50/1 feeling lousy

well its been a long time since i last posted? haha...i woke up early n came to skool today....i went fer a swim (which im quite satisfied with....)....i swam quite abit (to me dat is)..i swam like 1km n 100m......o k, e rest of wad i'm thinking is quite lousy stuff about myself...not sure how much i should reveal, in case i jus affect ur mood...lets jus say i went to e gym again todayyy......ok la i wont berate myself so much cos im quite tired now.....

i feel so small sized la....not to mention weak all dat.....wonder how come a stack of weights is able to affect me so much....goes to show how much i actually allow it to affect my mood so much....jus feel lousy la...seem like i cant do as many reps for e same weight....or some weights dat i used to do i couldnt quite do it.....n i seemed to forget alot (long time since i stepped into e gym)......after swimming, my nose has been runny.....i think e reason y dis is happening is either im getting FAT(which i think i am) OR im jus tired from e swim n lack of sleep coupled with e lousy feeling of running nose...i SO hope its e latter lol....cant stand myself being fat la....

sorry i complained enuf....lets see i've been working....switching jobs here n there mainly cuz of e pay la....now im stuck with working at some research company, official title would be surveyor i guess...e pay is quite pathetic lol....much more misely(is there such a word? i noe there is but is it spelt correctly?) than e pan pacific banquet waiter job(where i havta work my guts out, but at least since e hours are long, i get more pay at e end of e day)....e onli problem is dat i really cant stand ONE of e managers....for nuttin scold ppl, vulgarities all dat la so i quitt then lol...

oh yeah as i was saying im stuck now cos i havta give e company one week's notice before i can quit la...so i hope 2 quit by e end of dis working week which happens to be tml....well at least i can save up abit for wad i wanna buy (which really isnt much, im quite content)...hmm how about a cheap guitar so (my brother n) i can practice...i will master One Last Breath by Creed soon i hope....mmm n also sumtin i can listen to....im thinking of a Creative product...zen, zen micro, muvo2 fm, zen neon all dat la.......anyone happen to noe e price jus let me noe by phone or word of mouth k?

49/2 The One Thing

Paul Colman - The One Thing
From the album Let It Go

Here I am
In a river of questions
Can I pour my heart out to a listening ear?
I see this life
It’s valley’s and mountains
And I think of all the roads that brought me here
Oh that brought me here

I’ve questioned my reasons
The life I’m living
I’ve questioned my ability
To judge wrong from right
I’ve questioned all the things
that I’ve ever called certain
My race, my religion, my country, my mind

Chorus:
But the one thing I don’t question is You
You really love me like you say you do
Yea the one thing I don’t question is You
You really love me like you say you do
Hold me Hold me
So Hold me

Well I’ve questioned my significance
Meaning and relevance
Does the work I’m doing really matter at all?
Well I’ve questioned my friendships
Alliance, dependence
Who will still be here when I fall?

Chorus: (2x’s)

Only one thing doesn’t change
Only one thing stays the same
All I know at the end of the day is your love remains

Chorus: (2x’s)

49/1 working on sunday?

well yess im working on a sunday...rather tired n all.....most importantly oso thinking about wad im doing here all dat and y im working on a sunday all dat....must really question my motives mann....well i'll continue to post longer later.....(dis was meant to be published last last sunday but gott no time then i forgot about it oh wells.....)

48/1 mmm..

well im in e office again...but at dis time onli me and my mum is in 'our' department lol....almost total freedom.....still trying to load klove to listen but oh wells its like not working lol....i give up...mayb i'll try again later or sumtin....

oh hmm im now quite bored n bothered....well abit onli la...cant say it is like last time dat much la....klove finally managed to load!! hopefully it will cheer me up lots....should start working....well think i'll post summore later

47/1 sumtin short

well sorry to all those who hav been visiting my blog time and again and found dat i haven been updating it...sorry la i dun normally use internet at home n all...n i hav been rather busy slacking, playing comm at home n half heartedly looking for a part time job...

well i guess i looked for too many jobs ready...so many offers lol...well i cant really blog now...supposed to be working, doing data entry but oh wells...for u all i will risk abit haha....altho im working in a company where my aunt is my e onli immediate boss around...they're all like talking together by the way...like after lunch hours is slack talk for awhile b4 working again haha....oh yeah my mum is working part time here too...

well i gott quite a few thots in my head rite now but if i share it i will havta spend more time thinking about it than actually doing my work dat im supposed to do lol....so yeah...hmm i will be working throughout dis weekend as well....well i hope its onli for dis weekend even tho e pay is quite attractive.....so yeah justa let u noe i wont be in church dis weekend lol...i should stop posting rite about here...till next time...thanx for visiting my blog!