the bible and stuff like dat.....*sorry for the rambling.......i'm not myself lately, i'm jus trying to find sumtin to do, its like there's so many complicated stuff going on in my head, not to mention i'm tired.....hope my mp3 player can work with the firmware download......(mumble mumble mumble)*
will running away help? most probably not...........i guess i'll jus go home n sleep......bye for now
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Monday, May 29
Tuesday, May 23
y does it havta be so hard?
haha its freezing in my mp lab so i will make a quick post then i will go home.....my fingers are freezing up la.......(in case u dunno in an aircon room, my fingers get cold the fastest).....i guess my body does not feel cold cos i'm wearing clothes duh! wow dats a suprise!
i finished my freehand drawing quite awhile ready.....today's one was hard lol.....i was getting discouraged at the amounts of time i spent trying to perfect jus a simple sketch argh! after that the teacher (i shall refer to her as shervon from now on) jus told me that any work i submit she said she would count it as nice and wonderful, no matter how we felt it looked (cos we were the first ones to see our drawings all dat then we're more critical all dat...quite true ah)......i still find freehand drawing very hard....but i should put in more heart into my drawing....(yeah like my blood is not enough haha)
haiz another thing that is hard.......y am i able to feeel it doesnt matter and yet i noe that God would probably want me to resolve it with His child? its hard to explain in words......its like i can choose to forget about it, but i'm sure dat is not wad God wants me to do....i should try to resolve it....but y am i (eventually going to) wanting to resolve it? iszit because i would like to be good frens (or get it going again?) or jus my christian responsibility? i'm thinking, will it last even if i lets say decide that i want to keep (and get the frendship going again) a close fren? will it jus be another deja vu? hmm i really havta talk to ppl to clear out my thots......
ok huay jia le..... ;)
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i finished my freehand drawing quite awhile ready.....today's one was hard lol.....i was getting discouraged at the amounts of time i spent trying to perfect jus a simple sketch argh! after that the teacher (i shall refer to her as shervon from now on) jus told me that any work i submit she said she would count it as nice and wonderful, no matter how we felt it looked (cos we were the first ones to see our drawings all dat then we're more critical all dat...quite true ah)......i still find freehand drawing very hard....but i should put in more heart into my drawing....(yeah like my blood is not enough haha)
haiz another thing that is hard.......y am i able to feeel it doesnt matter and yet i noe that God would probably want me to resolve it with His child? its hard to explain in words......its like i can choose to forget about it, but i'm sure dat is not wad God wants me to do....i should try to resolve it....but y am i (eventually going to) wanting to resolve it? iszit because i would like to be good frens (or get it going again?) or jus my christian responsibility? i'm thinking, will it last even if i lets say decide that i want to keep (and get the frendship going again) a close fren? will it jus be another deja vu? hmm i really havta talk to ppl to clear out my thots......
ok huay jia le..... ;)
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Thursday, May 18
it was a blast
haha finally i manage to go to the gym today...........been feeling really deprived of my workout for quite awhile.....the 3 or 4 weeks since skool reopened, i haven gone to the gym ready.......today jus going to the gym and looking at myself being able to lift those weights was such a great feeling lol......i had a good time blasting my body again......shiok......okayy i gotta get back to doing my research then after dat i would havta do up my journal which is due tml at 9am.......
random stuff :
1) i was watching some st hildas girls practising spiking volleyball, i think they were lower sec by the looks of it, some spiked quite nicely without much effort and of course some not as good....but i guess they still can go n improve la.....
2) oh yeah cheng hui, if ur reading this, i haven talked to you in awhile.....and i also haven seen u around in yf and church.....are u okayy? i'm quite concerned about how your doing.....hope everything is ok and ur walk with Our Heavenly Father is going well yeah....please let me noe when u read this......;)
3) oh yeah and da sao YES i did go to the gym! picture dat when we ever get the chance to go gym together haha
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random stuff :
1) i was watching some st hildas girls practising spiking volleyball, i think they were lower sec by the looks of it, some spiked quite nicely without much effort and of course some not as good....but i guess they still can go n improve la.....
2) oh yeah cheng hui, if ur reading this, i haven talked to you in awhile.....and i also haven seen u around in yf and church.....are u okayy? i'm quite concerned about how your doing.....hope everything is ok and ur walk with Our Heavenly Father is going well yeah....please let me noe when u read this......;)
3) oh yeah and da sao YES i did go to the gym! picture dat when we ever get the chance to go gym together haha
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Tuesday, May 16
lunch was so goood
haha i came back from lunch alone not too long ago......today i somehow wanted to try some japanese food for a change......i was so hungry man........if u noe me well enough i bet u can guess wad i would probably order........well i ordered my favorite meat type -- beeeeef lol....shiok man it was some terriyaki beef set.....it was quite ex for a normal meal in the poly, it was $5 lol....but i was given a heaping amount of beef la, plus watermelon summore my favorite fruit....mayb there was alot m s g or wad la but it tasted so good especially also when i was so hungry.......ok enough for today.....i'm going home to draw and mayb catch up on all the stuff i haven been doing......
oh yeah thank you rachel liew for sending me the nice song i posted the last time....now i noe how to sing the song.....
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oh yeah thank you rachel liew for sending me the nice song i posted the last time....now i noe how to sing the song.....
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Monday, May 15
When you're up against a struggle
When you're up against a struggle
That shatters all your dreams
And your hopes have been cruelly crushed
By Satan's manifested schemes
And you feel the urge within you
To submit to earthly fears
Don't let the faith you're standing in
Seem to disappear
Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him
Now, Satan is a liar
And he wants to make us think
That we are paupers when he knows himself
We are the children of the King
So lift up the mighty shield of faith
For the battle must be won
We know that Jesus Christ has risen
So the work's already done
Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him
man i love the lyrics of this song, even though i dunno how to play or sing it even, i was glancing thru the chordbook when i found it.....i so love the chorus, it might be my msn nic in time but for now the "......even the wrong words seem to rhyme" will do haha, going home now
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That shatters all your dreams
And your hopes have been cruelly crushed
By Satan's manifested schemes
And you feel the urge within you
To submit to earthly fears
Don't let the faith you're standing in
Seem to disappear
Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him
Now, Satan is a liar
And he wants to make us think
That we are paupers when he knows himself
We are the children of the King
So lift up the mighty shield of faith
For the battle must be won
We know that Jesus Christ has risen
So the work's already done
Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him
man i love the lyrics of this song, even though i dunno how to play or sing it even, i was glancing thru the chordbook when i found it.....i so love the chorus, it might be my msn nic in time but for now the "......even the wrong words seem to rhyme" will do haha, going home now
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jus post la....
actually i haven been feeling like posting for awhile cos nothing much i feeel i want to post about or mayb most of the time i'm jus lazy.....im not posting now cos anyone asked me to.....sorry la i cant be bothered to post sumtimes even though there might be stuff to post about....there is jus too much i havta and want to do...
like mayb play guitar (woohoo the songs in the chord book rock man....i'm going to learn to play all the songs i noe how to sing, all the chords plus meaningful lyrics shiok man.....)......i played guitar yesterday until i slept at around 3am, luckily i onli had skool at 4pm today so can still sleep in...
i also want to go n do research for my major project (which i haven done by the way) aiya, really no mood to do anything else........and mayb draw as well la...later i go home i'm probably going to draw e sketches and play guitar and try to catch up with my reading of the whole bible in a year (i'm still at least 2 books behind lol).....
haiz so many things to worry about, i should trust God with all of them lol...Lord please help this helpless child of Yours to untangle all of his thots and be aligned to what his Heavenly Father wants for him, help him not to worry about any of the peripherals of this world ;) (dats all for today, im very sian as it is, my major project comm's keyboard sucks, mayb dats y i hate posting here, going home now......)
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like mayb play guitar (woohoo the songs in the chord book rock man....i'm going to learn to play all the songs i noe how to sing, all the chords plus meaningful lyrics shiok man.....)......i played guitar yesterday until i slept at around 3am, luckily i onli had skool at 4pm today so can still sleep in...
i also want to go n do research for my major project (which i haven done by the way) aiya, really no mood to do anything else........and mayb draw as well la...later i go home i'm probably going to draw e sketches and play guitar and try to catch up with my reading of the whole bible in a year (i'm still at least 2 books behind lol).....
haiz so many things to worry about, i should trust God with all of them lol...Lord please help this helpless child of Yours to untangle all of his thots and be aligned to what his Heavenly Father wants for him, help him not to worry about any of the peripherals of this world ;) (dats all for today, im very sian as it is, my major project comm's keyboard sucks, mayb dats y i hate posting here, going home now......)
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Friday, May 5
nominal emotions
haiz....i feel very sian lol....another week of skool has passed and i am like still going thru it the sian way....its like i'm jus living my life not happpy not sad, so sian mann....i wanna feel something mayb? i dunno la.....i cannot really find the meaning for alot of things mayb including blogging for now...haiya i dunno myself la.....mayb its jus me being sian, i hope it'll die off after a while when i really find what defines me la.....
random thots : i've been playing guitar until my finger tips hurt while i'm typing this, i like dat feeling, it means i've been practising....
no meaning....
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random thots : i've been playing guitar until my finger tips hurt while i'm typing this, i like dat feeling, it means i've been practising....
no meaning....
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Tuesday, May 2
its a happy day
haha i'm much happier than i've been in a long while.....i'm not saying i wasnt happy before (not exactly happy and not exactly sad) but i'm so happy today =) wad happened? well i jus finished having my 3 hours of freehand drawing class.....it ended at 6pm....
this freehand drawing class is funn man! haha 1st the whole class took an 'excursion' to e bookshop to get our drawing materials like drawing block, sketch book, various pencils, some soft eraser and some 60cm or 50cm ruler lol........i onli bought the bare minimum lol jus a drawing block and the sketchbook and altogether it costs about $5.10 lol, i think its ex but i dun really noe, im not a design student.....e pencil i borrow from my fren....
after getting back to class, the teacher asked us to draw PERFECT circles big and small on one side of the drawing block and straight lines on the other side.......we were tasked to jus use a pencil, cannot use eraser and ruler lol......at first i was like huh? how to draw like dat.......at first my circles were like some huge crap in the middle of the page......after dat e teacher came around in our groups of 6 and sorta taught us all how to draw......i improved quite abit but i didnt really get wad she meant.....she then asked us to pick out 20 of our most perfect circles.....quite hard for me, (she oso asked us to be critical about our work) so i was critical lol.......drawing e circles took me quite awhile lol....the rest of my group mates finish drawing and started drawing straight lines ready i still drawing......
flip of the page i had to now draw straight lines without using a ruler! wa it was so jialat for me.....cannot make it man......sometimes when i try my best to perfect the straight line it was still crooked.....super frustruating la......at first relaxed one then become stress trying to draw a straight line lol.....then after dat i jus anyhow draw some, it turns out dat the anyhow draw ones could be straight lol....haha....i didnt even manage to finish drawing 20 perfect lines lol......lesson over.....
all my peers all got evaluated with their work by the teacher and she gave comments like a pro.....dunno if its real or she jus trying to get our enthusiasm for e subject lol haha.....but anyway when she saw my work she ask me to do extra 2 drawing blocks worth of circles and lines for homework!! dats 4 sides by the way......walao........i thot it would be a chore but wad can i do?
continues to try and draw a straight line across the drawing block while using a ruler to measure if its straight or not! haha.....i spent some time with the teacher after she dismissed us....she taught me the rite way to draw a PERFECT circle yayy!!! quite a sense of achievement.....then after dat i asked her to teach me how to draw straight lines, now i sorta noe la....still havta practice la.....walao i tell u ah the teacher is some super pro la, she draws straight lines across the drawing block like its so easy, she's not perfect la but still very pro........then after dat a few strokes here and there she created a perpespective drawing (those of u who do DnT would noe)....i was like woah! it has really opened my eyes......the teacher is really encouraging and shui bian as well lol and i enjoy drawing even more now.....haha i guess dats e main reason y i'm so happy now hahaha.....well e other reason is dat i'm in a group where all of us more or less noe each other, we're from the same course and year ma....there are 5 other girls in the group....2 of whom are abit crazy.....good i love crazy ppl....haha then we can be crazy together......had so much fun today which would hav been any normal day if there wasnt any freehand drawing today haahaahaa......
oh yeah did i mention i didnt find drawing e 2 drawing blocks worth of homework a chore after the teacher taught me? haha she said i hav potential so she wants me to practice and e main reason is dat i'm willing to practice because i have made much more improvement after the teacher taught me e rite way.... =D
ok i should stop here.....if not i might jus go on and on....sorry for the long read haha ;D
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this freehand drawing class is funn man! haha 1st the whole class took an 'excursion' to e bookshop to get our drawing materials like drawing block, sketch book, various pencils, some soft eraser and some 60cm or 50cm ruler lol........i onli bought the bare minimum lol jus a drawing block and the sketchbook and altogether it costs about $5.10 lol, i think its ex but i dun really noe, im not a design student.....e pencil i borrow from my fren....
after getting back to class, the teacher asked us to draw PERFECT circles big and small on one side of the drawing block and straight lines on the other side.......we were tasked to jus use a pencil, cannot use eraser and ruler lol......at first i was like huh? how to draw like dat.......at first my circles were like some huge crap in the middle of the page......after dat e teacher came around in our groups of 6 and sorta taught us all how to draw......i improved quite abit but i didnt really get wad she meant.....she then asked us to pick out 20 of our most perfect circles.....quite hard for me, (she oso asked us to be critical about our work) so i was critical lol.......drawing e circles took me quite awhile lol....the rest of my group mates finish drawing and started drawing straight lines ready i still drawing......
flip of the page i had to now draw straight lines without using a ruler! wa it was so jialat for me.....cannot make it man......sometimes when i try my best to perfect the straight line it was still crooked.....super frustruating la......at first relaxed one then become stress trying to draw a straight line lol.....then after dat i jus anyhow draw some, it turns out dat the anyhow draw ones could be straight lol....haha....i didnt even manage to finish drawing 20 perfect lines lol......lesson over.....
all my peers all got evaluated with their work by the teacher and she gave comments like a pro.....dunno if its real or she jus trying to get our enthusiasm for e subject lol haha.....but anyway when she saw my work she ask me to do extra 2 drawing blocks worth of circles and lines for homework!! dats 4 sides by the way......walao........i thot it would be a chore but wad can i do?
continues to try and draw a straight line across the drawing block while using a ruler to measure if its straight or not! haha.....i spent some time with the teacher after she dismissed us....she taught me the rite way to draw a PERFECT circle yayy!!! quite a sense of achievement.....then after dat i asked her to teach me how to draw straight lines, now i sorta noe la....still havta practice la.....walao i tell u ah the teacher is some super pro la, she draws straight lines across the drawing block like its so easy, she's not perfect la but still very pro........then after dat a few strokes here and there she created a perpespective drawing (those of u who do DnT would noe)....i was like woah! it has really opened my eyes......the teacher is really encouraging and shui bian as well lol and i enjoy drawing even more now.....haha i guess dats e main reason y i'm so happy now hahaha.....well e other reason is dat i'm in a group where all of us more or less noe each other, we're from the same course and year ma....there are 5 other girls in the group....2 of whom are abit crazy.....good i love crazy ppl....haha then we can be crazy together......had so much fun today which would hav been any normal day if there wasnt any freehand drawing today haahaahaa......
oh yeah did i mention i didnt find drawing e 2 drawing blocks worth of homework a chore after the teacher taught me? haha she said i hav potential so she wants me to practice and e main reason is dat i'm willing to practice because i have made much more improvement after the teacher taught me e rite way.... =D
ok i should stop here.....if not i might jus go on and on....sorry for the long read haha ;D
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